Personal Feedbacks of a new MOT

Every MOT may not remember to ask about all the standard rules and regulations as there are too many to be told one by one, it is advisable to state it all in black and white before each one commit the mistake during the on job training. We need to know where is the danger to prevent ourselves get hurt. Sometimes in the store, there maybe many misunderstandings because we are new and do not know our positioning well as we may be confuse halfway through our training. Just as the recent cases that I personally have faced, heard or experienced; I really feel that sometimes if we (new MOTs) are confident and know ourselves of where and what we are at and standing, we won’t do such silly mistakes. Mixed feelings will make us as a human to be confused. Sometimes it is not about calculating hours because we are slow as we each understand that as we change to a new beginning, we will take a little longer time to finish practicing our newly learned stuff. But when helping up the store as a RA and get lectured by both side, do you think that it is positive? This is proven true that we all cannot see of our very own flaws and even if we saw, we will take that as an excuses. Human is imperfect and unique in their own creative ways and feels differently too when they think too much. The “homework” makes me learn and also make me think back on the “lecture day” itself. In some ways the higher authority are giving me a guide, in the other they are giving indirect hints of “giving it up” myself. Seeing things in 2 sides and think too much is seriously letting me feels irritated many times. I hope that the higher authority also reflect the program and know why and how and what went wrong in the middle. Yes, always blame on myself first before heading to point others, maybe I am not suitable as a BIC at all. But I still want to try.

from the first post to now......

Wow... I have learnt a lot from my past experiences and till now i am still keep on learning from each day's experience.. Right now i feel that my life is changing everyday... I need to moove on... It's yj's birthday again.. wow.. 8 years just passed away just like that... I feel that i have like him for more than that.. lolx.. I really very trapped in this.. why there is a voice telling me about the future and whereby the future is still so far away?? Is that a so-called to be fated to be?? Well, i really have no idea.. How i wish that God can reveal my future to me so that i will have no worries for sure.. lolx... hahaha... but i know that as i have God with me, i do not need to worry as He has already plan my future for me already.. I just need to enjoy this day to the fullest and not to worry about what tomorrow will be.. I need to have training over my emotions as i need to have self control and not to step overboard and hurt myself... I know the very way to hurt myself, that is to say negative words to myself... lolx... other's words is not stronger than my own words... that is why i feel always very negative.... To be frank, God is bigger and God is mystery.. God is all about the good and not the bad... even in negative situations, God is still there to protect my life... It's how we see things that affects us.... Oh no.. I'm facing super huge test.. that's my emotions test... How to pass it??? need to learn how to depend on the Holy Spirit totally.. Lolx.. But it is a very hard lesson.. Hmm i really need to go for deeper studies of the bible... so i will start to save up for the SOT in 2011... God is great!!:) Hallelujah... My emotions are sometimes out of control.. Hopefully i can get over it a.s.a.p!!! Lolx.. need more and more prayers... I need God more!!:)









To Be Continued.....

21 may 2010..

16 may 2010.. In the end, i end the day with a happy smile.. :)





17 may 2010... I went to the next location name da le... the place took nearly 1 day of travel journey... wow... it is a cooling place... haha... we went to "toilet" in the wilderness... wahaha... seems that there are many ppl b4 us went to that toliet too... lolx... we went for dinner and check into the hotel...



18 may 2010... we went around the place and we bought many things.. the whole van is buddhist beside me.. the only christian.. haha.. the unique me stands alone... we went to the temples around... so bored..... hahaha.... i manage to pray during the trip and when i see the nature of the mountains and seas, i am even more excited to go back to singapore and learn more of the Word of God to come to vietnam to preach... pastor kenneth lent me 2 books, i finished one of them and i brought the other one here to read... we continued going to the surrounding places and we went to the waterfall.. we took a cart up from the waterfall and it is really fun!!:) WOW!! The beauty of the nature are presented b4 me!! I LOVE IT!! we went for lunch/dinner in the late evening and back to hotel... Hmmm the place is already being visited almost to an end... but we sill got 1 more day... bored.... we have a family discussion for the place to go for the next day...


19 may 2010... we went to the temples again...:( BORED!!! and after we went to see weird animals that were born uniquely... i took a lot of pictures of the places we visited (excluded temples, i didn't took temples photos for i m a christian!! lolx) hmmm the sun is HOTTTT!! :(
i fasted on the breakfast and took lunch/dinner at evening... The fried potaoes and bananas are NICE!!!:) i ate quite a lot of it!!:) hm we went back to the hotel and be ready to go down from the mountains the next day..:)

20 may 2010... we woke up early and took the van back to the place near my aunt stays... a hotel nearby... Wow!! we experienced BLACKOUT!!! i was showering half way and the incident happen!! what a cool experience!!:) lolx... i went out of the bathroom via the hp light shone by one of my aunties here with me... Lolx... so naked!!! lolx... Hmmm i saw a lizard before me and when the blackout took place, i were afraid that the lizard maybe near me... i shouted!! lolx... i sang worship song to curb my fears.. lolx... Hallelujah!! Holy Spirit is near to protect me!!:) I smsed yj and asked a serious qn.. haa.. perhaps he is really still not ready... i cannot force him too... lolx... Hard hard hard... my heart is broken because he didnt replied me... :( haa... how i wish that i will be loved by myself more.. lolx...


21 may 2010.... today... we went to my vietnam aunt's house... we enjoyed the "last supper" (lunch) and we took showers and prepared to go to airport...:) I am so excited!!:) because i can get to c my family too!!:) i love love it!!:) cya soon!!:)










To Be Continued......

May 16, 2010 vietnam trip day 5...

12 may 2010 - Happy... the day that i reached vietnam... i reach vietnam in the morning... the time here is 1 hour later than singapore timing... I went will all my aunties and uncles... :x what a "good" combination... the weather is very hot!!! i think it is no better than singapore... hmmm we took the bus from the ho chin minh to my aunt house... on the way there we ate a very nice bread... i love it!! haa... we reached the old traditional place of the world where there are many getting in touch with the nature.... first time saw the agriculture world... wow... feel so excited!!:) we stayed at a hotel that doesn't seems to be like one.... not very nice.... but we endured the first night...

13 May 2010- Day 2.. We went to nearby market to walk around... after that we went to my aunt place again... hmmm i experienced a great breakthrough of experience of the nature... i played with the cow!! WOW!!! ifrst time ever i saw the cow so near!! (ps. i didn't like to go to the zoo actually) i enjoyed the food and everything... :) we all sit at motorcycle out to town... haa... my size is too big till the tyre of the motorcycle spoilt... Oops...:x haha.. i hurt my leh and it left a scar on it.. sad...:( we went to the 2nd hotel of the night.. it still don't look like a hotel..:x the facilities are not very good... but still we endured the 2nd night... :)

14 May 2010- Day 3... we went out from the village area to a bit high class hotel... it is near the sea... Wow... it is quite chilling place... we went to the tourists' views and then to the market at the other area and i bought a pair of shoes and some small gifts for my friends... Oh no... my friends are many but my money are a few.. LOLX... i don"t know what to do sia... lolx... pray for more money!!! LOL... hmmm i went to play at the sea and i enjoyed it very much... the touched of the nature...:) quite good...:) i started to love the nature and to fly to more country to see the works of God...:)


15 May 2010- Day 4.... The day of sitting in the bus most of the time... We went from the day 3 hotel and towards our 4th location... this place is a bit higher class than the past 3
days... hotels is near the seaside and we ate seafood ... after which, we went to the night funfair... the adults sit with me at the fairy wheel.... WOW... what a breakthrough for the adults!! lolx... i get to use computer and find that the computers here do not have sound systems... though i know it but i thought that a ear piece can be used.... How i wish to watch service online...:x hmmm i managed to chat with yj... wow..:) haha... hmm i started to be more and more bold in my words.. what a good thing to do!!...:p i sleep at 1230am in the midnight....:x


16 May 2010- today, day 5...... In the morning i got an bad experience with my relatives.... i do not want to go out with them as they always complaining about alot of things... i hate that...:( i want to watch chc live webcast for church service!!! they against.. i was very sad and started to have a rebellious heart... i don't like them treating me like a kid... with an unwilling heart i went out... we went to take the boat and then to a market and then we are back before 1pm to the hotel... i feeling like what the...... i wasted the time to walk and they keep on against to go everywhere my auntie asked... What a boring group...:( hopefully lter i will have fun!!! i cried out to God in prayer in my small little book.... how i wish that i can go back soon!!:x the weather and people here are simply HOT!! (WEATHER IS HOT, THE PEOPLE IS HOT IN A SENSE THAT THEY CANNOT BE GOING UNDER THE SUN... AND WALK TOO LONG....-_-!!!) now, i got 5 more days to go... hopefully everything will be well after today!!:) For God is Good all the time and all the time God id good!! i learnt so much things today about contridicting thinking of human... in mky relatives and in my own thinking too!! there are more to be learnt.... Hallelujah, God put me here for a great purpose!! I will experience God in an unique way!!:)









To Be Continued....

wow.. my life is filled with purpose and excitement..

Hallelujah!!:) God is good all the time and all the time God is good!!.:)
I went back to carrefour and this is the 4th times I went back.. Wow!! That's cool!!:)
I believe that I holds a record!! Lolx.. Thank God that I am able to be back and learn new things from new leaders..
To be frank, I went back is because carrefour can let me have a little flexible time of work hrs.
And reason why I want to go suntec branch is that I am awaiting for 2011!!:)
City Harvest Church will be moving to suntec convention hall!!:) woooo!!;)
Excited for the change!!:) I want to work full time at church!! Haahaa..:)
Hmmm time is not ripe yet.. So I will have to perserve onto the next greater change..:)
I want to be a person who dare to dream and dare to achieve my dreams..:)
It will be no longer I but Christ who lives in me!!:) I want to thank Holy Spirit for the strength that He blessed me!:)
Throughout this 4 months plus or 2010, I really experience a lots of cool things!!:)
I went through ups and down in my life and I know tat I need to focus on God instead of the stupidity thinkings..
God will bless me what it is right for me and I will want to get more of God's love in my life..:)
I learnt that if I want to be loved by God more, firstly I need to love God more..
That is why I am learning not to hurt myself an many ways.. I want to move forward!!
I will achieve my dreams!!:) I want to be a dream chaser!! I don't want to be proud.. I want to be happy everyday and in every way!!
Lastly, I want to say is:" THANK GOD I'M STILL ALIVE!!:)"









To Be Continued...:)

Why i am so passionate about God??

1) My God is real.. I only believe in Him...
2) He is the One who taught me what is LOVE...
3) He is Almighty God....
4) He knows me even before i were born to this earth....
5) I experienced Him when i am down...
6) His strength is real.. I have experienced it myself...
7) His healing power is real... I'm healed because of His love for me...
8) I used to live in fear; but with HIm, though i feared, His perfect love for me will cast out all my fears...
9) I am from a buddhist background and used to pray idols; when i know God and how He sent His only Beloved Son, Jesus Christ died for me, i truely believe in this only Great and Almighty God who has saved me from sin....
10) In God, there is where i really can share with HIm all my worries, my doubts and my everything.. for I BELIEVES that God will sent His angels to help me when i am in need....
11) After knowing God, I can slowly find what i wanted for in my life... I can find my purpose of living...
12) I am used to be a dumb, after i know Him, i become wiser and wiser... God gives me His wisdom...
13) I encountered the real God with the bible examples.... So many... you can ask me; it's a real encounter only up to you to believe...
14) God is passionate about me, and He has chosen me to be passionate for Him too.:)
15) I don't know my future, yet i know and believe that God has a great destiny for me...
16) God is good all the time and all the time God is good....:)

My life.... The way i hope it will be in the way i want... BUT IT WILL BE NOT... As GOD lives, my life will be HIS!!:)

Hallelujah... throughout the days of my ups and down, i learnt one thing... If God is going to bless you, no matter how you put a full stop in it, He will still put a commer below it... That is why we need to keep on believing that there is a God in the midst of us to keep our livs moving.... God is Good all the time and all the time God is good!!!:)

In jan, i gotten many ups and down.. In the last day of jan, i feel that God wants to change my life to a life full of LOVE.... Pastor Nikko shared a message of restoration.. And it really touches my heart and i wanted to learn how to love my earthly father back.... However, on the 1 feb 2010, an incident hits my house and that makes me feel very hard to love.... Indeed i wanna thank God that He showed me a truth, that is.... The devil is trying to make me not to love but God is always LOVE... I dunno y i am feel ing super down... So stressed.... However, there is no exact stress... It's my thinking that r making myself to stress so much.... I thank God that i am able to overcome it by the love from friends and leaders who are so encouraging towards me... I think it is a time for me to rise up to take lead of my household soon in my family... My mother is getting older and older everyday... what i need to to is to learn to independent and to get a career to establish soon...


My plan is to get a diploma in retail at the end of 2010... and a life that will be bit by bit changed everyday..... Learn to love is the first step... Love what i am studying will be a great help to accomplish great things of life... thank God i am still alive...


I will keep on keeping on to manage the victory that Jesus has shed His blood for... Hallelujah... Glory and Praise to the Lord God Almighty...:)




To Be Continued.....

my dimension of God is greater than all...:)

Don't question me too much of God... because my dimension of God is bigger than yours.. that is my unique and i don't really want to compare the faith u have with mine... i believe in greater miracles and had many powerful experiences throughout my walk with God... Even though we serve same God, but i c my God is greater than all the problems... I need to be couragous to face the negative things... Jesus is the Savior, Jehovah is the Abba Father and Holy Spirit is the form of Power to all of us...



Many ppl are having doubts but i want to be changed and be the difference... For my God are really BIG!! We are not to constraint God in our own mind.. For all things are possible to those who believe... :) Hallelujah...



To Be Continued......