About my badness

Actually i scare snake, fish and a lot of animals that are in the sea and cold-blooded animals. actually i scare balloons too! My weakness is that my determination is not strong enough to do something, i am some sort of double-minded. If you are one of my friends, you can see that i am really a lazy person and don't like people to force me to do something that i dislike and i don't have the mood of doing it. I used to be rebellious and now also. It is just like a normal proceedure for me when you force me into doing something i don't like and when i am angry. i am quite stubborn too. I can say myself that i am quite easily tempted by people to do wrong things. i tend to be quit emotional and i am very sensitive towards the words, attitude of others. I really can change my attitude as fast as a situation change. I am a smoker last time and i drink too. I mix with bad company in the past and often neglect my studies. Even though i now not with them, but i never get serious to what i am doing. I can't learn quickly and i am quite a self-centred person. I do not like to talk about my personal life to others except some super close friends that i trust a lot. i sometime tend to boast around about the good things that i have achieve and do not like others to do that. I never think of others sometimes and i just care about what i do and say. I do not take good care of myself as i do not love myself that much. I do not know how to love myself and i like to gossip about other prople bad points and never think of myself. I often think that i am useless and nobody cares about my and i always hurt myself.

My admirers

I have quite a lot of admirers till now from primary school, the 1st person is my pri 2 classmate, Govin Raj. He is a quite interesting guy that i know as he loves to tease me a lot in the past. IN my pri 3 year, I know a guy name Jeremy, he is also a type of boys that i like. Pri 4 time i am in crush with a boy name Edmund, this crush do not stay long as i like another guy name Andrew Ho Wei Heng in my pri 5 to Pri 6 year time. He is a guy that i like for the longest time in my primary school time. It is God's will i think to like Govin Raj again in pri 6 in the later part of my year. Govin is my classmate at pri 1 and pri 2, pri 5 and pri 6. Although i get a chance to know that he indeed also having crush on me, but i never let him by chance that i like him also. it came to pass that during my pri 6 time i know a guy name Sim Yu Heng, from Evergreen Secondary School. I am so stupid as i like him quite a lot and i choose Evergreen Sec Sch in 2001, duriong my PSLE time. Sec 1, i like a guy name Teo Poh Boon, sec 3e1, in this school. I like TPB for about 1 yr 6 mths. By chance, i know and like a guy name Justin Ng Wei Kun, my former "god-brother". He introduce a guy name Cheng Kiat Nian, Ah Kiat, and i fall in love with him once. It is really amazing that i met another admirer name Wong Yoong Jian John. At the same time, i also in crush in Eng Siang Hao. Although i like my section senior, Ng Wee Leong, but i didn't forget that i like Neo Bao Long before. It was such a long list of my admirers but however i didn't name all as there are too many to tell. This list is just part of it only. It is quite amazing that i have broke the record as i have know John for a long time and i now still in crush with him. it has been for 2 years i think that i like him. Oh no... if you somehow is one of the list of admirers that i named, don't be surprise because i really got a lot a lot to tell. And too, i "change heart" very often too.

我的过去

我是出生于1989年9月16日。我的过去跟其他人一样，充满着了喜怒哀乐。我可是算好了，有很多家人疼爱我。但是，我家庭温暖是在我爸爸赌上引时候变得不美好了。我从小就很懂事，知道什么是对什么是错。但是这些事情让我觉得很不自在也很痛苦。因为小时候的回忆是我想不要的回忆。虽然小的时候有很多记不起的事情但是我也活得蛮的復杂的。真的是受不了了！我越想越头痛。我真的很不想去想它但是却无法控制自己再去想它。我是很復杂的人，我总是拿不定主意我自己想要追求的理想或事物。我的过去的日子也有很可怕的是事情发生。我记得有一次：我的爸爸欠大耳窿钱；这事情害得我的家整天不得安宁，有几次还闹到报警呢。也许你不相信，但是我真的遇到了这些不愈快的事情。要是你到了我的过去，我看你应该也不希望你要这样的童年吧。我希望我的下一代不会有和我一样的童年，我希望他们有一个很愉快又开心，自由自在的童年。

我爱耶稣

耶稣基督是我爱的神，祂是我的主。祂与天父和圣灵是我认识的最伟大，最仁慈的神。我识一个很没有自信心的人。就在我升上中一年中时，我的一位朋友让我认识了这位伟大的天父。我虽然有时候觉得很伤心，很寂莫，很很生气，但当我去和上帝说话得时候，我都会觉得自己平静了下来。我因此决定无论如何，我都会去爱祂。上帝对我付出的爱是永恒不变，祂对我的宽恕更是无法形容的伟大。上帝的爱让我学会到爱比恨更美好，让我学会怎样不怕失败，从新振作起来。无论到哪里，我都不会觉得孤单，因为我知道：在我的心里面，圣灵永远都会跟随我，甚止至到我上天堂的那一天，祂也不会离开我的。