I love God but I don't know how to love people

I am closing down right now as I am being hurt for lots and lots of time... By family problem and how others critise me... I really don't know how to listen to others and keeping on wanting people to listen from me.... I am so sad as i realise that i don't know how to love people.... I don't know how to love myself too... The only One i know how to love is God.... Maybe because only He knows how i feel and do really care about me.... Although throughout this and last page are all negative pages, but i really don't know how to be self encouraged this moment.... I felt myself to be crashing down and going to burst off anytime... I don't a heart to care anymore as i, myself had been so hurt.... I don't know what is call real friendship even though sometimes i pretend that i know... Please forgive me if you are one of my friends as if i really ever been hurting you in my words.... I felt like God is setting a test for me to pass right now and i can say i really very stress and really thinking of giving up.... I don't think i can carry on with the same cell group anymore.... I don't know why and i feel like backslidding and not going for the cell group meetings and what so ever.... I really felt very negative.... I can't breathe.... I am going to sink.... I feeling of dying right now....