What am I going to do?

I am in a confuse nowadays.... I don't know what am i suppose to do... I really want to be like a child, free of worries and had nothing much more to care.... I really want to forget the past and continue my future.... What am I doing??!!! Sometimes I felt that I am in such a wrong in doing certain kinds of thing.... I know that is bad, but why am I doing it???? i really don't want to go in deeper until there is no help... No... I want to go towards the godly side and never the ungodliness in my personal life... But what can i do??? Haiz... I am not a perfect person even though sometimes my words may be encouraging... I am not a good listener and i tried to be one... its hard sometimes for me to discover one's potential... As I don't even get to know myself better in the first... Oh no... what am i suppose to do?? can someone please help me.... Thank you....