Money issues in my family...

No matter how others that money as a possesion outside the world or what, my family is always having quarrels over money issues more than others... My family went through the very hard times, we even nearly met bankruptcy in the early days of my childhood... ThanK God the people around me, my relatives, to stand out for us and helped us a lot... Money is not eveil i believe, but it has the very least and too powerful effects if we don't know how to handle it well.. The fiancial status in my house is quite bad and recent just get a bit better, Bad things happened again... My dad get into gamble habits and owe lots of lots of money.... When in pri 3, my family is in a debt environment...My dad get worst... No one can help him except himself is willing to change his habits.... As always, i wanted to save money, but my money will get stolen by my dad or brother... I am so hopeless in saving and i stopped to save up... I know that is wrong as we need to save some of the goods for the later years when we had emergency.... But i don't have the faith to save money... I wanted to change this habit and start to save... I want to get a permanent part time job and others, but i am too lazy.. i need to change in this bad habit... Money is the source that we have, but not that enough... haiz... Money in my family is quite eveil as we don't know how to save money... what is this as my mum said: "our house is lack of money, so we need to open our house for more gambles???" Haiz... Who can help me? I really need helps in a lot of areas.... Haiz... I rather love God then to love money.... I'd love to get wealthy, but, relationship must not worsen in my family... Haiz... Diasappointments in my family especially in the sense of monet issues... haiz.... haiz... haiz... Sian ar....