wow.. a very good book indeed....

Today, i have went to my secondary school, which is Evergreeen Sec to get a foot massage book from Mr. Sui... After just a flip of that particular book, i felt that the book is just right and fantastic for me... Wahahaha... The one i want to "torture" using this book is my mother... Hahaha... Because she always wanted me to help her to massage he feet all the time when i am sitting on the bed beside her legs... So fustrated man... Like what sia.... Wahahaha... Then I went to library to borrow some more books concerning massage also... wah!!! even more fantastic for me... So next time i can have a potential skills also... But indeed, it will takes me a lot of time to study and read all these, but yet i will try my best to master it ba... The book that Mr. Sui lent me is from his friend, wah... all in the traditional chinese words which are hard to understand sia... Wahahaha... but i will try though... Hehe... When i see that book, i imediately regret to lend from the person because it is such a hard book to read sia.... But after i filp it, i found a lot of interesting stuffs that i can learn, so i will try to learn for a period of time... If i think i can do it, i will start taking the next step to the next level of learning these massage... Wahahaha.. Then i can open a massage shop in the near future... That's very great idea indeed... Wahahaha...

Money issues in my family...

No matter how others that money as a possesion outside the world or what, my family is always having quarrels over money issues more than others... My family went through the very hard times, we even nearly met bankruptcy in the early days of my childhood... ThanK God the people around me, my relatives, to stand out for us and helped us a lot... Money is not eveil i believe, but it has the very least and too powerful effects if we don't know how to handle it well.. The fiancial status in my house is quite bad and recent just get a bit better, Bad things happened again... My dad get into gamble habits and owe lots of lots of money.... When in pri 3, my family is in a debt environment...My dad get worst... No one can help him except himself is willing to change his habits.... As always, i wanted to save money, but my money will get stolen by my dad or brother... I am so hopeless in saving and i stopped to save up... I know that is wrong as we need to save some of the goods for the later years when we had emergency.... But i don't have the faith to save money... I wanted to change this habit and start to save... I want to get a permanent part time job and others, but i am too lazy.. i need to change in this bad habit... Money is the source that we have, but not that enough... haiz... Money in my family is quite eveil as we don't know how to save money... what is this as my mum said: "our house is lack of money, so we need to open our house for more gambles???" Haiz... Who can help me? I really need helps in a lot of areas.... Haiz... I rather love God then to love money.... I'd love to get wealthy, but, relationship must not worsen in my family... Haiz... Diasappointments in my family especially in the sense of monet issues... haiz.... haiz... haiz... Sian ar....

My brother

My brother is some one i don't really like too.... He is very misbehaving ans often get himself into troubles... I really wish that he can be more understandable towards others... Everytime when he did something wrong, he will always keep quiet like my dad.... The whole family are in a mess right now... And still, my brother is not thinking well enough... Everything that come to pass, my brother is always seems so not bother... Maybe he is trying to express that he wants to care, but my family is no communication at all... What for it is call a family?
Family will communicates and cares for all... Maybe its because our caring system at home is not up to a standard whereby all will communicates... My brother seems so carefree in spite all the problems... how i wish to be like him.... Really... In the past, he often bullied me and make me like his slave... And always makes me feel so depressed... He is quite humours too... But he is very hot tempered and short tempered... I and him often get into quarrel and fights last time, but in the midst of our bad things, we "patched" up very quick too... He is quite violent... I am the one who always get hurts from him and everytime i will cry secretly due to the bad violent thing that he did to me like kick or punch me hardly with his fist and leg... However, time and time passed, all changed to better and better, i now seldom quarrel and fight with him... We are like good friends now... That is a great thing to be proud of... Thank God for His righteousness and doings that i can be in a better realtionship with my brother...

I Love my mother

In the family... I love my mother the most as she really sacrifise the most.. she would really let me to have the very food when she is really more hungry then me... I love my mother because she is the only one who is supporting the family... Every morning at 6.25am, she will rush out for work till 5 to 6 pm... Her love to the family really a lot a lot... Even though i didn't say it out, but she is the one whom love the house even though it has been broken long long time ago.. Sometimes i really don't understand how she feels, but i really want to show care and concern to her in the smallest way in expressing my deep heart love for her... I really want my dad to stop the evil doings that hurt my mum, but i really don't know what is the right way of telling him.... All the while was my mothe who did the households, earning the very few dollars to eupport the family.. I love you mummy.. That is something i want to express out but i really don't have the courage to do so... Friends, Mothers have their difficulties too... Please try to understand as they sometimes don't know how to expressed themselves well enough for each and everyone of us who is a child to them... Nobaody knows how a mummy's feeling without the true communication... I admit that communication is the poorest that my family is with... Thats why we don't even express that we do love and care for one another so easily... Friends, Stop ur cold wars with ur family.. especially ur mothers... who give birth to you all with the 9 months of pregnancy.... Thank God that my mother was not others but, Qu Lan Yin, is my lovely mother who had showed unconditional love to my family... Thank you mummy, I will always love you..!!

I dislike my father the most... In my family of 4

My mother has been syffering and strif hard to work in the American school.. But everything changes this time round... My dad is a gambler since i was primary 2 or 3... He has never quit gambling ever since even though we gave him many chances... He smokes too and got no cares about the house... my mother beared it so hard through and finally we got a much more better life than before... My mother fight the fight with all her strength and now, she is around 50 yr old... Oh no... I really wish tat i can hate ppl, but in God's will, i must never hate... And must honoured them... I felt like crying right now as the time passes by... i dislike my dad even more to the core even though i still own him as my dad.... nothing changes.. things became worst when i just heard that my dad had stolen my mum's golden jewellary!!!... My mum was crying really badly... How can a man did that to a female?? I promise myself not to marry such man in the future.... I want my mum to be a happy retiree... I really very sad right now about this... I feel like crying out loudly as i could.. my hearts is breaking when my mum is crying... She work so hard and all her efforts were gone... just because my dad's bad habits.... I really dislike my dad and really wish that my mum would divorced him real soon and forget him... Why because of shotgun and marry??? Its not true that single parent will make the child suffers... Marry a wrong person makes ALL suffers... I will want to know my future husband TOTALLY before i make that saying of "I DO".... I don't want a man who is like my dad's character... NO WAY MAN.. I can tell u straight away... That man will be kicked out of my world and story... I want to rebuild my mother's broken heart again.... I want to fight the fight with her.... Please send mi comments of what and how to do it... Thank u...

JEALOUS HEART!!

I am so jealous of my brother... He got a brand new phone while I still using my super old phone!! I am jealous because my mother seldom buy so good quality phone to me... The first time she buy the nokia 6510 to me and after 3months, she took it back and tell me because i overspent my phone bills..... I am so sad lor... So unfair... Sometimes treally thinking whether if i am really my mother's real daughter or not.... Haizzz.... So whatever lor... How i wish to scolded all the vulgars out fron a~z now!! I am so disappointed about this... So sad over this... I want to buy a mp3 but my mother said that if i buy, i will not get any money for my allowances... So UNFAIR!!!!! I'm so stress and feeling so down..... Why my mother always like that one??? Buy to one and let the other jealous... And also put boys higher position as girls... I don't care.. I don't want to help her to do anything since i didn't get the benefits... and all the benefits are all my brother's.... Ask my mother to use my brother to do the housework la... Since she treasure him so much like all slave stuff to do is me and all the prince stuff and others good things belongs to my brother!!! I am so sad towards my mother... She once again and again hurt me and treat me like slave and my brother as her prince AND princesss... What is me then??? A bondage and a slave to her.... Haiz.... I am jealous... jealous... Jealous!!!!!