30/12/2008........ ENJOY MY FULL DAY!!....

Wows..... Today is so cool!!! I never been so packed in my schedule before.. hahaha.... woke up at around 1130am, went out at 1230 pm... den give my mother $400... my pay is damn little only got $600+ only... lolx... left $200+... went to clear my debts.... Owe my aunty $50, Moe Htay i promose to give her $15 for a stupid mistake she did few days ago...... sand given to pei mei $30 for what i have owe jacqueline for the Taxi claimss.... buy a packet of durian cost $10 for my aunty and also a packet of rice for my aunty... my aunty given mi a blessing of $15, i went to take back my money $16 for the EMSU overcharged of my no pay leaves... so i gotten back $31 but i have spent more than that... I treat YJ eat $21for both, hmmm i bought a shirt and jeans for my cousin's wedding tml... $85, bought a small game for my niece as i have promised $4.... den return shuyi $12 for taxi claims.. nw overall i left with only $2o++ for the whole of next month... LOLX...... i wanna a debt free of 2008 so that my 2009 will be better... I believe God will forgives and forget of what i have not given and will look that i am working hard to lead a more fruitful life for 2009.... In 2009 i will have to train myself to plan sall my days... 1 day before so that i can do what i have planned...... I will train myself not to waste time as time is important.... i will try to plan as much things as i can accomplish for each day...

WOW!! changing to bazaar in 2 days time.. Its so cool!!! i can learn more things... my aim is to learn as much as i can and sooner i can really go and be an entreprenuer.. wahahahaha.... COOL!!!!! Hmmm thinking back of 2008, i have been very stupid, but due to this stupidness i know alot of frens.... I really wish to be happy always.... wahahahaha...... Its time for my to wake up my ideas and do things that i dream off.... wahahahaha... HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!

GOD BLESS!!!...


To Be Continued in 2009...........

Christmas....

Wow... I am now waiting for Christmas..... Haha... Hmm i feel like i am in the high mood... haha...
Hmm recently i felt that i am very vert down even though i am so excited about christmas, bcuz go tso many things happen to my days working at carrefour... i have quitted one of the job offically on 2 dec 2008 and nw waiting for a pending transferring of dept to commercial line... haha... sunno y, i feel like the things will not be the same as before... I dunn wanna stay at one spot.. i wanna explore the world, explore the things that i am surrounded with...
Hmm i know bernard at carrefour just like ben.... LOL... but the stories are different becuz i feel that i will want bernard to be my true fren than a lover..... Me and him cannot be together as my true fren will only be fren... he will know most of my things.... HOWEVER, i dun feel like telling him so much as i feel that he dun really willing to be a fren of mine.. haha.... my requirements is high as nt many thinngs can be shared... Hmm certain ppl know certain things of my life but nt all... hahaha... cuz certain ppl woll nt wanna hear so much..... i feel like i am like a piece of shit la... lolx.... Hmm i recently really feel very suck up la... lol... dunn feel like blogging or keep in touch with frens all that alreadi...... wanting to work hard for money... lolx... it will be a cold and colder mi.. wahahha.... the one u dunno....


To Be Continued....

realisations of many things....

Wow.. Quite long didn't update... Now, there are lots of things to update...
I've work in Emsu town council calling hotline for 2 months. It is a fun job but i don't like it... hahaha.. maybe i am too used to be at carrefour... Hmm call centre job is fun due to the carpark enforement.. I will have to deploy ppl to go summon cars which are illegal parking @ carparks.. lolx... cool... got one case is until whereby someone wanna catch the person who call the hotline to test the response officers; i have learn got 2 different ro, one is CEO,carpark enforcement officers and ro the one who response to the call of illegal parking calls from emsu.. LoLxx...
hahaha... just fall asleep and now wake up.. lolx... heng its before my uncle reach home.. lolx... hahaha...

Hmm i have so many feelings about my life.... Hahaha... But the first thing that i wanna do is to study... No matter what course, as long as it is a study that can enpowers me to achieve higher that is what i want.... Now i wanna to go back to God's love... I have realize that I have changed alot alot... Not just a little... Hmmm i will be transferring to Bazaar dept soon... Many surounding frens like shuyi and sharo asking is it because of Bernard??
To tell the truth: Not really, as i wanna aim higher than my current post and transferring can make me know more things that i wish to learn.... hahaha... Bernard suggest me to go his dept cuz he is very short-handed... You all shall see; with more power in carrefour is good as the higher authority you have, the more things you can accomplished.... Aim high is a positive mind; but with a revenge mind it will destroy all that you wanna achieve... God is a cool God...

Recently, I dunno why i am so excited of going to other dept.. I feel something is going to explode in my life.... A brand new chapter.... A brand new life is awaiting for me to explore beside putting down the past of all my errors... I have faith in myself... My life will not be the same anymore...
I wanna thank all the people who comes and goes in my life.... Every people is a lesson that i can learn from... Including YOU who reads my blog... haha.. never know why is that my blog is so long right??? lolx.. Its because i am emotional people.. I feel for alot of things and in these; i found something new to say and to update... I love to share, but am afraid to share it so openly.. lolx... i mean as i tell u personally la; so i blog..

This blog belongs to me and all my memories of life.. Thank you for spending time to know me.. Perhaps you may find something meaningful out of it when you are down?? you will never know right?? hahaa...
Spend time knowing a person who you wanna show concerns starting is to read their stories in their blogs... Thank you for concerning about me... God Bless You when you reads... Hope my life is not that boring to you.. Lolx... Take care.. Hope to c you again soon!!:)





To Be Continued...

Updates from last post....

I am so confused of my life, i want to study and get a higher qualification for my life; but i dunno wat to do.... so sad... there are so so many things happening in my life... sad and also happy... i also dunno wat to say abt it... hmm my surroundings are filled with so many biased cases and i felt like shutting my ears of listening... I wanna get a saving plan but i wanns think of who to look to... hmm today i went to buy a dress which i wanted to buy so lo0ng ago.. haha... finally got it!!!! hmm i am waiting for nov14 as my uncle is going to plan a genting highland trip... i wanna go but i scare i not enough money... sad la... lolx... I want to be more and more cheerful.. i want my surrounding frens to know that they are able to trust me in my words.. i wanna to go so many places.. but all cannnot be fulfilled until i get a specific plan... Jesus; help mi!! hahaha... I feel that even i want God's help i need to change abit my character ba... i know that i am so stupid in certains ways such as keep on thinking abt ben or so... hahaha... sian... HAAAAAH..... SO FRUSTRATED AND ANGRY... SIAN HAAHH.... i believe i can be changed soon after i forget ppl or replace some other one into my hearts so that i can be more happy and contented in my heart... i believe i will turn back Jesus soon after i forget one whom i really can't forget right now... Jesus God; please give mi some more time... help mi even i am not worthy... Jesus I thank u for the knowledge and wisdom that u blessed mi that other might not have.. Thank You Lord for everything.. I will love You forever.. i know even times i may fail You but You will never give up on me as You are a God Who LOVES... Thank You for Your grace and mercy Jesus...


To Be Continued...

new life...... confused and unstable..

Recently i am so busy, i almost forget the connections that i have. Hmm i seem like become more and more closed up to the world that is open. I feel that i am always quitting as i don't have a strong determination. If my determination is strong and firm, I believe i will be a better person. Hmmm it seems like even to update this blog is a hard chore for me. Hmm i wish i can accomplish something great as i believe my life is at another chapter of life. This year, i celebrate my birthday w/o a birthday cake. haha.. I feel its quite pathetic and sad. haha.. However i am glad that this year i got a lot of frens wishing me. Wow, i feel that Jesus is a great God as the cg N139 ppl still can remember my birthday and giving me a present. It shows that God has not forget my birthday. Haha.. Hmm i will not forget God; however i am really cramp with works and excuses not to attend church and cgm. I feel like i am going more and more further away from God. I have done lots of errors and wish to cut that down, however it seems so difficult.. I'm stuck in so many thoughts that are negative in certain ways. Today i am so glad that i am able to update my life... All this while i blog is for my own purpose... All my friends are welcome to read, however the main purpose is for me to read in the near future to see how my life goes about.... I have work in 2 locations now, EM service and Carrefour.. Somehow i feel that i am not suitable @ EM services as the job is good but its always sitting down. I am a very plump already, if i keep on working there, i am so scare that i will be fatter and fatter. NO WAY!! haha.... Today is quite a good day as there are only a few calls and i am able to learn on my own. Everytime when there are new challenges i will feel so emo as the fear is there. Hm recently i don't know why, there is a fear of death. I dreamt of so many weird dreams as all are so connected to my life and surrounding friends. Haha.. I feel so sad of my life... Anyone can help?? Sobx... I feel that now is the time to train my focus and determination. i feel so irritated by myself.. I want to achieve high but i don't know why i am so "low" right now. I want to find a course and study asap so that i believe that another chapter coming in next year will be better.. hahahaha... I feel so sian in so many things... I feel that in certain ways i am so helpless and useless... Somethings in life are fated, but i believe that miracle will happens and i am waiting for mine to be comingsoon.. I hope that next time i blog it will be a stable life and exciting moments... I will need to train my patience from now on... hahaha... and also my determinations and also focus... Lastly of my blog today is that i wanna thank my God for everything that is happening in my life from the past to now... Good and improvements that i can see in myself from the first day i know Him in my secondary life... Thank You Lord for Your grace and mercy, and Your kindness shown into my life, Your Love that never ends brings me to a better life.. I will come back to You as soon as I come to my senses bah.. Now i am still not waken up fully as You know... I believe that there will be a day whereby i am transformed to a person that You want me to be.. Thank You Lord of my life...




To Be Continued.....

Changing point of view.... Korea trip...

I'm back now after my korea trip... From the 31 aug to 5 sep 2008... This year there are more things happen in my life... From the beginning of the year to now... the ups and downs of my life is a challenging moments of my life... My emotion is so messy and now i feel that it is quite peace at this time... Everything went peace after my korea trip... haha... Wow... Such a wonderful moments that make mi changes my point of view of my own life... The beautiful sceneries of korea gave me want to make more trips to more countries... I want to go to Bangkok, China, Taiwan, Hong Kong........... and etcs.... I want to be more clear minded of what i want now.. EVerything cannot be a promise as i am not that perfect and i have a weak determination... I wanna learn how to be strong in determination first before i can accomplish big things... how i wish that i can be more and more better person...

The Korea trip is not really fun because i dun like to take picture as a group.. hahaha.... I prefer the theme parks and shoppings.. Hmm i didn't play much... so sad... only 2 games only i played... hmm i will visit Korea again in the near future.. haahaa... Hmm after the Korea trip my mind is empty.. Means that i didn't think so much about relationships or troubles at carrefour... So relax.... I want to learn new things... i am so tired of everything le... Haiz... i wanna change new environments and new boss le sia.. Lolx... Hmm i want to work hard for my next trip... Its better for me to go with someone more fun sia.. Not many picx but lots of games and fun... Cuz i am a person who like excitements.. hahaa... Hope that next time i blog it will be more better changes...




To Be Continued...

Wow.... Going to fly away soon...

Today is the countdown of my trip to korea... 5 more day to fly... haha.. so excited... lolx.. hmm i never been to any other country beside malaysia and of course singapore la.. haha... hmm i dunno y...... i feel like my life will be changed after the trip... lolx.... haha.... maybe i will be changed to a more happier person??? Hee... BUT....... Nw i dunno y... i keep on missing someone... ARGHH.... Super EMO sia.... Stop it!!!!! So sian.... I feel that i am going down to a stupid EMO thing again... to a same person... AGAIN?????!!!!! I am like a fool who dunno hw to let go.... Anyone Help??!!!!

I wanna throw aside my EMO and go for holiday liao... Hope i can do it sia... Lolx... Thank God for His mercy and Grace... I wanna fly away... Hope never come back sia... Lolx.. I will update my blog once i come back.... May got changes bah.. Hee... C ya soon....



To Be Continued

Latest Things Happening....

Wow... So soon i blog.. hahaha... Hmm recently i was damn angry with mei tian... She is so childish and cannot understand how other people is thinking... Unresonable and so.......... Haiz... Since she become supervisor she is very ya ya papaya... Like a super women... interrupt manager's things and everything else... i become more and more serious in my everything... That good.. However i feel that my power of supervisor is reducing and reducing day by day... So.... Lolx... But it is good la, so that i can be more relax and dun do so many things at a time.. But so many times i feel so irritated that so many new supervisor dunno info counter... always me at info to relieve for breaks and every now and then i feel like i m a dog sia.. lolx... But maybe is because i am ez going la... hmm i wish that i can save more money.. wow, today 19/8/08 i met regina at civil center... she is from manulife, a insurance or i can say a financial planner.. she is good as i feel that she is a very sweet gal.. i treat her a drink and she is happy.. haha.. perhaps she seldom met a customer who will treat her first time meeting her as a stranger ba... haha... i wanna be generous, and i wana learn to love all people as i have loved myself.. (if i dun love myself den i will not know how to love others) haha..

I wanna thank Jesus Christ as He is the one who Taught me how to love myself and others... Imaybe ez bullied but i can be as strong like a rock as i learn how to be more stronger as i am now.... however, i am not as firm as a tree.. Its so hard to learn new things, but i am willing to give my effort to learn more new things as i gotta be more knowledgeable to be successful in life... To be in good health to get Great Wealth... Hmmm No matter what i am now, i will be changed to be a better person, to be more and more like Christ... I will learn.... I will do... I am now emo balanced person.... No more liking of anyone and crush on anyone as i now wanna work to my goal in my life... The rest will be the later of my life...

All the setbacks i will rise up above and overcome it... I've overcomed some of it, and am trying and keep on doing of overcoming the "wars" of my life especially in my thinking and in emtional areas... U will c a brand new me, a more successful me in the very near future... Trust me... I can surely do it... Jesus is my Life Changing Point.. I am now sliding back to His love and slowly changed to be a brand new me... no one can stop me if i set my heart and will there... I will learn to be Firm and more stronger den now... Thanks to all people who give me guidance in my life.. Like Poh Wan, Dawn, Bazaar Ben (i dunno whats my feelings towards him now..), Shuyi, Sharo, My mother, and all my relatives and friends... Last of most important of all is Jesus Christ... His Words are my source of strength.. Thank you all... Muackz....



To Be Continued

Lolx.... Mc for 3days...

Walau... I am sick for a total of 6 days sia... Didnt't really enjoy my off days... I fri off, sat MC sun off.. Mon off.. Tue and today, wed MCs.... total 6 days wor... lolxxx.... But shuyi is for better.. 12 days in total of MC.... Lolx.... I am still in "holiday mood".. But so sad.. tomorrow i need to go back to work liao.... I wana resign for sure... But dunno why i she bu de... Maybe its becuz i've use to it le ba.. lolxx... i wanna work somewhere else but not too sure where i acn get a better job sia... i think i wanna try to interview at 7-11.. lolx... cuz i dun like to work on days.. but i prefer night shift.... Lolx... Hmm but i also dunno what i want in my life now... I feel that i need God back.. But i dunno how to go back to God... Maybe i am too worldly le ba... Hmmm but in deepest of my heart, i know and i know that i need God... I need a someone who can bring mi back to God... My haert is willing but my dlesh is weak.... I feel that I am lonely... I feel that if i go back i am afriad that i will fail God again and backslide again... But in the Bible said it so ever clearly that God is forever forgiving until the Last Day when Jesus come back to judge the living and the dead... Haiz... I feel so bad and no mood sia... Very emo... lolx... Hmmm and also i dunno why i still got some "like" feeling towards the bazaar Ben... I dun wanna like him already and i believe that i am able to forget him... haha... its easier to be said than to be done ba... Lols... But i believe that "There's a will, There's a way"... Lolxxx.. So lao gu ban rite??? But i will never give up hope on God as Jesus had died for me so that i am worthy to deserve His mercy and Grace... I believe that ALL my sin and shame He will take it all away... Because Jesus is Lover of my soul... I want to turn back and run to God again and dun wanna to fall back but it takes a great courage to do that as it is very hard... I dunno where is my friends of support... I need to find that someone who love God and is willing to help mi to get back to the right track to run to God's love again... Please.. Someone out there... Come and help mi to get the passion back again to love God and finish the race of life... I can't do it alone....... thank you so much if u can help mi with it...



To Be Continued......

Changes taking place in my Life....

hahaha... Long time i didn't blog already.... Seems like i've forgotten of how to blog....
I have decided not to like Ben already because i feel like i m only one sided liking him... So stupid sia.... Lolx.... Hmm now my life is a brand new starts already... I wanted to go back to church... But always that is a feel that "I don't feel like going" appears in my life... Hmmm no longer that passionate towards God is in me... Maybe i will go back maybe it will takes a while.... Hahaha....
I have found out who is that Durian Ben already... That Ben also is one of my "darling"... lols....
Recently i have conflict with Bazaar Ben over a $40 refund... So sad... And i am jealous as i feel that B Ben got someone in mind le... i always sms him but he always don't reply.... SAD SIA... I want to STOP LIKE BEN(S) in my life le.. LOLX....
Recently i went kbox with YJ..... He can really sing... WOW!!!! I think i should fall back to him... LOLx... Cuz I feel that he can help me to turn back to God and to follow God.. Also Dunno why lei.. Lolx.... To Dawn and ppl who like to know about my life: I have finaaly updated my blog le... Next time will not know when i will have the time for it already!!! hahaha...
I will resign Carrefour soon.... Once i get what i deserve for the food poison case, i will leave at once and dun wish to turn back... I want to learn to lean on God again.... I want to find a CellGroup that i will grow... More passion to God.... I want God Back and i am willing to sacrifise my time and life for Him.... I want to love Him again!!! Jesus Christ I want YOU!! heehee... I will fight back to the devil!! More stronger then ever.... Just wait and see bah!!! Hahaha....




To Be Continued....

Super Emo... Haiz..

Lolx... I had found Govin Rag in friendster!! wow!! Cool... He is that very guy whom i like for 2 times... I like him when i was in primary 2 and also i like him when i was pri 6.. Hahaha... I've cried just now.. due to too emo liao.. Hahaha... Long time don't have this kind of feelings le... hahaha... Thankx to ben.. my sad feelings come out le... I don't want that man... i want to be happy go lucky as before... No worries... No fear.... Hahaha... Now seems that there is something stopped mi from being myself.. Hmm No way!!! I need to tell myself continuously that i must be strong... I NEED to be Strong!!! I got to be happy and to light up the world... Change the suroundings of me to become happy and joyful.. I got the gift of joy... I love it... Hmm i got to get back my Godly life like before and everything will be alright le.. hahaha... I will keep on doing the things that are right and try my best to go back to cell group and to God... The One who really loves me without failing... I want to get water baptism.. I want to get married soon.. hahaha.. Before 25yr old.. Lols... I don't want to be an old mother.... hahaha... But Not Now that i'm going to marry.. hahaha... I don't want to have baby before i get married...Hmm my life got to be up, not down!! I M NOT GOING TO LIKE THE ONE WHO I LIKE NOW... I don't want to love and contribute the most.. I wanna to be loved... I wanna the love of God back again... But i dun feel that i am worthy to be loved as i have sinned... God, I am sorry; i want Your love again, will You loved me as before?? I always know what God will say to me, but i still have the low of confidence to believe... How??? I'm sad....


To Be Continued...

Wow... So Long Ever since i blogged....

Hmmm i have been losing weight.. wow.... Cool.... lolx.... Because Carrefour is a place whereby can lose weight sia.... lolx.... So good right??? Anyone wanna join in??? Got pay plus free slimming down session... Hahahaha... LolX.... Recently, i fall for a guy name Ben at carrefour... I dun wan to like him sia... In anyway i dunno y i like him so much... i was like crazy about him already... siao sia.... Lolx... i am so sad when he now starts to ignore mi... Will he becaome the next xavier??? well, i believe 95% will be so.. I think its because i don't have the confidence to win his heart bah... because i have being low in confidence of retaining ppl as my friends... i m good to be a friend, no a good girlfriend ba... cause i will jealous very easily.... i like ben so much.. i love him so deep... how i wish he will reply yes, i like u too to my cruel message( i think it is cruel) to him... how i wish i can be by his side now to listen to his heartfelt stories and more... I wanna to know him more... i don't care what he will treat me... But i am in love with him for now... Hmm even though in fact i don't think he is really that good or what.. Hahaha... I think i am blind to like him, but dunno y, the feeling comes in so strongly to my heart and i can't resist it anymore... I am crazy about him le... I am so in love with him... I can't help but to like him... I want my feeling to stop right away and so i can work as per normal again.. If not i want him to like mi back and to be together with me to the end of my life... My heart got no more Yoong Jian already, now all my feelings is towards Ben, the one who is normal at looks but i feel that he is kind at heart... He is very gentleman... I like him until i cannot take it anymore le... I'm crazy about him le... I dunno what can i do.. Hmm i think i need a period to cool down and so to calm my feelings and so to be back like before already.... I know i can do what already, and that is to find a boyfriend and forget him.. I believe i can do it man... Jia You To Me!!! hahaha...


To Be Continued...

Wow... So long never post a single stuffs of my life...

Wow... Its has being a long time ever since i post... Thes few months i had done lots of lots of changes in my life.. I had quitted school and now a full timer in my currrent company, carrefour ps, and with a promotion chance... wow!! Incredible sia... Yesterday, 16 april 2008, i've been to mei tian's hse to stay for a night and due to so personnal things i've gtg back today... haiz... so sian sia... Lolz.. Mum's nagging coming up... hahaha... Hmm Recently i got into a very bad habit, and that habit i wanted to leave it forever... Hmm i wil train myself from now onwards.. Hmm and another thing is that I'm going to information 1 soon!!! SO FUN.. WAHAHAHA.... Everything to me is a new starts.... good sia... Hmm how i wsh to become an info girl to gain experience and also to go to supervisor sia.. wahahaha.... hmm sooner or later can go le... now will need to plan for my great future.. wooooooo.... Hmm i wanna to be a singer sia.. lolx... hmm got to plan nw le.. lolx... like yj, he is planning to join superstar this year.. but for me, i feel that i will not want to join competition sia.. lolx.. siao... wanna be a star but not joining competition, how can it be?? But as i believe, there can be miracle happening if i really want.. lolx.. thank God for all that... I wanna thank Jesus for all my changes but i wanna change to be a better daughter of Heavenly God... Hmm everything is starting to turn.. not too sure is for the better or the best.. surely everything happen for the good costs.. Hmm tml, 18april will be my day for the evg concert or my cg, but i nt sure which to choose, i specially choose that day off is plainly for that evg stuffs, but nw dunno wat to do le, maybe i should go the way i plan.... haha... to evg concert... hmm i've not been cgm for a very long time.. i hope that my friends will not forget about me... Haha.. But its alright cuz i know that i will not be forgotten by my God... Hmm I will be a better me next time i post... I promised and that time will not be forever as i believe that i can achieve my dreams... i will be slim soon and also that i will become sucess in everything i do.. Hee... changes will come as long i got the heart to change and also the mindset of becoming better me.. So tatke care everyone!!! c ya soon!! :)

To Be Continued.....

Jesus... Help!!!

Dear Jesus, u know my sufferings right now... HELP!!!!!!!!



Do i love myself??? Yes and loving it too much until i listen to myself, and i lack of discipline and torture right now... That is not true love to myself.... That is giving myself to hate myself in the end... Now i don't like myself as i have a bad outlook... I always feels that being fat is not a sin, but it will turn negative to myself as fatness will cause alot of health problems... God.. I need ur love to love myself.... We will be tended to love money, but money is not everything as the money will get to no where after u die... So many thongs i've heard, but i'm in a confused right now.. Hm i think i got to live it right by reading the word of God... I got to change... Hahaha... How i wish to love Yj again, But i thionk he dun like me... Hahaha... I'm so sad right nw.. I dunno what to do right nw... therefore i need the help of Jesus... It os my choice of doing certain things but i really need to be more and more like Jesus... When there is a died, there will be a ressurection... By Ulf Ekman... Jesus is full of love, compassion and mercy.... The world love a LOVER...



Turn away from money, from the world, away from self and pleasure... we can go back to love God.... There is a satisfaction in love... Be Contented with God's Love...

God Kisses u back as u kisses Him... There will be a love in touch with u and God...

Jesus Loves U and i loves u too!!!


To Be Continued....

my Life....

My Life is quite a mess now... I've quitted my school and nw in a job which is not really stable job... I wanna work first den study around in 2009... maybe finding a different course to study... I dunno y i have a sudden to study nursing course but i scared i will give up half way like nw... i got to pray for an answer to my life's calling... I know i'm called, but to what area m i called??? i wanna buy many nice clothes to present myself well... but first i got to do reponding.... hahahha.... what is the hell am i doing??? What am i here for?? I cannot find a thing that i can fully concentrate.... Jesus... Can help mi ???!!!! I'm lost.... Hahhaa... Alot of ppl asked, why quit?? But its because i wanna find sth more challenging to do... Hmm I wanna to go to Bible school... $1500.. I wanna save within 6 to 8 month... I MUST SAVE MONEY!!!!! I need to budget my own allowances... hahaha.... i wanna rest for a while before start to fight... I'm injured right nw.. got to rest... I'll need to pray more and more.. the more i'm lost the more i'll need to pray.... I feel that the life is more and more stress.... JESUS!!!! I wanna shout out in loud.. with all my strength... HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank God for all His blessings.... I wanna a exciting life with a extraordinary experiences.... Jesus is the way, the truth, the light...


To Be Continued...

I'm changed... quite bad... 06/02/2008

I've changed to quite different person cuz in a lot of things i've become worst... i also dunno how to turn... Hmmm I believe i can change to a better person if i have more focus n aims... I hope God will forgive me for all the errors... I need more time!!! I need a person who can love me and be with me in this life asap... And i want to get marry at the age of 23... Hahaha... Quite impossible, but nothing is impossible with God.. I really need a friend who will really help mi to change... hmmm maybe i need to get bf soon... haha... dunno whether the time right or not also... hmm i really dunno how to love myself... i need ppl to guide me.. I am a stubborn person... I dunno what to say.... Hmm I m a person who wants to overcome or u can say overtake everyone but its not possible cuz i can be jack of everything but i cannot be master of all things... only focus can allow me to do it.. but i m person who is lack of focus and determination... I dunno why on this chinese new year eve night i wanna cry... I dunno why i feel so sad... I really wanna a great positive change in my life... Jesus ... can u help me??? I seldom pray to u is my wrong, but can You help??? I really wanna to cry.... i really dunno why... Help!!!!!!!!! Anyone there who is my angel can help??? Send me some light to let me c where am i and what move should i make now???? I need a physically person... I know bible can help but i dun like to read and i love to talk... i need ppl to talk to me and tell me in a soft way.... Jesus!! Help!!

To be Continued...

What a bad day!!!

Today as i go to school as per normal... i did wat i was doing before and that is slp during lesson... Today got 2 idiots make my days so bad and i am angry........ My eyes is filled with evil feelings and i wish to kill them!!!! hahahaha... Chucky's character is on me.. So Scary!!!

Hmm i dun like Bala.... He is a KPO... Those who know him sure cannot stand his KPO... hahaha... Hmm how i hope i can faster finish the yr and graduate frm it sia.... I'M SO SIAN of doing homeworks and study... I wanna faster graduate and go work.... I want the cert thats y i still holding on to the studies... If not i'll go and find a full time job...

Hahaha... I wanna learn psychology.... But its quite hard as i cannot psycho myself how i can psycho others??? Lolz....

Got to train myself to more better person.... Lolz..... hahahaha....

I got to have more determination le... ON MY WAY UP!!!!! YAHOO!! :)

I got things to settle.. so will update my life soon... take care everyone!!

To Be Continued....

Wow... What a Cool day!!! 17/01/2008

Today i was the same, go to scool as per normal.. a bit late.. hahaha... Hmm for mi i'm always sleep in class and always like to rush in the last few days la... Today got an interesting day... My form teacher is teaching us accounting and i always dun like to listen cuz she teach in a very boring manner.... Hahahaha.... but like still go on... Hmm Today she picking on me cuz she thought that i'm like a stupid if i dun listen in her class... BUT I AM ABLE TO ANSWER ALL HER QUESTIONS... So SONG AR!!!! Hahahaha.... I never being so happy in class before sia... LOLzzz.....



I have changed group of frens... From a group of 10 people to 2 persons, that is me and cherlyn... She is very forgiving and i like her alot... People keep asking mi to beware but i think she can be trusted in my name list... Anyway my life changes once i go up to another level of life... Wow.. yesterday i got work but i didn't go... hahaha... But i've gotten $50 from my aunt... So good!! No work also can get $$$... Hahaha.. But its only sometimes i'll get la... Hmmm However, i am trying to SAVE $1000 in 6 month.. But i dunno when will be the 1st month of my saving plans.... Haiz... Got to starts really soon man!! Time is rushing and speeding ahead of me... I got to chase them back lo... Wah... Tomorrow friday liao.. So fast man... hahaha... Flying time sia...

Hmmm i dun wanna waste my time le... Got to have an action plan and start fast... Hehehehe.... I hope God will forgive me cuz i long time no pray le... Hmm I will come back quick... Cuz now i've too much of distractions... I got to find a FOCUS to focus on and to achieve great success in it... hahaha.. Hmm got to go work for today le... Take care everyone... Those who reads my blog de ren.. hahaha... God bless and have a great day ahead!! :)

To Be Continued....

A brand new year, A brand new starts

Wow.. 2007 just passed juat like that... whereby i haven't really enjoy my year 2007... Haiz.. I dun wanna spoil my own mood bcuz i got into BGR stuffs.. i broke off 2 times during the december and jan respectively... Hmm december that one i broke up bcuz he got alot of problems and is really not stable in the area of financial.. Hmm the 2nd one is the guy who broke up with mi.. Wow, a very sad experience man... Lucky i like him not that deeply.. But i really like him from my heart.... Haa.. I feeling so down for 3 to 4 days and recovered as life's still goes on without him.... Hmm i just now visit friendster and saw his pic and it reflects my days with him.. he is so handsome!! I LOVE HIM... I am sadden by his doings.. i wish to stay longer, but to him, he got no feelings towards mi already... hahaa.. now it is in the past le.. what i need to do is to forget and treat him as fren again...

hmm my life is still without a specific goal.. i hope i will plan out a goal so that i can achieve wat i really looking out for... Hmm wow, on 1 jan, i spend with my uncle auntie, cousins and also someone so special.. that person is YJ,, Cool.. He is the one whom i admired for 3 and 1/2 years... hahaha.. Hmm i can sense that he is changed in many ways... he become more talkative than before and he actually smses mi!! cool!! haha.. never had this smses before sia... haha..

Wow.. it's been long since the last update, but i will try to update once i'm free.. So takecare and have a blessed day!!:)

To Be Continued...