Walau... I am sick for a total of 6 days sia... Didnt't really enjoy my off days... I fri off, sat MC sun off.. Mon off.. Tue and today, wed MCs.... total 6 days wor... lolxxx.... But shuyi is for better.. 12 days in total of MC.... Lolx.... I am still in "holiday mood".. But so sad.. tomorrow i need to go back to work liao.... I wana resign for sure... But dunno why i she bu de... Maybe its becuz i've use to it le ba.. lolxx... i wanna work somewhere else but not too sure where i acn get a better job sia... i think i wanna try to interview at 7-11.. lolx... cuz i dun like to work on days.. but i prefer night shift.... Lolx... Hmm but i also dunno what i want in my life now... I feel that i need God back.. But i dunno how to go back to God... Maybe i am too worldly le ba... Hmmm but in deepest of my heart, i know and i know that i need God... I need a someone who can bring mi back to God... My haert is willing but my dlesh is weak.... I feel that I am lonely... I feel that if i go back i am afriad that i will fail God again and backslide again... But in the Bible said it so ever clearly that God is forever forgiving until the Last Day when Jesus come back to judge the living and the dead... Haiz... I feel so bad and no mood sia... Very emo... lolx... Hmmm and also i dunno why i still got some "like" feeling towards the bazaar Ben... I dun wanna like him already and i believe that i am able to forget him... haha... its easier to be said than to be done ba... Lols... But i believe that "There's a will, There's a way"... Lolxxx.. So lao gu ban rite??? But i will never give up hope on God as Jesus had died for me so that i am worthy to deserve His mercy and Grace... I believe that ALL my sin and shame He will take it all away... Because Jesus is Lover of my soul... I want to turn back and run to God again and dun wanna to fall back but it takes a great courage to do that as it is very hard... I dunno where is my friends of support... I need to find that someone who love God and is willing to help mi to get back to the right track to run to God's love again... Please.. Someone out there... Come and help mi to get the passion back again to love God and finish the race of life... I can't do it alone....... thank you so much if u can help mi with it...
To Be Continued......
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Changes taking place in my Life....
hahaha... Long time i didn't blog already.... Seems like i've forgotten of how to blog....
I have decided not to like Ben already because i feel like i m only one sided liking him... So stupid sia.... Lolx.... Hmm now my life is a brand new starts already... I wanted to go back to church... But always that is a feel that "I don't feel like going" appears in my life... Hmmm no longer that passionate towards God is in me... Maybe i will go back maybe it will takes a while.... Hahaha....
I have found out who is that Durian Ben already... That Ben also is one of my "darling"... lols....
Recently i have conflict with Bazaar Ben over a $40 refund... So sad... And i am jealous as i feel that B Ben got someone in mind le... i always sms him but he always don't reply.... SAD SIA... I want to STOP LIKE BEN(S) in my life le.. LOLX....
Recently i went kbox with YJ..... He can really sing... WOW!!!! I think i should fall back to him... LOLx... Cuz I feel that he can help me to turn back to God and to follow God.. Also Dunno why lei.. Lolx.... To Dawn and ppl who like to know about my life: I have finaaly updated my blog le... Next time will not know when i will have the time for it already!!! hahaha...
I will resign Carrefour soon.... Once i get what i deserve for the food poison case, i will leave at once and dun wish to turn back... I want to learn to lean on God again.... I want to find a CellGroup that i will grow... More passion to God.... I want God Back and i am willing to sacrifise my time and life for Him.... I want to love Him again!!! Jesus Christ I want YOU!! heehee... I will fight back to the devil!! More stronger then ever.... Just wait and see bah!!! Hahaha....
To Be Continued....
I have decided not to like Ben already because i feel like i m only one sided liking him... So stupid sia.... Lolx.... Hmm now my life is a brand new starts already... I wanted to go back to church... But always that is a feel that "I don't feel like going" appears in my life... Hmmm no longer that passionate towards God is in me... Maybe i will go back maybe it will takes a while.... Hahaha....
I have found out who is that Durian Ben already... That Ben also is one of my "darling"... lols....
Recently i have conflict with Bazaar Ben over a $40 refund... So sad... And i am jealous as i feel that B Ben got someone in mind le... i always sms him but he always don't reply.... SAD SIA... I want to STOP LIKE BEN(S) in my life le.. LOLX....
Recently i went kbox with YJ..... He can really sing... WOW!!!! I think i should fall back to him... LOLx... Cuz I feel that he can help me to turn back to God and to follow God.. Also Dunno why lei.. Lolx.... To Dawn and ppl who like to know about my life: I have finaaly updated my blog le... Next time will not know when i will have the time for it already!!! hahaha...
I will resign Carrefour soon.... Once i get what i deserve for the food poison case, i will leave at once and dun wish to turn back... I want to learn to lean on God again.... I want to find a CellGroup that i will grow... More passion to God.... I want God Back and i am willing to sacrifise my time and life for Him.... I want to love Him again!!! Jesus Christ I want YOU!! heehee... I will fight back to the devil!! More stronger then ever.... Just wait and see bah!!! Hahaha....
To Be Continued....
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