Aug 12- went to morning prayer and after that went home to sleep for a while and after that i went to work from 3-10 at U2me.com at plaza sing... after that i went to slack outside plaza sing till the next day.. the day is somehow quite fulfilling, but still in a bad mood with my mother...
Aug 13- Didn't went home still, went to ton overnight with patawari and learn that his family is also not whole as his dad was not with him early days and his mother died when he is young... Hmm it's quite cool to know so much things.. We slack at paya lebar mac nearby wari's house and after that i went to church at Jw for morning prayer mtg... Slept for only few mins in the train and there i were at the prayer mtg... after prayer mtg i went home and in the noon time i went out before my mother reach home from work to shop.. Went to cgm that night and were blessed by the Word. Shared a testimony and made issac stunned.. Haaa... Nobody knows i can be quite rebellious sometimes... Eventually Peiling prayed for me and i was touched and eventually there are healings of my hurts.... I get to know a girl from korea name vinna... Wow!! God is amazing.. i went home that night after cgm..
Aug 14- Aug 14 was a fulfilling day too... Went to many places... Woke up at 1130hrs and went harbourfront to meet shuyi, eventually i were late and when i reached harbourfront, i immediately went to Dhoby Ghaut to meet her... I went to ion vai walking to go and check out a lagging for aunty jenny, my hair stylish from young as i have promised her that i will get it for her... After that i went back to Plaza Sing to meet shuyi for lunch... After that i went for evening prayer mtg at riverwalk and den back to Orchard to work for Diana for a small setup. Overall i were tired, but yet were being "pulled out" for a movie with Sianghao, James, Kimyen and myself... Went to take neoprint with Kimyen and eventually were addicted by it.. (Some memories were created of what James smsed me in the noon time about Sianghao). ps: i don't wanna recall of what he said... It's unbelievable.
Aug 15- Our show starts around 0200 hrs and ended around 0400hrs. 4 of us went to Boat Quay via night rider and reach around 0500hrs included times wasted walking here and there...
We went to the indian shop to eat as golden cafe were closed... Had tea tarik for that... Hmmm after that Kimyen went home with me.. I did not attend service for that day.... Instead i went to my niece's one month blah blah blah... (dunno how to say..) I did call Sianghao and verify what is the truth and i told him that i would reject him no matter what he expressed.. However he seems to be firm to move me to have feelings for him... At that point of view i keep on shooting impossibilities about me and him.... (In my heart i know there is nothing impossible as God is Almighty..) I found out that Kimyen fall for Sianghao and i encouraged her to express her feelings to him... I told Sianghao to think carefully for an answer of his heart... Keep on disturbing him, i push Kimyen to him as i know i will hurt him if i were to be with him... However in my heart i wish that he could like me a little while more... Haa... i dun have alot of admirers due to my looks... He is the few that will fall for me... Actually i don't wanna give him out as i think that we can try out for a relationship for a while... But because i dun want kimyen to be hurt i hope he will make his own choice.... Perhaps i am stupid for what you may think but i feel that it is the best choice afterall... (Sianghao still says something like :" i will do my best to make you moved.") LOLX... THIS IS A PROMISE OUT OF HIS INSANITY MIND... DUNNO WHY I HAVE THE CONFIDENT THAT HE WILL NOT DO IT TO THE END... LOLX.... A man who does not honor his words are cheaters to those who blindly believes.. I were the one of the stupid blind person...
Aug 16- Yan Yan's birthday.... One day that i am deeply hurt but yet i feel that i deserving it.. Haa.. As i've said that i would reject Sianghao to the end, i rejected him... I just put Kimyen onto his mind... He said something sweet in the morning like :" i will cook for you maggie..." All sorts of craps... I feel so hurt when the next sms hits... SMS stated that he already agreed to be kimyen's boyfriend... I were hurt.... YES, HURT..... What is his previous days sms for??? For cheating me???? Haaa.... All become craps to me... I become more and more dislike him.. I dun dare to hate as he's being treating me well as a friend before it turned out to be so complicated.... My life is still hurt now... (28/08/09)... Hopefully that the hurts will vanish before 16/09/2009 because i want A HAPPY BIRTHDAY WITHOUT HURTS STILL ONGOING... I will release it to God... And will work hard to forget the hurts... However, i were happy as i finally know what type of person i will like after that day.. I want a guy who is able to have a say in my life.. A guy who is able to rise up and take controls of me.. Becasue i'm an easily lost person, that is why i need a partner who will not be lost in his way to guide me... I wish for a christian guy.... Haa... Eventually i hope it will be good to be jw or person like wl...
To Be Continued.....
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