My life... Changing daily.... 17/08/2009-23/08/2009

17 Aug- Haha... I forgotten what's happening but i believe that it's something not really important... Am hurt still from previous days.... I have smsed both Kimyen and Sianghao a long 15 pages of sms and ask them to think again of what they are doing that maybe right or wrong... (the messages are actually to remind them about to wake up and know what they really want)





18Aug- My heart is still a bit here and there... I have given them all the blessings but i still got a contrite heart that really quite jealous... Sorry to say this but always there are something to share.... Hmm I can't remember that day though but i know that i did something amazing... I've prayed so consistant for more den 1 week.. I'm so loved by God...





19Aug- went to work i think.. Haa.. Cannot really remember.... Hmmm had wonderful experiences with what God has done.. I may not remember, but God knows it every single details of my life...





20Aug- Still, forgotten... Haha.. But i did pray, read bible and get to know a verse that is very important.. Psalms 4:4 Be angry, but do not sin. Meditate within your heart on your bed, and be still. Selah
(this verse helps me to release the hurts for a moment but my brain keep on remembering the hurts and it eventually came back till (28/08/09 midnight or 29/08/09 morning). The miracle happened.. will tell you the glory of God that touches my life as the time comes...



21Aug- Went for cell group meeting and got prayed for by Peiling. The laying of hands is really effective as when Peiling prayed for me with the laying of hand, i wept... The touch of God instantly flows to me... Cool experience... WOW!!



22Aug- Went to service together with Peiling via bus as Peiling is going to Orchard after giving bible study to me and Ken.. WOW!! So cool.... Hmmm Peiling is a extraodinary leader that really touches me of what she did... Really... She is amazing in God's grace... Hmmm after service my cellgroup members went to bugis whereby i went to vivocity and had dinner with my uncle...
Had a wonderful dinner... The steak is so nice.. We went to terra to eat.. Arrggghh.. So long walking distance from the mrt station to the exact location... Lolz... But overall It's a good dinner and i didn't regret to travel down to meet my uncle though...



23Aug- Haha... i didn't go to work, instead i were at Home all the way taking care of my favourite niece, Yuting... She is so adorable!! I simply love her very much... I skip my work just for her... Haa.. Of course that is a part of my excuses la.. Overall is that i am simply lazy.. Lolz... I got a promise from my mother that day whereby i will get all the incomes of the mahjong sessions.. It sounds so COOL!!! hahaha.... That very day i gotten $110+ so cool yeah... Haha... Went out at 2230hr with Shuyi and her friends... We went to OCC to play pools.....


To Be Continued..

My life... Changing daily.... 12/08/09- 16/08/09

Aug 12- went to morning prayer and after that went home to sleep for a while and after that i went to work from 3-10 at U2me.com at plaza sing... after that i went to slack outside plaza sing till the next day.. the day is somehow quite fulfilling, but still in a bad mood with my mother...



Aug 13- Didn't went home still, went to ton overnight with patawari and learn that his family is also not whole as his dad was not with him early days and his mother died when he is young... Hmm it's quite cool to know so much things.. We slack at paya lebar mac nearby wari's house and after that i went to church at Jw for morning prayer mtg... Slept for only few mins in the train and there i were at the prayer mtg... after prayer mtg i went home and in the noon time i went out before my mother reach home from work to shop.. Went to cgm that night and were blessed by the Word. Shared a testimony and made issac stunned.. Haaa... Nobody knows i can be quite rebellious sometimes... Eventually Peiling prayed for me and i was touched and eventually there are healings of my hurts.... I get to know a girl from korea name vinna... Wow!! God is amazing.. i went home that night after cgm..



Aug 14- Aug 14 was a fulfilling day too... Went to many places... Woke up at 1130hrs and went harbourfront to meet shuyi, eventually i were late and when i reached harbourfront, i immediately went to Dhoby Ghaut to meet her... I went to ion vai walking to go and check out a lagging for aunty jenny, my hair stylish from young as i have promised her that i will get it for her... After that i went back to Plaza Sing to meet shuyi for lunch... After that i went for evening prayer mtg at riverwalk and den back to Orchard to work for Diana for a small setup. Overall i were tired, but yet were being "pulled out" for a movie with Sianghao, James, Kimyen and myself... Went to take neoprint with Kimyen and eventually were addicted by it.. (Some memories were created of what James smsed me in the noon time about Sianghao). ps: i don't wanna recall of what he said... It's unbelievable.



Aug 15- Our show starts around 0200 hrs and ended around 0400hrs. 4 of us went to Boat Quay via night rider and reach around 0500hrs included times wasted walking here and there...

We went to the indian shop to eat as golden cafe were closed... Had tea tarik for that... Hmmm after that Kimyen went home with me.. I did not attend service for that day.... Instead i went to my niece's one month blah blah blah... (dunno how to say..) I did call Sianghao and verify what is the truth and i told him that i would reject him no matter what he expressed.. However he seems to be firm to move me to have feelings for him... At that point of view i keep on shooting impossibilities about me and him.... (In my heart i know there is nothing impossible as God is Almighty..) I found out that Kimyen fall for Sianghao and i encouraged her to express her feelings to him... I told Sianghao to think carefully for an answer of his heart... Keep on disturbing him, i push Kimyen to him as i know i will hurt him if i were to be with him... However in my heart i wish that he could like me a little while more... Haa... i dun have alot of admirers due to my looks... He is the few that will fall for me... Actually i don't wanna give him out as i think that we can try out for a relationship for a while... But because i dun want kimyen to be hurt i hope he will make his own choice.... Perhaps i am stupid for what you may think but i feel that it is the best choice afterall... (Sianghao still says something like :" i will do my best to make you moved.") LOLX... THIS IS A PROMISE OUT OF HIS INSANITY MIND... DUNNO WHY I HAVE THE CONFIDENT THAT HE WILL NOT DO IT TO THE END... LOLX.... A man who does not honor his words are cheaters to those who blindly believes.. I were the one of the stupid blind person...

Aug 16- Yan Yan's birthday.... One day that i am deeply hurt but yet i feel that i deserving it.. Haa.. As i've said that i would reject Sianghao to the end, i rejected him... I just put Kimyen onto his mind... He said something sweet in the morning like :" i will cook for you maggie..." All sorts of craps... I feel so hurt when the next sms hits... SMS stated that he already agreed to be kimyen's boyfriend... I were hurt.... YES, HURT..... What is his previous days sms for??? For cheating me???? Haaa.... All become craps to me... I become more and more dislike him.. I dun dare to hate as he's being treating me well as a friend before it turned out to be so complicated.... My life is still hurt now... (28/08/09)... Hopefully that the hurts will vanish before 16/09/2009 because i want A HAPPY BIRTHDAY WITHOUT HURTS STILL ONGOING... I will release it to God... And will work hard to forget the hurts... However, i were happy as i finally know what type of person i will like after that day.. I want a guy who is able to have a say in my life.. A guy who is able to rise up and take controls of me.. Becasue i'm an easily lost person, that is why i need a partner who will not be lost in his way to guide me... I wish for a christian guy.... Haa... Eventually i hope it will be good to be jw or person like wl...


To Be Continued.....

Challenges i facing at the moments...

Aug 6- went home from my uncle house and get to play with my cute niece.. I love her so much.. I can't help but to dote her... She will be my first favourites among all my others nieces and newphews.. ( i know i'm biased, but i can't help it..) lolx...

Aug 7- Cgm was good.. Get to know many people in w272.. I love it man... It seems that God has a purpose for mi to be there and that is to bless it with great testimonies and encourage people of my fellow members.. I feel so comfort in the cgm.. I love to be in W272.. I know i will be changed from time to time...

Aug 8- Went to church with Peiling early for prayer mtg.. I'm fortunate to have Peiling as a leader and a friend to me.. I thank God for issac too.. Praise the Lord!!:) I have a nice dinner and went to fetch my cousin's cousin who was coming back from china (her hometown) to Singapore (where she study at). A wonderful day..

Aug 9 - national day, a day i've work... Aunt blessed mi with $20 and mother give me $20.. Cool.. Went for movie after that with Siang Hao and Kimyen... WOW!! Amazing sia.. Lolx.. I thought i would never meet up with Siang Hao again... LOlx... Orphan the movie is good.. I enjoyed it with contented heart.. ( siang hao treated) Lolx... Hmm i went to "talk craps"...

Aug 10- Midnight still with Siang hao and kimyen till morning.. Amazing things happen.. They both "followed me home" from a distance behind me.. Lolx.. Like as if they were chasing me.. Lolx.... Hmm sleep for 1/2 hour and get ready for morning prayer @ Jw church... Cool fellowship with issac andrew and 2 of the members. (sorry, still can't remember the names well yet.) sleep from 940am to 1pm, play with niece and be like a servant to my relatives.. Feels so ....... Lolx... Hmm sleep very well before eating dinner... mom starts to nags..

Aug 11- A bad day.. mother keep on nagging from midnights and i broke into tears and i'm so angry with her.. Don't feel like talking to her even i met her when i was on my way out to church for evening prayer mtg... Hmm shared with Peiling and isac and ken abt it and really feel so depressed.. Nearly becomes mad woman.. Lolx.. Hmm ate Mac with younger brother and that was my breakfast, lunch and dinner as my actual plan of dinner at golden cafe was ruin but i spent time talking with Shuyi, Sharo, Shi hui and Clare lim.. Bought a cd from true worshippers.. Cool... i love that cd alot.. Hmm share something with them.. went to find uncle (zhen xing father) who was about to go airport to fetch my aunt who went hongkong for holidays sponsered by her company.. (wow.. i wish to have that too!)

Aug 12- still awakes now, but am going to sleep after finish this... uncle and aunt taught me about life and i appreciate it.. will take their words in considerations... Am going to morning prayer in 2 hr time and going to reach home at around 940am and sleep till 130pn and prepared to go work at 3pm.. Hope God's strength to be with me throughout and maybe going home ater work.. It depends on my mood totally... Thank God for His love that never ends... :)

To be Continued.....

My life seems to be interesting..

Wow... i am going to cgm later.. wow... feel so cool.. just ne i have webcam with someone.. so interesting happens.. 1st time ever i web cam on my own.. lolx.. hmm did sth stupid over it.. lolx.. please dun question too much.. i wanna tell i will say out at blog.. lolx... hmm feel sth that is so cool!! Hmm when u know the true meaning of balanced and live a life with the holy spirit, u will find that everything is changed... so unbelievable!! that is a WOW for me.. Hmm u all can't sense it because u all are not me.. lolx.. not to discourage u, but is to say that u will get to know God in ur own spiritual ways. Jesus is the best man and Son of God.. Thank God i have known Him.. Hallelujah... :)

Most memorial prayer.. Aug 4, 2009

This is THE DAY i had my very cool breakthroughs in life... After aug 2 CHC celebrations, i was being filled by Holy Spirit again.

Aug 2- lack of sleep but i got work, therefore i need to be awake till after 1030pm.. I did it!!! Wow.. (can u see the reason behind it.)

Aug 3 - my friends done something that i feel its quite wrong to me but i was not very angry... Wow!! miracle.. If i faced it last time surely will "kao bei kao bu".. Oops... lolx.. relax man.. i know it wrong word to use, but before Aug i simply used it everyday.. will train it to be as little as possible la.. lolx.. ( can u c what's behind it?)

Aug 4- woke up ususally early, watched some vcds and at 10am, start to pray.. From 10am, aug 4 2009 to 1045am, i was filled with sorrows and wept for total 45 min long.. (mum went out, all out for work). i felt extremely peace after that... all of my heart express were out, my fears and failures. So good feeling. in the evening hours, i met Shuyi and dunno what reason i am daring to preach a little via my life experience with her. She was touched a little as i can see. ( Do you see whose power that its in me?)

Aug 5- Managed to pray a little and read a little of the bible. feel very touched by the america's talents of a boy who desire to dance.. Wow!! i nearly cried.. I was not like that before when my heart was harden... Wow!! Amazing change in my life.. I went to myuncle house (it's where i am now to update the blog). Lolx... Now is Aug 6 and i've received a job on sunday!! :) ( can u see something is happening for me to clear off my debts?)

It will always be on and on of my life story.. I will want the Someone who You know who You Are to be by my side forever and ever more to bring me into adventure life!.. :) Hallelujah! Amen. (don't put me under over godly, and dun say me very holy ok?) lolx.. Balanced man!! lolx.. :)

2009 August 2... CHC anniversary.. A changing moment.

It is quite amazing service, God's pressence is so strong. Message of Pastor Kong's i feel it is something i looking for... This make my life to be filled again.. Lolx.. So Hard to believe...

My life is so alone before that, it feels like my life will not be alone after this day.. I want to thank Issac, Pei Ling for making the difference.. Indeed sacrifice from oneself really make a big difference... Of course i want to thank God for His almighty Love.. My heart is filled with something amazing... i'm so ez broken again, broken to God and ez to be touched by things, no longer the harden me... Thank u all who make a difference in my life.. Thank u.:)

Lolx. I have resigned from Carrefur for the 3rd time, (my last time)

Lolx. Many people asked why but what i can say is that it is because i don't have the heart for the job. LOlx... I am really giving up this time. lolx. even though i may need money for my bills all that but i will hope that there will be something like a miracle to happen la.. lolx.. Hmmm i wish that i can get out of debts asap. lolz... Jesus Is Here, so i can believe that all my worries can be peace one by one.. :)

Wow.. Its first time my story so short.. lolx.. cuz i got nothing much to say about Carrrefour le.. lolx...