耶稣爱我，我爱耶稣

from the first post to now......

2010-07-09T21:43:00.000-07:00

Wow... I have learnt a lot from my past experiences and till now i am still keep on learning from each day's experience.. Right now i feel that my life is changing everyday... I need to moove on... It's yj's birthday again.. wow.. 8 years just passed away just like that... I feel that i have like him for more than that.. lolx.. I really very trapped in this.. why there is a voice telling me about the future and whereby the future is still so far away?? Is that a so-called to be fated to be?? Well, i really have no idea.. How i wish that God can reveal my future to me so that i will have no worries for sure.. lolx... hahaha... but i know that as i have God with me, i do not need to worry as He has already plan my future for me already.. I just need to enjoy this day to the fullest and not to worry about what tomorrow will be.. I need to have training over my emotions as i need to have self control and not to step overboard and hurt myself... I know the very way to hurt myself, that is to say negative words to myself... lolx... other's words is not stronger than my own words... that is why i feel always very negative.... To be frank, God is bigger and God is mystery.. God is all about the good and not the bad... even in negative situations, God is still there to protect my life... It's how we see things that affects us.... Oh no.. I'm facing super huge test.. that's my emotions test... How to pass it??? need to learn how to depend on the Holy Spirit totally.. Lolx.. But it is a very hard lesson.. Hmm i really need to go for deeper studies of the bible... so i will start to save up for the SOT in 2011... God is great!!:) Hallelujah... My emotions are sometimes out of control.. Hopefully i can get over it a.s.a.p!!! Lolx.. need more and more prayers... I need God more!!:)

To Be Continued.....

21 may 2010..

2010-05-21T00:45:00.001-07:00

16 may 2010.. In the end, i end the day with a happy smile.. :)

17 may 2010... I went to the next location name da le... the place took nearly 1 day of travel journey... wow... it is a cooling place... haha... we went to "toilet" in the wilderness... wahaha... seems that there are many ppl b4 us went to that toliet too... lolx... we went for dinner and check into the hotel...

18 may 2010... we went around the place and we bought many things.. the whole van is buddhist beside me.. the only christian.. haha.. the unique me stands alone... we went to the temples around... so bored..... hahaha.... i manage to pray during the trip and when i see the nature of the mountains and seas, i am even more excited to go back to singapore and learn more of the Word of God to come to vietnam to preach... pastor kenneth lent me 2 books, i finished one of them and i brought the other one here to read... we continued going to the surrounding places and we went to the waterfall.. we took a cart up from the waterfall and it is really fun!!:) WOW!! The beauty of the nature are presented b4 me!! I LOVE IT!! we went for lunch/dinner in the late evening and back to hotel... Hmmm the place is already being visited almost to an end... but we sill got 1 more day... bored.... we have a family discussion for the place to go for the next day...

19 may 2010... we went to the temples again...:( BORED!!! and after we went to see weird animals that were born uniquely... i took a lot of pictures of the places we visited (excluded temples, i didn't took temples photos for i m a christian!! lolx) hmmm the sun is HOTTTT!! :(
i fasted on the breakfast and took lunch/dinner at evening... The fried potaoes and bananas are NICE!!!:) i ate quite a lot of it!!:) hm we went back to the hotel and be ready to go down from the mountains the next day..:)

20 may 2010... we woke up early and took the van back to the place near my aunt stays... a hotel nearby... Wow!! we experienced BLACKOUT!!! i was showering half way and the incident happen!! what a cool experience!!:) lolx... i went out of the bathroom via the hp light shone by one of my aunties here with me... Lolx... so naked!!! lolx... Hmmm i saw a lizard before me and when the blackout took place, i were afraid that the lizard maybe near me... i shouted!! lolx... i sang worship song to curb my fears.. lolx... Hallelujah!! Holy Spirit is near to protect me!!:) I smsed yj and asked a serious qn.. haa.. perhaps he is really still not ready... i cannot force him too... lolx... Hard hard hard... my heart is broken because he didnt replied me... :( haa... how i wish that i will be loved by myself more.. lolx...

21 may 2010.... today... we went to my vietnam aunt's house... we enjoyed the "last supper" (lunch) and we took showers and prepared to go to airport...:) I am so excited!!:) because i can get to c my family too!!:) i love love it!!:) cya soon!!:)

To Be Continued......

May 16, 2010 vietnam trip day 5...

2010-05-15T23:51:00.000-07:00

12 may 2010 - Happy... the day that i reached vietnam... i reach vietnam in the morning... the time here is 1 hour later than singapore timing... I went will all my aunties and uncles... :x what a "good" combination... the weather is very hot!!! i think it is no better than singapore... hmmm we took the bus from the ho chin minh to my aunt house... on the way there we ate a very nice bread... i love it!! haa... we reached the old traditional place of the world where there are many getting in touch with the nature.... first time saw the agriculture world... wow... feel so excited!!:) we stayed at a hotel that doesn't seems to be like one.... not very nice.... but we endured the first night...

13 May 2010- Day 2.. We went to nearby market to walk around... after that we went to my aunt place again... hmmm i experienced a great breakthrough of experience of the nature... i played with the cow!! WOW!!! ifrst time ever i saw the cow so near!! (ps. i didn't like to go to the zoo actually) i enjoyed the food and everything... :) we all sit at motorcycle out to town... haa... my size is too big till the tyre of the motorcycle spoilt... Oops...:x haha.. i hurt my leh and it left a scar on it.. sad...:( we went to the 2nd hotel of the night.. it still don't look like a hotel..:x the facilities are not very good... but still we endured the 2nd night... :)

14 May 2010- Day 3... we went out from the village area to a bit high class hotel... it is near the sea... Wow... it is quite chilling place... we went to the tourists' views and then to the market at the other area and i bought a pair of shoes and some small gifts for my friends... Oh no... my friends are many but my money are a few.. LOLX... i don"t know what to do sia... lolx... pray for more money!!! LOL... hmmm i went to play at the sea and i enjoyed it very much... the touched of the nature...:) quite good...:) i started to love the nature and to fly to more country to see the works of God...:)

15 May 2010- Day 4.... The day of sitting in the bus most of the time... We went from the day 3 hotel and towards our 4th location... this place is a bit higher class than the past 3
days... hotels is near the seaside and we ate seafood ... after which, we went to the night funfair... the adults sit with me at the fairy wheel.... WOW... what a breakthrough for the adults!! lolx... i get to use computer and find that the computers here do not have sound systems... though i know it but i thought that a ear piece can be used.... How i wish to watch service online...:x hmmm i managed to chat with yj... wow..:) haha... hmm i started to be more and more bold in my words.. what a good thing to do!!...:p i sleep at 1230am in the midnight....:x

16 May 2010- today, day 5...... In the morning i got an bad experience with my relatives.... i do not want to go out with them as they always complaining about alot of things... i hate that...:( i want to watch chc live webcast for church service!!! they against.. i was very sad and started to have a rebellious heart... i don't like them treating me like a kid... with an unwilling heart i went out... we went to take the boat and then to a market and then we are back before 1pm to the hotel... i feeling like what the...... i wasted the time to walk and they keep on against to go everywhere my auntie asked... What a boring group...:( hopefully lter i will have fun!!! i cried out to God in prayer in my small little book.... how i wish that i can go back soon!!:x the weather and people here are simply HOT!! (WEATHER IS HOT, THE PEOPLE IS HOT IN A SENSE THAT THEY CANNOT BE GOING UNDER THE SUN... AND WALK TOO LONG....-_-!!!) now, i got 5 more days to go... hopefully everything will be well after today!!:) For God is Good all the time and all the time God id good!! i learnt so much things today about contridicting thinking of human... in mky relatives and in my own thinking too!! there are more to be learnt.... Hallelujah, God put me here for a great purpose!! I will experience God in an unique way!!:)

To Be Continued....

wow.. my life is filled with purpose and excitement..

2010-05-05T21:53:00.000-07:00

Hallelujah!!:) God is good all the time and all the time God is good!!.:)
I went back to carrefour and this is the 4th times I went back.. Wow!! That's cool!!:)
I believe that I holds a record!! Lolx.. Thank God that I am able to be back and learn new things from new leaders..
To be frank, I went back is because carrefour can let me have a little flexible time of work hrs.
And reason why I want to go suntec branch is that I am awaiting for 2011!!:)
City Harvest Church will be moving to suntec convention hall!!:) woooo!!;)
Excited for the change!!:) I want to work full time at church!! Haahaa..:)
Hmmm time is not ripe yet.. So I will have to perserve onto the next greater change..:)
I want to be a person who dare to dream and dare to achieve my dreams..:)
It will be no longer I but Christ who lives in me!!:) I want to thank Holy Spirit for the strength that He blessed me!:)
Throughout this 4 months plus or 2010, I really experience a lots of cool things!!:)
I went through ups and down in my life and I know tat I need to focus on God instead of the stupidity thinkings..
God will bless me what it is right for me and I will want to get more of God's love in my life..:)
I learnt that if I want to be loved by God more, firstly I need to love God more..
That is why I am learning not to hurt myself an many ways.. I want to move forward!!
I will achieve my dreams!!:) I want to be a dream chaser!! I don't want to be proud.. I want to be happy everyday and in every way!!
Lastly, I want to say is:" THANK GOD I'M STILL ALIVE!!:)"

To Be Continued...:)

Why i am so passionate about God??

2010-02-04T22:40:00.001-08:00

1) My God is real.. I only believe in Him...
2) He is the One who taught me what is LOVE...
3) He is Almighty God....
4) He knows me even before i were born to this earth....
5) I experienced Him when i am down...
6) His strength is real.. I have experienced it myself...
7) His healing power is real... I'm healed because of His love for me...
8) I used to live in fear; but with HIm, though i feared, His perfect love for me will cast out all my fears...
9) I am from a buddhist background and used to pray idols; when i know God and how He sent His only Beloved Son, Jesus Christ died for me, i truely believe in this only Great and Almighty God who has saved me from sin....
10) In God, there is where i really can share with HIm all my worries, my doubts and my everything.. for I BELIEVES that God will sent His angels to help me when i am in need....
11) After knowing God, I can slowly find what i wanted for in my life... I can find my purpose of living...
12) I am used to be a dumb, after i know Him, i become wiser and wiser... God gives me His wisdom...
13) I encountered the real God with the bible examples.... So many... you can ask me; it's a real encounter only up to you to believe...
14) God is passionate about me, and He has chosen me to be passionate for Him too.:)
15) I don't know my future, yet i know and believe that God has a great destiny for me...
16) God is good all the time and all the time God is good....:)

My life.... The way i hope it will be in the way i want... BUT IT WILL BE NOT... As GOD lives, my life will be HIS!!:)

2010-02-04T21:40:00.000-08:00

Hallelujah... throughout the days of my ups and down, i learnt one thing... If God is going to bless you, no matter how you put a full stop in it, He will still put a commer below it... That is why we need to keep on believing that there is a God in the midst of us to keep our livs moving.... God is Good all the time and all the time God is good!!!:)

In jan, i gotten many ups and down.. In the last day of jan, i feel that God wants to change my life to a life full of LOVE.... Pastor Nikko shared a message of restoration.. And it really touches my heart and i wanted to learn how to love my earthly father back.... However, on the 1 feb 2010, an incident hits my house and that makes me feel very hard to love.... Indeed i wanna thank God that He showed me a truth, that is.... The devil is trying to make me not to love but God is always LOVE... I dunno y i am feel ing super down... So stressed.... However, there is no exact stress... It's my thinking that r making myself to stress so much.... I thank God that i am able to overcome it by the love from friends and leaders who are so encouraging towards me... I think it is a time for me to rise up to take lead of my household soon in my family... My mother is getting older and older everyday... what i need to to is to learn to independent and to get a career to establish soon...

My plan is to get a diploma in retail at the end of 2010... and a life that will be bit by bit changed everyday..... Learn to love is the first step... Love what i am studying will be a great help to accomplish great things of life... thank God i am still alive...

I will keep on keeping on to manage the victory that Jesus has shed His blood for... Hallelujah... Glory and Praise to the Lord God Almighty...:)

To Be Continued.....

my dimension of God is greater than all...:)

2010-01-21T08:52:00.000-08:00

Don't question me too much of God... because my dimension of God is bigger than yours.. that is my unique and i don't really want to compare the faith u have with mine... i believe in greater miracles and had many powerful experiences throughout my walk with God... Even though we serve same God, but i c my God is greater than all the problems... I need to be couragous to face the negative things... Jesus is the Savior, Jehovah is the Abba Father and Holy Spirit is the form of Power to all of us...

Many ppl are having doubts but i want to be changed and be the difference... For my God are really BIG!! We are not to constraint God in our own mind.. For all things are possible to those who believe... :) Hallelujah...

To Be Continued......

life changes.... :)

2010-01-06T21:22:00.000-08:00

Wow!! I simply love God so much.. Though it is only the 7th day of 2010 i'm experincing many cool things that are happening and is about to happen.. Haa..:) Tomorrow 8th Jan i'm going for concert at indoor stadium!! First time going concert!!! And it's with YJ.. Wahaahaahaa... What a cool thing... I love God as He keeps my heart burning so much for Him...

I'm gonna meet Pastor kenneth 9th jan for goal setting.. Hopefully i will get my goals set before 9th jan...

I'm going to study SIRS this year and is going to send application later.. Pray that i can get in too!!! haa...:) God is so good!!!:) I'm so excited until i forgotten what i wanted to update..
Anyway i will just stop here and update some other days in ther future... :)

To Be Continued....

Happy New Year 2010!! :)

2010-01-05T03:11:00.000-08:00

Wow!! It's 2010 already!! :) I'm so thankful that i have a good end in 2009.. I found a brand new spiritual home... A home that i am determined to stay strong for...:) Even though it's only the 5th day of the year, i experienced many many cool things of my life... :) I'm learning to engage with the leaders and found a great pastor like pastor kenneth... I'm thankful for his guide in the walk with Christ... I have found my first love again and i am so excited for the year 2010... God has taught me through bible studies and in my quiettime with Him of how to be used by God in a greater way....

Actually i'm desire to go for SOT 2010, yet i were given a suggestion by pastor kenneth that i may consider for SOT 2011. WOW!!! I found i a verse regarding "waiting" in 2 cor 8.... Wow!! It's amazing!!:) Actually reading bible in specific can help me in all my weaknesses as i believe... Because in bible there are unlimited encouragements to explore with.... Many possiblities starts from reading.... I'm going to plan out schedules and goals for 2010 and i'm not just plan, i'm acting it!!! :) training myself to do what i've promised is a great challenge in my alive days and i will do it no matter what happens... For i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.!:)

Hallelujah... For God will lead me into a higher level of anointing through the journeys in this broken down world!!:) Thank God I'm still alive for a greater change in my life!!:)

To Be Continued......

Wow.... 2009 is ending soon!!!! :)

2009-12-29T02:18:00.000-08:00

Wow.. I am so excited for 2010 to arrive as i'm expecting great things to happen to me...!!! :)
God is indeed so good that He showed me so many cool things that anyone else may know yet didn't do it... Hmmm I'm going for SOT 2010 as i feel that it is something that i really wanted to go so much that i am willing to pay the pay to discipline myself in many areas that i'm weak at... Especially in the resistance of certain temptations and bad habits.... I have downloaded the SOT forms and am believing it soooooo much that i am willing to sacrifice my time, sleep and everything... I'm training myself to everything that God wants me to be!!! :)

In December, my tithe is $303.95... Wow!!! Indeed God is my financial Provider... During many days of my life God has shown me many many miracles that touches my heart so much and He shown me the importance of how communications breakdowns can cause... My heart is filled with His love and grace that He is always provide me with even small things like my little heart desires... I really start to fall in love with God deeper everyday and is training in my prayers to be stronger and stronger everyday!!!! Hallelujah for God's grace that He really make the times out for me to do my quiet time... I will never forget how He touches me in 2009 and before...

Thank God that i have found Him!!!:) Hallelujah to the Most High!! :)

To Be Continued.....

my life changes... from October 2009 to December 2009...

2009-12-08T23:53:00.000-08:00

Wow... It is such a miracle that God has changed me from a ignorant person to a person that gain wisdom through the surroundings.... Lolx... So many things that i am used to be yet i have changed... I need more prayers... I want more prayers... I wish to get to SOT 2010... I need a $2000 for that... I'm going to get a open heaven to earn an income more than $25000 from december this month to december 2010.... I wish to get a boyfriend.. Haa... But i don't want a non-believer as bf... Do you know y? Haa... It is because that i may not be able to get into the promised land that God wanted me to be.. Wow!! More and more job opportunities are coming in... WOW!! I'm confused sometimes.. I hope i will get out of the confusion as soon as possible sia!! haa.:) Sometimes too many opportunities are good, yet it maybe a hinder to stop me from growing up... Haa... I think i should go and achieve my ultmate dream.... (to be an artist, an entertainment world star to shine God's glory...) I believe i can do it as God is with me all the time!! Woah.... I going to take a step at a time in order not to fall to the deep valley bottom pit...:) I love my God more than anything in life...:) I experience many many things... So many that God is able to solve all for me... Thank God for His grace... I'm going to build a discipline on my flesh for His stake... I love God because He first loved me.... Thank God i'm still alive.. :)
Hallelujah... :)

To Be Continued....

Oct 10-16 2009..... A week of miracles...

2009-10-15T23:20:00.000-07:00

Wow... This week there are so many testimonies i have to share regarding financial testimony...
Last sat, we have a great fellowship with cg and i went back with the group as peiling got something on... Haa... i went to top up my ez link via atm $5 and wanting to top up another $10 via either machine or atm.. just happened that i went off atm and there is a que behind, therefore i went away to use machine.. Do you believe in miracle?? I entered a wrong pin and suddenly the machine went funny and a $10 was top up without deeducting my account balance.. I checked for 3 times for my ez link balance and assured money was not deducted from my account.. WOW!!! It's God i believed.... $10 blessing... Hmmm I went to morning prayer on 12/10/2009 and after that i went to malaysia.. Found a christian shop and bought something for my friend... Actually i went there for buying memory stick for my younger brother yet i did not buy and in the end i went to shop elsewhere and ate a cool meal.. I thought i would not be having money enough to buy the memory card the next day... God blessed me on tuesday, 13/10/2009. My mother gave me $50 and that will be more than enough for my usage for next few days..

I fasted on 14/10/2009 and ate something in the evening as i went for evening prayer... Were being prayed for healing as i was a bit unwell. Yesterday, 15/10/2009.. I fasted and went for evening prayer again and were being blessed.. My mother give me permission to take money for the purchasing of shampoo and i took additional to eat dinner... I gave Christine a small gift and she drove me to Jurong East Mrt station to take train home.. Shared the ez link testimony to her....

Today, 16/10/2009.... I don't know why i will wake up at 0516hrs and i decided to go prayer mtg... My mother asked where i going and i told her that i will be going to church and later to study... Indeed God blessed me again through my mother.... I asked my money for $25, but she gave me $50 again.. WOW!!! I went for prayer mtg and i felt that my consistancy is more and more stronger as i prayed more... I love this anointing... :) I had a wonderful breakfast and lunch and expected a good dinner too.. I thank God for His mercy and i will be going for evening prayer before cgm tonight.. I knew i would be very blessed by God and His grace... Hallelujah To God Always... :)

To Be Continued.....

Date: 28/09/2009

2009-09-28T04:48:00.000-07:00

Wow.. Have heard so many wonderful testimonies from w272 members and get to know that God is indeed good all the time... I'm going to work hard for my o level and also doing the tnecessary to build up my spiritual life with God.. I have sent a resume to jessica, i hope the 1st resume will be a good one.. Hmm hopefully of what i have sent will get me to a good job... WSill pray hard for a good pay job... I want to go to SOT 2010 and learn in God's Word more and more so that i can use the Word of God to defeat the devil that is always creating temptations for me to overcome.. I will pray hard for the things not to come and to come so that i am able to fulfill my promise to those i've said.. Oh God! Please help me in filthering of everything so that i will be doing good at all times and doing the right things at all times.. I thank God for w272 and i'm going to do more things that i can to bless the cell group.. Thank God for His faithfulness and loyalty to me... I will be loyal to God and in doing of what i've promised... I want to train myself as a doer of what i have said and keep promises i had made... i will wait on the Lord patiently for the things yet to come.. All thanks to Jesus who died on the cross for my sin and so i can glorify God in my doings... Hallelujah.. :)

To Be Continued......

我的心愿由我的主来完成.....

2009-09-16T03:53:00.000-07:00

今年的生日很特别。我想为自己庆祝生日。只有我没有任何其他人。我要为我买生日蛋糕，为我唱生日快乐歌。虽然昨日到凌晨都有人陪我，但下午从五点后由我一个人为自己度过。我的心愿是想要一个可以侍奉我的上帝的一颗心。因为上帝是创造者，我相信耶和华是我唯一的天父。耶稣是我的生命救主。 Thank God for His loving care for me... I really love Him alot.. More than words can express... God is so Beautiful; He uses everything on earth to teach us His ways... 我吃了自己送给自己的蛋糕，和自己庆祝了这一天下午。 Hallelujah... Praise the Lord forever and ever more.. He is the One who teaches me so many things in the bible.. I just simply love to pray to God... I am more consistant in my prayer nowadays and will not hesitate to bless people... I know it's God's will to be a blessing to others... I will try my best to reach out in my own special ways... G0d give me talents to mutiply into more talents... 我会一直爱上帝直到永远。 Love God as He loved me first.. :)

To Be Continued......

My birthday...16/09/1989..... 20yrs later.... 16/09/2009

2009-09-16T02:14:00.000-07:00

I have known the meaning of 20... It is a victory year this year.. From today onwards, my life will be a victory to the end... I love God as He has helped me alot from the past to now.... I really appreciate what God has done...From my older posts you will know that my life is quite amazing... 20yrs back, i were just a baby and now to young adulthood... I will do it and keep on doing it and will not just say only... I will discipline myself to keep my promise to the end... I hope i will not find excuses anymore from today onwards of what i had promised... Oh GOD!!! Lift my burden up to You and in exchange of Jesus' burden that is light.. I NEED HELP FROM GOD!!! I will live for God in majority of my life... I will build my faith as i know that my faith is not that strong... I will need to keep on encouraging myself with the Word of God and keep on trusting Him.. Jesus Christ, i thank You for dying on the cross so thar i'm set free.... Jesus Christ thank you for the "+" sign and also the maths formulae of (- times - equals +).... It teaches alot of Your way oh Lord... Thank You God for Your wisdom and Understandings...

Praise the Lord Always!!! :) Hallelujah..

To Be Continued......

My Life... Changing Daily... 24/08/09-30/08/09

2009-09-02T01:03:00.000-07:00

24Aug- Wow.... After knowing that my mother is giving me the money for all the mahjong sessions, i immediately today bind "the spirit of mahjong"... LOLX... Quite funny but yet indeed i do that in order to create an atmosphere for me to study... Hmmm i feel so peace after that but my laziness spoiled it all... Hmmm i spent my time praying and smsed many friends arund me to ask them for a prayer requests that they may want... Though some told me things that they are keen to have but overall i will need to tell them part of my stoires in order to bring God back to or into their life.. It's challenging of doing so... haha.. But i am confident that i am able to do all things through Christ who strenghthens me...

25Aug- My mother's birthday... I actually prayed for a constant of more than 20days.. Amazed by my God done and the changes i have too... I actually can encourage people in a balanced way... That is very cool.... Hmmm have shopped at m store beforehand and found a nice skirt... Had dinner with Peiling and Kimyen at cwp.. Statisfied with how the day past.... Had spent almost all my money for that week... So So guilty.... Haaa... Left with little money for the next few days... Hmmm bought a cake for my mother.. I want to thank Kimyen for coming down to celebrate my mother's birthday too... Really appreciate of what she had done... afterall i walked to cwp with kimyen and shared with her a lot of things and of how i feels everything regarding her Bgr that previously invloves me... Now, (02/09/09) it doesn't really affecting me that much anymore...

26Aug- Wow!!!! I decided to fast for 2 days on that day... Hmm i did pray, read bible and also study for my o level for a little... So cool decision i've made... Hmmm i slept until 3pm in the noon and proceed with my self studies... This is cool!!! Hmmm never been such determined before..

27Aug- Ken chiu's birthday... My uncle actually came and ask my mother for help in his financial situations and i help him to withdraw 2100 out.. I taken another $10 out for my on use... WOW!! My fasting really last till 6pm!!! Amazing grace from God that helps me doing it!!!! Hmmm i went to Plaza Sing meeting Kimyen and after that went Chinatown to eat porridge... Hmmm had a wonderful fellowship with her... Hmmm after we ate porridge at chinatown, i actually went shopping at the CK department store and spent another $20.40 with my mother's atm.. I know I'm bad la.. But very tempting sia.. With her card, totally for that day i've used $41.40... I bought tidbits $6.00, Ck i spent $20.40, Top up ez link $5.00 and the additionals withdraws of $10.00... Really feel bad as up to now (02/09/09) i haven't tell her... OOPS...

28Aug- Wow.. So excited for the cg outing together at Han's (at evening time) in the morning when i woke up... I went to oral exam in the afternoon 2.15pm.. I were late for 10mins.. Thank God that the exam haven't got started... After oral, i went to library to use computer for updating my blogs... I still feel hurt about ky and sh de bgr but i continued to pray for a miracle to break that hurt... I went back home after using the computer at library and after that took additional $15.00 from my mother... I told my mother that i will not be home for a party (indeed there was a party at midnight)... I had a great fellowship with my members and we walked to riverwalk for the prayer meeting...

29Aug- Shuyi's birthday.... I went to prayer meeting until 0125hr and started to walk to boatquay... Wow!! Can't believe that it's just a small distance of walk... Had a great time at beer belly... drank aroud 4 small cups of martell and sang "ting hai"... Wow.. I love people to clap for my singings... So cool that alot of people appraciate it and clapped... Hahaha.... So cool.... Went back to riverwalk and reached at around 0410hrs.. The last part of overnght prayer meeting.. COOL.. I am delivered by God upon the laying of hands and feel so freed.. Shared testimony of God's grace... Slept from 0700hrs to 1430hrs... after that i went to church together with Peiling... Got blessed by Pastor Phil Pringle's sermon.... Went Burger King to have my dinner and after that went home to rest... Amazing God!!!

30Aug- i went for double service that week and were very blessed... I indeed smsed Sianghao and release whatever hurts up to God and forgiven him of what he did to hurt me (the words that he spoke and the things he did that are opposite..) Thank God that i can have a short time of prayer in the morning... I went home and take care of my favourite niece and really being blessed by the money for the day as i can go and buy the skirt that i want today(02/09/2009)...
Praise the LORD for what He has done to my life!! Hallelujah!! :)

To Be Continued....

My life... Changing daily.... 17/08/2009-23/08/2009

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17 Aug- Haha... I forgotten what's happening but i believe that it's something not really important... Am hurt still from previous days.... I have smsed both Kimyen and Sianghao a long 15 pages of sms and ask them to think again of what they are doing that maybe right or wrong... (the messages are actually to remind them about to wake up and know what they really want)

18Aug- My heart is still a bit here and there... I have given them all the blessings but i still got a contrite heart that really quite jealous... Sorry to say this but always there are something to share.... Hmm I can't remember that day though but i know that i did something amazing... I've prayed so consistant for more den 1 week.. I'm so loved by God...

19Aug- went to work i think.. Haa.. Cannot really remember.... Hmmm had wonderful experiences with what God has done.. I may not remember, but God knows it every single details of my life...

20Aug- Still, forgotten... Haha.. But i did pray, read bible and get to know a verse that is very important.. Psalms 4:4 Be angry, but do not sin. Meditate within your heart on your bed, and be still. Selah
(this verse helps me to release the hurts for a moment but my brain keep on remembering the hurts and it eventually came back till (28/08/09 midnight or 29/08/09 morning). The miracle happened.. will tell you the glory of God that touches my life as the time comes...

21Aug- Went for cell group meeting and got prayed for by Peiling. The laying of hands is really effective as when Peiling prayed for me with the laying of hand, i wept... The touch of God instantly flows to me... Cool experience... WOW!!

22Aug- Went to service together with Peiling via bus as Peiling is going to Orchard after giving bible study to me and Ken.. WOW!! So cool.... Hmmm Peiling is a extraodinary leader that really touches me of what she did... Really... She is amazing in God's grace... Hmmm after service my cellgroup members went to bugis whereby i went to vivocity and had dinner with my uncle...
Had a wonderful dinner... The steak is so nice.. We went to terra to eat.. Arrggghh.. So long walking distance from the mrt station to the exact location... Lolz... But overall It's a good dinner and i didn't regret to travel down to meet my uncle though...

23Aug- Haha... i didn't go to work, instead i were at Home all the way taking care of my favourite niece, Yuting... She is so adorable!! I simply love her very much... I skip my work just for her... Haa.. Of course that is a part of my excuses la.. Overall is that i am simply lazy.. Lolz... I got a promise from my mother that day whereby i will get all the incomes of the mahjong sessions.. It sounds so COOL!!! hahaha.... That very day i gotten $110+ so cool yeah... Haha... Went out at 2230hr with Shuyi and her friends... We went to OCC to play pools.....

To Be Continued..

My life... Changing daily.... 12/08/09- 16/08/09

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Aug 12- went to morning prayer and after that went home to sleep for a while and after that i went to work from 3-10 at U2me.com at plaza sing... after that i went to slack outside plaza sing till the next day.. the day is somehow quite fulfilling, but still in a bad mood with my mother...

Aug 13- Didn't went home still, went to ton overnight with patawari and learn that his family is also not whole as his dad was not with him early days and his mother died when he is young... Hmm it's quite cool to know so much things.. We slack at paya lebar mac nearby wari's house and after that i went to church at Jw for morning prayer mtg... Slept for only few mins in the train and there i were at the prayer mtg... after prayer mtg i went home and in the noon time i went out before my mother reach home from work to shop.. Went to cgm that night and were blessed by the Word. Shared a testimony and made issac stunned.. Haaa... Nobody knows i can be quite rebellious sometimes... Eventually Peiling prayed for me and i was touched and eventually there are healings of my hurts.... I get to know a girl from korea name vinna... Wow!! God is amazing.. i went home that night after cgm..

Aug 14- Aug 14 was a fulfilling day too... Went to many places... Woke up at 1130hrs and went harbourfront to meet shuyi, eventually i were late and when i reached harbourfront, i immediately went to Dhoby Ghaut to meet her... I went to ion vai walking to go and check out a lagging for aunty jenny, my hair stylish from young as i have promised her that i will get it for her... After that i went back to Plaza Sing to meet shuyi for lunch... After that i went for evening prayer mtg at riverwalk and den back to Orchard to work for Diana for a small setup. Overall i were tired, but yet were being "pulled out" for a movie with Sianghao, James, Kimyen and myself... Went to take neoprint with Kimyen and eventually were addicted by it.. (Some memories were created of what James smsed me in the noon time about Sianghao). ps: i don't wanna recall of what he said... It's unbelievable.

Aug 15- Our show starts around 0200 hrs and ended around 0400hrs. 4 of us went to Boat Quay via night rider and reach around 0500hrs included times wasted walking here and there...

We went to the indian shop to eat as golden cafe were closed... Had tea tarik for that... Hmmm after that Kimyen went home with me.. I did not attend service for that day.... Instead i went to my niece's one month blah blah blah... (dunno how to say..) I did call Sianghao and verify what is the truth and i told him that i would reject him no matter what he expressed.. However he seems to be firm to move me to have feelings for him... At that point of view i keep on shooting impossibilities about me and him.... (In my heart i know there is nothing impossible as God is Almighty..) I found out that Kimyen fall for Sianghao and i encouraged her to express her feelings to him... I told Sianghao to think carefully for an answer of his heart... Keep on disturbing him, i push Kimyen to him as i know i will hurt him if i were to be with him... However in my heart i wish that he could like me a little while more... Haa... i dun have alot of admirers due to my looks... He is the few that will fall for me... Actually i don't wanna give him out as i think that we can try out for a relationship for a while... But because i dun want kimyen to be hurt i hope he will make his own choice.... Perhaps i am stupid for what you may think but i feel that it is the best choice afterall... (Sianghao still says something like :" i will do my best to make you moved.") LOLX... THIS IS A PROMISE OUT OF HIS INSANITY MIND... DUNNO WHY I HAVE THE CONFIDENT THAT HE WILL NOT DO IT TO THE END... LOLX.... A man who does not honor his words are cheaters to those who blindly believes.. I were the one of the stupid blind person...

Aug 16- Yan Yan's birthday.... One day that i am deeply hurt but yet i feel that i deserving it.. Haa.. As i've said that i would reject Sianghao to the end, i rejected him... I just put Kimyen onto his mind... He said something sweet in the morning like :" i will cook for you maggie..." All sorts of craps... I feel so hurt when the next sms hits... SMS stated that he already agreed to be kimyen's boyfriend... I were hurt.... YES, HURT..... What is his previous days sms for??? For cheating me???? Haaa.... All become craps to me... I become more and more dislike him.. I dun dare to hate as he's being treating me well as a friend before it turned out to be so complicated.... My life is still hurt now... (28/08/09)... Hopefully that the hurts will vanish before 16/09/2009 because i want A HAPPY BIRTHDAY WITHOUT HURTS STILL ONGOING... I will release it to God... And will work hard to forget the hurts... However, i were happy as i finally know what type of person i will like after that day.. I want a guy who is able to have a say in my life.. A guy who is able to rise up and take controls of me.. Becasue i'm an easily lost person, that is why i need a partner who will not be lost in his way to guide me... I wish for a christian guy.... Haa... Eventually i hope it will be good to be jw or person like wl...

To Be Continued.....

Challenges i facing at the moments...

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Aug 6- went home from my uncle house and get to play with my cute niece.. I love her so much.. I can't help but to dote her... She will be my first favourites among all my others nieces and newphews.. ( i know i'm biased, but i can't help it..) lolx...

Aug 7- Cgm was good.. Get to know many people in w272.. I love it man... It seems that God has a purpose for mi to be there and that is to bless it with great testimonies and encourage people of my fellow members.. I feel so comfort in the cgm.. I love to be in W272.. I know i will be changed from time to time...

Aug 8- Went to church with Peiling early for prayer mtg.. I'm fortunate to have Peiling as a leader and a friend to me.. I thank God for issac too.. Praise the Lord!!:) I have a nice dinner and went to fetch my cousin's cousin who was coming back from china (her hometown) to Singapore (where she study at). A wonderful day..

Aug 9 - national day, a day i've work... Aunt blessed mi with $20 and mother give me $20.. Cool.. Went for movie after that with Siang Hao and Kimyen... WOW!! Amazing sia.. Lolx.. I thought i would never meet up with Siang Hao again... LOlx... Orphan the movie is good.. I enjoyed it with contented heart.. ( siang hao treated) Lolx... Hmm i went to "talk craps"...

Aug 10- Midnight still with Siang hao and kimyen till morning.. Amazing things happen.. They both "followed me home" from a distance behind me.. Lolx.. Like as if they were chasing me.. Lolx.... Hmm sleep for 1/2 hour and get ready for morning prayer @ Jw church... Cool fellowship with issac andrew and 2 of the members. (sorry, still can't remember the names well yet.) sleep from 940am to 1pm, play with niece and be like a servant to my relatives.. Feels so ....... Lolx... Hmm sleep very well before eating dinner... mom starts to nags..

Aug 11- A bad day.. mother keep on nagging from midnights and i broke into tears and i'm so angry with her.. Don't feel like talking to her even i met her when i was on my way out to church for evening prayer mtg... Hmm shared with Peiling and isac and ken abt it and really feel so depressed.. Nearly becomes mad woman.. Lolx.. Hmm ate Mac with younger brother and that was my breakfast, lunch and dinner as my actual plan of dinner at golden cafe was ruin but i spent time talking with Shuyi, Sharo, Shi hui and Clare lim.. Bought a cd from true worshippers.. Cool... i love that cd alot.. Hmm share something with them.. went to find uncle (zhen xing father) who was about to go airport to fetch my aunt who went hongkong for holidays sponsered by her company.. (wow.. i wish to have that too!)

Aug 12- still awakes now, but am going to sleep after finish this... uncle and aunt taught me about life and i appreciate it.. will take their words in considerations... Am going to morning prayer in 2 hr time and going to reach home at around 940am and sleep till 130pn and prepared to go work at 3pm.. Hope God's strength to be with me throughout and maybe going home ater work.. It depends on my mood totally... Thank God for His love that never ends... :)

To be Continued.....

My life seems to be interesting..

2009-08-07T03:26:00.000-07:00

Wow... i am going to cgm later.. wow... feel so cool.. just ne i have webcam with someone.. so interesting happens.. 1st time ever i web cam on my own.. lolx.. hmm did sth stupid over it.. lolx.. please dun question too much.. i wanna tell i will say out at blog.. lolx... hmm feel sth that is so cool!! Hmm when u know the true meaning of balanced and live a life with the holy spirit, u will find that everything is changed... so unbelievable!! that is a WOW for me.. Hmm u all can't sense it because u all are not me.. lolx.. not to discourage u, but is to say that u will get to know God in ur own spiritual ways. Jesus is the best man and Son of God.. Thank God i have known Him.. Hallelujah... :)

Most memorial prayer.. Aug 4, 2009

2009-08-05T23:26:00.000-07:00

This is THE DAY i had my very cool breakthroughs in life... After aug 2 CHC celebrations, i was being filled by Holy Spirit again.

Aug 2- lack of sleep but i got work, therefore i need to be awake till after 1030pm.. I did it!!! Wow.. (can u see the reason behind it.)

Aug 3 - my friends done something that i feel its quite wrong to me but i was not very angry... Wow!! miracle.. If i faced it last time surely will "kao bei kao bu".. Oops... lolx.. relax man.. i know it wrong word to use, but before Aug i simply used it everyday.. will train it to be as little as possible la.. lolx.. ( can u c what's behind it?)

Aug 4- woke up ususally early, watched some vcds and at 10am, start to pray.. From 10am, aug 4 2009 to 1045am, i was filled with sorrows and wept for total 45 min long.. (mum went out, all out for work). i felt extremely peace after that... all of my heart express were out, my fears and failures. So good feeling. in the evening hours, i met Shuyi and dunno what reason i am daring to preach a little via my life experience with her. She was touched a little as i can see. ( Do you see whose power that its in me?)

Aug 5- Managed to pray a little and read a little of the bible. feel very touched by the america's talents of a boy who desire to dance.. Wow!! i nearly cried.. I was not like that before when my heart was harden... Wow!! Amazing change in my life.. I went to myuncle house (it's where i am now to update the blog). Lolx... Now is Aug 6 and i've received a job on sunday!! :) ( can u see something is happening for me to clear off my debts?)

It will always be on and on of my life story.. I will want the Someone who You know who You Are to be by my side forever and ever more to bring me into adventure life!.. :) Hallelujah! Amen. (don't put me under over godly, and dun say me very holy ok?) lolx.. Balanced man!! lolx.. :)

2009 August 2... CHC anniversary.. A changing moment.

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It is quite amazing service, God's pressence is so strong. Message of Pastor Kong's i feel it is something i looking for... This make my life to be filled again.. Lolx.. So Hard to believe...

My life is so alone before that, it feels like my life will not be alone after this day.. I want to thank Issac, Pei Ling for making the difference.. Indeed sacrifice from oneself really make a big difference... Of course i want to thank God for His almighty Love.. My heart is filled with something amazing... i'm so ez broken again, broken to God and ez to be touched by things, no longer the harden me... Thank u all who make a difference in my life.. Thank u.:)

Lolx. I have resigned from Carrefur for the 3rd time, (my last time)

2009-08-05T11:05:00.000-07:00

Lolx. Many people asked why but what i can say is that it is because i don't have the heart for the job. LOlx... I am really giving up this time. lolx. even though i may need money for my bills all that but i will hope that there will be something like a miracle to happen la.. lolx.. Hmmm i wish that i can get out of debts asap. lolz... Jesus Is Here, so i can believe that all my worries can be peace one by one.. :)

Wow.. Its first time my story so short.. lolx.. cuz i got nothing much to say about Carrrefour le.. lolx...

Life Back At Carrefour... From 18May 2009 To 5July 2009...

2009-07-04T13:09:00.001-07:00

Haha... I never thought of going back to carrefour but because of my friends there, i was "lure" back as a stupid fool.... I am getting the cashier pay and work like shit like that... I am going to resign real soon and i promise that i will go and get another job which can be better after i resigned... This July i still cannot resign because i need to pay off my bills and everything within my limit.. I hope that i can get more income so that i will not worry abt my bills and everything... I think i am very sucks in handling money... haha i think i need a guy who is good at it to control my money spending... Lolx... Hmmm recently i was being complimented by a customer and handled a nasty customer... I merely wanna push the responsible to the management just in case the customer come and find me trouble, in the ends that cusstomer wanna speaks to our store director... As he feels that the managers are as though a "small fries"... I wanna quit my job is simply because i feel that my work salary is simply not enough for my expenses.. So i will want to resign again from carrefour... i will definately will discuss with my mother first before i do anything stupid.. Hahaha...

I wanna earn a $260 before sep because i wanna buy sa massage item for my mother... Hmmm it is very hard.. Also, i wanna earn another $200 for my hp bills.. After that it will be fine hopefully la... Hmm i will not go chiong this few wseeks as i need to budget... Everything now for me is in a chaotic manner... Hahaha... It seems that there is something i am lacking.. Hopefully i can find that something soon enough before i am totally unmoldable.. lol.. Nowadays got different zone's service.. Hopefully i can find a new job so that i can go for church and everything else.. I feel its drawing near to make harsh decisions and to cut off unnecessary life... I will ask Shuyi they all not to go pub next week.. Its not healthy and its wasting a lot of money too.. I hope that i can save a sum of money for SOT next year.. Hopefully i will have a change in my character for my mother to see and she will be touch and she will willing to help me to fork out the money for me to learn the Word Of God... I will train myself up and willing to shone the Glory Of God to my family.. Hopefully i will not be so wasteful of money and have a discipline on that... \

I believe i can do it because I got Jesus with me... I will work hard for eveything and i will glorified God for His love is so Great all the time.. I will train myself to love myself and not to be selfish at the same time... Wow!! Its been long from last blog, i will try to update as and when i can... Hopefully till the older days of mine when i grow older in age...

To Be Continued...........

A new Job....

2009-04-01T20:54:00.000-07:00

Wow.. It was amazing that i could find a temporary job from my last time supervisor of Popular..She gave me a job opportunity in her roundings of works and i like it very much... Hahaha.... Hmm i will want this kind of job whereby i can accept or reject if the time not suits me.. this eill be the best outcome out of "no outcome"(no job).... Hmmm i have worked on 31/03/09 from 6-10pm... Even though i have missed my show, but i believe that i need to prioritise the job than the work... Hmm later at 2pm today, i will be working at Suntec Carrefour with her and will be meeting Rouxin a new cgl that i know for dinner.... Hmm i am so excited... WOW.... hahaha....

This morning i have met YJ for breaskfast and i plan to meet him tomorrow for morning prayer too!! So Cool... Haha.. However i don't like anyone currently, just want to focus on my O level and also to keep on track of searching my purpose in life with God... Hopefully i can find my truely loves... hahaha... Hmmm I now in a confused as i do not know which cell to go to... I got so many choices now and am very confused... Hmm hopefully i can find a suitable cell that i can group up in mental and Spiritually.. Haha.. Maybe i am somehow too comfortable of where i am now and do not wish to have changes ba... But if i don't look for changes the more i will not understand my purpose in life, therefore i want to be wiser and so i can choose to more and more like God.... Hmm i need a strong will-power... Haha... Seldom i will fast, however i need to train my discipline to fast one day every week, it is for either for myself or for my friends and family who doesn't know God as their Savior... I will need to plan my schedule for the day everyday to discipline myself.. It is a very very hard thing but i am willing to train myslf up to that level... And i hope that i can learn more about the different thinkings of life and to be more and more WISER IN EVERY PORTION OF MY LIFE..... I know the ultimate results and that is "I am wiser, BUT GOD IS WISEST."

Wow... Time is flying man.. Hopefully i will stay awakes till 10pm today... A hard day to fight... But a good fight ends with Christ.... Jesus Christ is the ultimate Winner of everything..... God knows you all the time and He Gives the blessings to us when we are in need of something... Think Deeply, God is the Alpha and Omega, the first and the end, think this: "There are always got alot of choice in our life, we can choose either the left or the right for example; no matter what we choose God knows it and eventually He will make you see the mistakes that you choosen wrong in later years. We need to seek God for answers and so that we can learn from all the things that we experienced to grow spiritually mature. We can always re-do those things that we are regretted that we did not do in the later years as we are still breathing, its just a matter that are we bold enough to take the challenge or not. If we dare not, there are always many things that are interesting that requires lesser risks..... Learn from mistakes are good, But to move on are quite difficult sometimes down the road.... I hope my blog will be a blessing back to me some years down my "roads" and hope it helps YOU too!! :)

To Be Continued.....

25 days have passed from the day i resigned... 30/03/2009

2009-03-30T02:52:00.000-07:00

Wow... It's amazing that the time really flies... I have rested for a total of 25 days to date... Haha.. This 3 weeks are my breakthroughs weeks.. Updated my blogs for more than 3 times is the record for the month... Hahaha... I have dropped a "comment" form to the Carrefour "feedback box" Lolx... So fun.. LOLX... I never been such a relaxed day... Hmm i have read about 4books and going to finish my 5th books very very soon.. hahaha.... Hmm How i wish i can have even more time for readings... I feel that my life is lighten up and is more and more brighter after my resignation from carrefour..... Currently i hope to get a respond from Siew Choon of whether she got and vacant at anywhere that she managed.... Hopefully she can get back to me by this week so that i can be more relaxed.. Haha.. That can be a quite impossible kind of thing also... Hmmm I have sign up for o level.. Will need to pay up by this weekend....

I havw owe my hp bills for 3 months.. lolx... Hopefully i can pay by end of this month, which means tomorrow... Lolx... Hmm i want to be more and more like God, and i am going to prayer meeting at least one time this week.. Haha.. Need to wake up by 6am and to reach chc jurong west by 7am... Hmm i will do my best and let God do the rest.. :)

Jia you to everyone who is working hard....:)

To Be Continued.....

An Inccident of a mother murdered her own child.

2009-03-21T00:31:00.000-07:00

Have You heard of the recently news on 19/03/09 about woodlands mother murder the child case?? The child is actually my cousin's wife step younger sister.... So miserable right??? Hmmm I have attended the ceremation yesterday evening at around 5+pm... From what i know from my cousin and cousin in law is that the news are too ridiculous already... At least half of it are wrong facts..

From what i know from my cousin in law jesslyn (victim's elder sister) is that her sister will ignore the mother even if the mother are very wrong.. Maybe sometimes the truth are not revealed yet... Hmmm there are many possibilties for this matter... No one knows the truth beforehand and everything may not be what you expected it to be...
Yes, from what i know is that the mother do have a mentally disorder, and before the incident, my cousin and jesslyn (cousin's wife) did asked the murderer (jesslyn's mother) to go for appointment checkups about the mother actually ignored her and so jesslyn told her aunt about it and her aunt scolded her mother... Her mother was angried and scolded jesslyn for her "kponess"... In the evening to night time, my cousin and cousin-in-law took their baby with them back to my first auntie's (cousin's mother) house to stay.... As from what i heard that Eunice died from a stabbed wound in her chest, just 1 slashed in and pulled out because the blood was from the bed dripping down to the floor.. Hmm after jesslyn's mother killed her younger daughter, she actually called her elder daughter and say: "i have killed your sister, can you come home quickly to save your sister?" These words are to be proven that she was in a confused situation.... I believe that she is half consious and half in mentally sick... Everything was too late.... Eunice has died... But she will be in the rememberance of all her family and friends at heart...
Eunice came my house once before in around 2 to 3 years back and i find that she is a very quiet girl who is quite sweet, even though she is not that talkative due to that we are still strangers.... I felt so dishearted when i heard the news... Jesslyn's mother did ask Eunice of something like how she wants to die and Eunice often asnwer her mother that she don't want to die as she is living happily on earth... A person who doesn't want to die is dead... What a cruel world.. I don't blame her mother, but i blame Satan.. Jesslyn is a hard worker... She has been working hard to support her sister as is was her who gave her mother encouragements to give birth to her younger sister when the father do not really care about her mother of to abort the baby or not when she scanned out the pregnant child is a girl... What a cruel father you may think, but he has his very own reasons or rights to say these cruel words.. Maybe he is in a financial difficulties??? Or others you may not know....

Maybe you all may think that why don't jesslyn stayed at home in the first place? Why she don't persue her mother to go for checkups?? But eveything is too late to say right now at the moment... We are always have our rights and always thinks that we deserve all the rights we have to live as individual, however the world is round, that is how we connected.... Nobody knows the future... For what i will think is that God will have His good way, but there is a devil who did this.. I do believe in demons as they are from satan, the evil of all goodness.....

Before the ceremation, i have told jesslyn that if she wants her younger sister to come alive, she can do so by asking her to come back as I BELIEVE THAT MIRACLES WILL HAPPEN... However, her sister wants her to go in peace to the heavenly place.. Thank God that her younger sister is already water baptise and believe in God and so we will meet again in the heaven and all the truth will be revealed to us at the point of time. Whatever ways that we are able to think of, GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIMES AND ALL THE TIMES GOD IS GOOD...

In my heart i will pray for jesslyn and her baby and her mother... I believe that the doings are from satan who might sent a demon to do it.. I hope that jesslyn's mother will not be sentenced to straight death because i hope that her mother will truely repent of what has happened...

Jesus forgives our sins and is willing to die on the cross for those who truely believes and who is really willing to repent from the mistakes that we did, therefore we must not hate anyone besides the devil, satan... We have the rights to choose and if we want to choose God, our sacrifices are greater than all those non-believers.. Everything are at peace on earth when the peace we have are with God... We are working all the time till the time we really "rest in peace", Just think: our organs are still working every single second and we are still using our brain as we dream, using our heart to pump blood when we are breathing... We are working every single day, just that we need to think that are the things that we are doing is it worth our life to do it or not...

When Adam and Eve ate the knowledge fruits, we are to be called sinners. And when Jesus Christ died on the cross for us, we are justified and are acknowledged back to God. So we should not give up so easily on life as life are precious... HELLO TO ALL WHO FEELS THAT THE CASE ARE VERY CRUEL, WAKE UP UR IDEA. Did you ever think of killing yourself/your mother/father/brother/sister or friends or even pets?? Once you have the thoughts YOU ARE CRUEL too!!!!!

PLEASE DO NOT JUDGE!! WHAT YOU THINK IS WRONG ARE RIGHTS FOR OTHERS' POINT OF VIEW......

For what we can do is to pray for jesslyn and her 3+month baby also jesslyn's mother... We don't have the right to comment about their family... Every family have his or her stories to tell, what we are to say is that we can listen and give advise, NOT TO HAVE A HARSH JUDGEMENTAL COMMENTS... Hope Those who read this will have a better understandings that only God will judge, WE ARE NOT GOD, SO WE MUST TRAIN OURSELVE NOT TO JUDGE...

To Be Continued......

My life... 18/3/09

2009-03-17T11:38:00.000-07:00

Today i have updated 2 times in my blog... The difference between this 2 blogs ia that one is to introduce my friend, and current one is to tell my days from 16/3/09 to now, 18/3/09 0246hrs.... Currently i am at my uncle house to update the blog and to browse online about the movie timing for later on my outing with sarah... Hmm before that, i want to say that my life is more and more interesting to me as it is mot just fulfillings, out of the boredom i found a brand new stuffs fore my days before i step into routine to work again.... Even though in these 2 and a eighth days, my life is full of disappointments, encouragements and of things that are new to me... Encouragements are from my new friend named Christopher and also earlier on from ken...
Disappointments are: my mother had critised me again.. i feel like going to die(end my life straight) out of a sudden in the morning and i prayed a very short prayer and it helps... I believe its not only i prayed, ken also did helped me to pray and therefore i found myself in the peace of God again.. Thanks to God for His Love, Joy and Peace... I want to have a "ken" character boyfriend the person can be ken but i feel that unlikely that i will have a boyfriend due to my appearance... As i believe all human beings do concern about the appearance of one self.... It is ao hard and i don't have the confident in me to do that... Lolxx... I feel a lot of discouragements and so my posts will be a bit negative.. But i want to thank God that Yj really accompany to watch movie... Even though the movie i had already watched it alone myself, but somehow that God give me 2 accompanies to watch the shows that i have watched it alone myself... Later at 1515hr, sarah will accompany me to watch "the race to the witch mountain" again... She Have not watch it yet... Yesterday Yj watched "the dragonball evolution for the 2nd time with me.. Hopefully he don't watch the race to the witch mountain, if he wants he can watch with another friend but not me...
Lolx... I don't want to watch it for the 3rdtime... Hmm I will pray that my outing with sarah will be blessed by God with fun joy and laughter...

I want to train myself to be a prayer warrior so that i will not be defeated so easily by the negative world.. I can overcome everything with God's mercy and grace.. I believe that God will give me the strength for my remaining days to the right time i will be going up to heaven to be with God... I want Jesus to come and be my savior again and Holy Spirit to heal all my sickness and brokeness in the spirit realm also in the physical.. I want to thank God all my life and will train myself to be a history maker..

To Be Continued...

Knowing a new friend... Sarah from cg w480..

2009-03-17T10:40:00.000-07:00

Wow... On sunday i went for service at jurong west, i was guided to a front right corner(at the choir side) and just nice there was another lady sitted beside me and also was alone attending the service. In the first place, i thought she was attending with her cellgroup, but when the conversation starts for 3 minutes, i found out that actually she was attending the service alone too. To my surprise, she actually become one of my friends after the service... We went to Jurong Point to fellowship after the service... I never thought that we can be friends or i can know a new friend just like that... However, God is a good God that He let me to actually get me a new friend just at a time whereby friends are imoportant to my life... Hmm i don't really know how to talk to stranger but to my surprise that i can actually get to familiarise a person so fast... Just a service i attended and that changes everything... I found out that Sarah stays at woodlands too... Just nearby me... Also i know that she is from a divorced and re-marry family... However she is so cheerful.... Hmmm she got an elder brother and she is now studying part time night courrses at LCCL if i do not remember wrong...... Hmm i want to thank God for His mercy and grace for letting me to know such a different girl from me in my life... Actually all are different but in certain ways i feel that it is in a right time that God send her to let me know that tthe world is filled with beautiful people... Whats more is that YJ has asked me to go and watch the dragonball evolution with him on tuesday.. And my younger brother actually lent me his PSP for a week... Incredible!!!! WOW... Its a Cool experience on last sunday...

Cool day to be in.... Thank God for His love...

To Be Continued...

movies that i have watched for the week...

2009-03-13T04:42:00.001-07:00

Wow... Today is the 2nd time i watch movie for the week alone... I don't really like to watch movies and feel that it is a waste of money.. However i have changed my view of that... Yesterday i have watched "dragonball evolution" and now i have finished "the race to the witch mountain"... Cool... 2 shows in a week and 1 day of difference that i watch the movies... Next monday i want to watch the "kungfu chef" and also the "push"... "coming soon is also in my consideration too... I want to enjoy my "holiday" to the fullest.. Everyday it seems so fulfilling to me... I now at library and i am going to borrow another book that will attract me to read... Hopefully i can find the book i read half way yesterday about the global business of how to do business not only at singapore but to all the world.. I have finished the book regards networking and know the techniques of how a networker do their job... Wow.. Even though i don't really believe that networking can work, but indeed there are great examples like "Amway" that show the successes of networking... Hmmm.. I hope to read another good book regards retail and also to go and find out the tests that i can take privately just for the certificates... LOls... people may ask: "you did not attain the lessons how are you able to pass the exams??" My answer will be: "There are so many real life 'textbooks' that i can get from the library." A library is a good resource of knowledge.. So i want to take this opportunities to recommand people to visit the library more often....

Wow... Its the 2nd post for today.. Amazingly i can update my blog so fast in a row of just less than 3 hours.. broke my records again!!... Lolx..

Everyone can keep on breaking their own records by keeping working hard at the records that they want to breakthrough off... I hop that tomorrow there will be a peace at my house.. Hopefully that my relatives will not come to my house to play mahjong... Ask them to come on sundays perhaps... lolx....

Oh ya.. Both the shows that i watched are not too bad, the sounds systems, the animations and the effects are good.. Just that the story lines are not as good as i thought it would be... Hopefully "push" and "kungfu chefs" will be better.... And hopefully that "coming soon" will be good as it is a thailand horror movie... Hmmm lastly i wanna comment that today is my GOOD AND ENJOYABLE DAY OF MY LIFE.... Hopefully tomorrow will also be i pray in Jesus' name.... (Amen!!) :)

Take care to all my friends who are "suffering" hope that you will find your rest soon!! :)

To Be Continued.....

Currently I'm enjoying a carefree live... HAPPY...

2009-03-13T01:18:00.000-07:00

You may think its very Godly, But to me, It ever a REAL experience... Do you Believe??

Wow... A life can be so enjoying at the same time fulfilling.... I never been so carefree before... It's like i'm on a holidfay that only i am enjoying.... i have watched dragonball evolutions and later on i am going to watch race to the witch mountain by the rock, a wwe superstars that i admirer... WOW.... My mother is very understanding of what i am doing now and is very supporting of what i want to do next and that is to set goals and to achieve it....Goals that can be reached but it will need to takes discipline of me and determination to achieve it.. Of course the ultimate vision for the is to become more and more like Jesus.... Hahaha... Hmmm currently enjoying but suffering in the other hand and that is financial difficulties... Headaches.... About the lego case and also my hp bills that costs about $400+ (total after adding my commitments)... What i can do is to pray that financial blessings will come and i can settle it as soon as possible....

There is always a saying: If you serve God's house first and everything that you need will eventually be solved... So i will trust God for that and give my commitments amounts to Him first and trust that He will do the rest of clearing my debts and also to find a better job for my future... (My hearts is burdened... Is very very heavy now... Even though i know God is greater than my problems, but there are still some worries that keep on following me... Hopefully i can settle it as soon as possible... I don't know why is that that my heart is still so heavy..) I hate this feeling but still i will put my trust to God who can create miracles that i have never seen.... More amazing anointing will come to me as i do His will... I always Know that i do not have to worry once i pray... Let my heart be peace and not to be confused and rest assured that God will do a miracle to solve my problems... Lolx... Now i can be peaced after i type it all out... Lolx...

I want to create a business once my capital is there... Its very hard... Because i never know when the money will be coming.. Lolx.. it will be another sayings of "Do your best and Let God do the rest..." I love God.. Because it is because of Him that i am in this world, ALIVE till today... He let me know how to learn from others... And the importance of my pressence in this world... God made my pressence to be worthy to Him as a evanglist or whatever He wants me to be, ultimate I want to Thank Him that i can be born to this world that He created... So many abortions case and yet i am so "lucky" to get to this world... My mother had abort one of her child before marry to my father and i am a premature baby.... I am indeed very "lucky" to be alive until now actually... Because i have escaped 2 times of "death" and to be born in this world... It is definately all in God's will... Do you see the picture??? To my mother, it may be her "gods" that protect her, and i do have my Almighty God that always protecting me wherever i go and everywhere i am.. I have escaped the most crucial things in my life and i need to believe that God will help me to overcome the problems i have now... Everything is not concidence but a perfect planning that God has created for me to overcom and to be more and more like Him... I will learn to lean on God's love from now and enjoy everyday of my life to the day i die...

My blog is for me to reflect back when i grow older, you may comment everything as stupid, but as for me; this blog is very meaningflu as it is... Jesus loves you and so do I... :)

To Be Continued...

我的美（每）一天。

2009-03-12T00:02:00.000-07:00

天啊，我真的很开心。自从我离开CARREFOUR 后我的每一天都是很美都是很美。。。压力减少了　力减少了很多。我会从新出发，不要再回头了。每一天的我都在读些书，希望能在下一个地方拍上用场。人生真的是多样化，也有很多的变化。我爱我自己因为我可以让我的想法自由的发挥。我可以给自己许多空间去发挥自己的才华。。。哈哈哈。这些事实许多人无法放胆去做的。上帝交了我许多关于自爱的讯息。我爱耶稣因为耶稣让我知道自由是那么的愉快。上帝的爱与关怀是我的依靠。我会过得更快乐，因为我自由了！！

To Be Continued.....

My best decisions for now... To Resign Carrefour and to look forward for new challenges...

2009-03-10T02:55:00.000-07:00

Yippee!!! So long never got the time to blog due to busy in my working life.. And now i am free!!!! I wanna thank God for His peace to me when i made this important decision... WOW!!! I love the feeling of not working so hard and yet i cannot see the returns of praises in my life.... I can change the world in my very own ways... To have a very different thinking is the unique way that i have to be success..... Many people say that i am stupid to give up Carrefour but i feel that i never been so wise before.... I never regret of the decisions that i have made as i can truly sense the freedom when the moment i resigned and stepped out of carrefour.... Carrefour is a good place to learn but not a good place to work due to the unity of the staffs are not there... WOW!!! I have learned quite alot of things from Bernard Ng and really wanna thank him for his teachings... However the past is still yet over until the day they really release me of my last pay and i returned them the pass and uniforms.... I planned to give all o0f wht i get from them, the uniforms from the first batch till now... I have paid off 2 years to carrefour and i feel that that is enough already... I am so trapped at work and don't feel like dying because of there.... I know many of the fellow friends will ask me this: "why you wanna leave?" But my answer is that "I just want to leave." A sweet and short answer is the best answer that i want to express...

Once my passions to one thing dies, either it will be forever dead or it will be alive later... However to carrefour, i am assured that i will not go back unless better offers that can move my heart... I have prepared one list of "what to say to store director" in my wallet to defend myself when they try to find faults on me... I don't want to be dragged by carrefour as carrefour is a very messy place to be in.... Especially when mr sumir goes and aris came to take over bazzar... I don'e see live at bazaar attractive anymore.. CUZ THE DARKNESS (SKIN)/(RELIGIONS) HAS COVERED THE WHOLE BAZAAR.... LOLX... It will not affect the china staffs but definately will affect the singapore chinese in the team... SO it come to a saying to me and that is 36 ji zou wei shang ji... meaning leaving at this point of time is the best choice of my life... LOLX....

Once again i wanna thank God for His peace upon me and i know that He will provide for me the neccessaries basic needs for my life... Iwill take the time now before i get the next job to do all sorts of research to endure the coming challenges in my life in the future... Thankl you for reading my story and once again it will be continued next time i update la.. Hahaha...

To Be Continued...

I am sick now... Please don't disturb mi from rest...

2009-01-28T01:23:00.001-08:00

Going through ups and downs for around 4 months and so many things happened... Bads and Goods.... Hmm i don't wish to remember the cases so i will not blog it up... hmmm i feel like resting... i'm super tired and sick... How i wish to be sick once and for all... I am not going to do anything for today and tomorrow... just wanna relax my self and take life easy.... I am very very very tired of everything... time for mi to be sick and rest well... lolx... after my rest i believe that i will stand up strong again.. haha... nw i need to post my dreams for 2009 online.. lolx.. as when i accomplish it i will write in and so i can be more and more knowing of what's more i needed to do... Lolx... sian.. today yj put me areoplane... wanting to go for movie but he sleeping... ARHH.....hmm mw i dun feel like talking so much.. m really tired... happy chinese new year...

To Be Continued...

30/12/2008........ ENJOY MY FULL DAY!!....

2008-12-30T06:50:00.000-08:00

Wows..... Today is so cool!!! I never been so packed in my schedule before.. hahaha.... woke up at around 1130am, went out at 1230 pm... den give my mother $400... my pay is damn little only got $600+ only... lolx... left $200+... went to clear my debts.... Owe my aunty $50, Moe Htay i promose to give her $15 for a stupid mistake she did few days ago...... sand given to pei mei $30 for what i have owe jacqueline for the Taxi claimss.... buy a packet of durian cost $10 for my aunty and also a packet of rice for my aunty... my aunty given mi a blessing of $15, i went to take back my money $16 for the EMSU overcharged of my no pay leaves... so i gotten back $31 but i have spent more than that... I treat YJ eat $21for both, hmmm i bought a shirt and jeans for my cousin's wedding tml... $85, bought a small game for my niece as i have promised $4.... den return shuyi $12 for taxi claims.. nw overall i left with only $2o++ for the whole of next month... LOLX...... i wanna a debt free of 2008 so that my 2009 will be better... I believe God will forgives and forget of what i have not given and will look that i am working hard to lead a more fruitful life for 2009.... In 2009 i will have to train myself to plan sall my days... 1 day before so that i can do what i have planned...... I will train myself not to waste time as time is important.... i will try to plan as much things as i can accomplish for each day...

WOW!! changing to bazaar in 2 days time.. Its so cool!!! i can learn more things... my aim is to learn as much as i can and sooner i can really go and be an entreprenuer.. wahahahaha.... COOL!!!!! Hmmm thinking back of 2008, i have been very stupid, but due to this stupidness i know alot of frens.... I really wish to be happy always.... wahahahaha...... Its time for my to wake up my ideas and do things that i dream off.... wahahahaha... HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!

GOD BLESS!!!...

To Be Continued in 2009...........

Christmas....

2008-12-09T09:15:00.000-08:00

Wow... I am now waiting for Christmas..... Haha... Hmm i feel like i am in the high mood... haha...
Hmm recently i felt that i am very vert down even though i am so excited about christmas, bcuz go tso many things happen to my days working at carrefour... i have quitted one of the job offically on 2 dec 2008 and nw waiting for a pending transferring of dept to commercial line... haha... sunno y, i feel like the things will not be the same as before... I dunn wanna stay at one spot.. i wanna explore the world, explore the things that i am surrounded with...
Hmm i know bernard at carrefour just like ben.... LOL... but the stories are different becuz i feel that i will want bernard to be my true fren than a lover..... Me and him cannot be together as my true fren will only be fren... he will know most of my things.... HOWEVER, i dun feel like telling him so much as i feel that he dun really willing to be a fren of mine.. haha.... my requirements is high as nt many thinngs can be shared... Hmm certain ppl know certain things of my life but nt all... hahaha... cuz certain ppl woll nt wanna hear so much..... i feel like i am like a piece of shit la... lolx.... Hmm i recently really feel very suck up la... lol... dunn feel like blogging or keep in touch with frens all that alreadi...... wanting to work hard for money... lolx... it will be a cold and colder mi.. wahahha.... the one u dunno....

To Be Continued....

realisations of many things....

2008-11-24T23:51:00.000-08:00

Wow.. Quite long didn't update... Now, there are lots of things to update...
I've work in Emsu town council calling hotline for 2 months. It is a fun job but i don't like it... hahaha.. maybe i am too used to be at carrefour... Hmm call centre job is fun due to the carpark enforement.. I will have to deploy ppl to go summon cars which are illegal parking @ carparks.. lolx... cool... got one case is until whereby someone wanna catch the person who call the hotline to test the response officers; i have learn got 2 different ro, one is CEO,carpark enforcement officers and ro the one who response to the call of illegal parking calls from emsu.. LoLxx...
hahaha... just fall asleep and now wake up.. lolx... heng its before my uncle reach home.. lolx... hahaha...

Hmm i have so many feelings about my life.... Hahaha... But the first thing that i wanna do is to study... No matter what course, as long as it is a study that can enpowers me to achieve higher that is what i want.... Now i wanna to go back to God's love... I have realize that I have changed alot alot... Not just a little... Hmmm i will be transferring to Bazaar dept soon... Many surounding frens like shuyi and sharo asking is it because of Bernard??
To tell the truth: Not really, as i wanna aim higher than my current post and transferring can make me know more things that i wish to learn.... hahaha... Bernard suggest me to go his dept cuz he is very short-handed... You all shall see; with more power in carrefour is good as the higher authority you have, the more things you can accomplished.... Aim high is a positive mind; but with a revenge mind it will destroy all that you wanna achieve... God is a cool God...

Recently, I dunno why i am so excited of going to other dept.. I feel something is going to explode in my life.... A brand new chapter.... A brand new life is awaiting for me to explore beside putting down the past of all my errors... I have faith in myself... My life will not be the same anymore...
I wanna thank all the people who comes and goes in my life.... Every people is a lesson that i can learn from... Including YOU who reads my blog... haha.. never know why is that my blog is so long right??? lolx.. Its because i am emotional people.. I feel for alot of things and in these; i found something new to say and to update... I love to share, but am afraid to share it so openly.. lolx... i mean as i tell u personally la; so i blog..

This blog belongs to me and all my memories of life.. Thank you for spending time to know me.. Perhaps you may find something meaningful out of it when you are down?? you will never know right?? hahaa...
Spend time knowing a person who you wanna show concerns starting is to read their stories in their blogs... Thank you for concerning about me... God Bless You when you reads... Hope my life is not that boring to you.. Lolx... Take care.. Hope to c you again soon!!:)

To Be Continued...

Updates from last post....

2008-10-30T02:30:00.000-07:00

I am so confused of my life, i want to study and get a higher qualification for my life; but i dunno wat to do.... so sad... there are so so many things happening in my life... sad and also happy... i also dunno wat to say abt it... hmm my surroundings are filled with so many biased cases and i felt like shutting my ears of listening... I wanna get a saving plan but i wanns think of who to look to... hmm today i went to buy a dress which i wanted to buy so lo0ng ago.. haha... finally got it!!!! hmm i am waiting for nov14 as my uncle is going to plan a genting highland trip... i wanna go but i scare i not enough money... sad la... lolx... I want to be more and more cheerful.. i want my surrounding frens to know that they are able to trust me in my words.. i wanna to go so many places.. but all cannnot be fulfilled until i get a specific plan... Jesus; help mi!! hahaha... I feel that even i want God's help i need to change abit my character ba... i know that i am so stupid in certains ways such as keep on thinking abt ben or so... hahaha... sian... HAAAAAH..... SO FRUSTRATED AND ANGRY... SIAN HAAHH.... i believe i can be changed soon after i forget ppl or replace some other one into my hearts so that i can be more happy and contented in my heart... i believe i will turn back Jesus soon after i forget one whom i really can't forget right now... Jesus God; please give mi some more time... help mi even i am not worthy... Jesus I thank u for the knowledge and wisdom that u blessed mi that other might not have.. Thank You Lord for everything.. I will love You forever.. i know even times i may fail You but You will never give up on me as You are a God Who LOVES... Thank You for Your grace and mercy Jesus...

To Be Continued...

new life...... confused and unstable..

2008-10-10T06:49:00.001-07:00

Recently i am so busy, i almost forget the connections that i have. Hmm i seem like become more and more closed up to the world that is open. I feel that i am always quitting as i don't have a strong determination. If my determination is strong and firm, I believe i will be a better person. Hmmm it seems like even to update this blog is a hard chore for me. Hmm i wish i can accomplish something great as i believe my life is at another chapter of life. This year, i celebrate my birthday w/o a birthday cake. haha.. I feel its quite pathetic and sad. haha.. However i am glad that this year i got a lot of frens wishing me. Wow, i feel that Jesus is a great God as the cg N139 ppl still can remember my birthday and giving me a present. It shows that God has not forget my birthday. Haha.. Hmm i will not forget God; however i am really cramp with works and excuses not to attend church and cgm. I feel like i am going more and more further away from God. I have done lots of errors and wish to cut that down, however it seems so difficult.. I'm stuck in so many thoughts that are negative in certain ways. Today i am so glad that i am able to update my life... All this while i blog is for my own purpose... All my friends are welcome to read, however the main purpose is for me to read in the near future to see how my life goes about.... I have work in 2 locations now, EM service and Carrefour.. Somehow i feel that i am not suitable @ EM services as the job is good but its always sitting down. I am a very plump already, if i keep on working there, i am so scare that i will be fatter and fatter. NO WAY!! haha.... Today is quite a good day as there are only a few calls and i am able to learn on my own. Everytime when there are new challenges i will feel so emo as the fear is there. Hm recently i don't know why, there is a fear of death. I dreamt of so many weird dreams as all are so connected to my life and surrounding friends. Haha.. I feel so sad of my life... Anyone can help?? Sobx... I feel that now is the time to train my focus and determination. i feel so irritated by myself.. I want to achieve high but i don't know why i am so "low" right now. I want to find a course and study asap so that i believe that another chapter coming in next year will be better.. hahahaha... I feel so sian in so many things... I feel that in certain ways i am so helpless and useless... Somethings in life are fated, but i believe that miracle will happens and i am waiting for mine to be comingsoon.. I hope that next time i blog it will be a stable life and exciting moments... I will need to train my patience from now on... hahaha... and also my determinations and also focus... Lastly of my blog today is that i wanna thank my God for everything that is happening in my life from the past to now... Good and improvements that i can see in myself from the first day i know Him in my secondary life... Thank You Lord for Your grace and mercy, and Your kindness shown into my life, Your Love that never ends brings me to a better life.. I will come back to You as soon as I come to my senses bah.. Now i am still not waken up fully as You know... I believe that there will be a day whereby i am transformed to a person that You want me to be.. Thank You Lord of my life...

To Be Continued.....

Changing point of view.... Korea trip...

2008-09-08T01:40:00.000-07:00

I'm back now after my korea trip... From the 31 aug to 5 sep 2008... This year there are more things happen in my life... From the beginning of the year to now... the ups and downs of my life is a challenging moments of my life... My emotion is so messy and now i feel that it is quite peace at this time... Everything went peace after my korea trip... haha... Wow... Such a wonderful moments that make mi changes my point of view of my own life... The beautiful sceneries of korea gave me want to make more trips to more countries... I want to go to Bangkok, China, Taiwan, Hong Kong........... and etcs.... I want to be more clear minded of what i want now.. EVerything cannot be a promise as i am not that perfect and i have a weak determination... I wanna learn how to be strong in determination first before i can accomplish big things... how i wish that i can be more and more better person...

The Korea trip is not really fun because i dun like to take picture as a group.. hahaha.... I prefer the theme parks and shoppings.. Hmm i didn't play much... so sad... only 2 games only i played... hmm i will visit Korea again in the near future.. haahaa... Hmm after the Korea trip my mind is empty.. Means that i didn't think so much about relationships or troubles at carrefour... So relax.... I want to learn new things... i am so tired of everything le... Haiz... i wanna change new environments and new boss le sia.. Lolx... Hmm i want to work hard for my next trip... Its better for me to go with someone more fun sia.. Not many picx but lots of games and fun... Cuz i am a person who like excitements.. hahaa... Hope that next time i blog it will be more better changes...

To Be Continued...

Wow.... Going to fly away soon...

2008-08-26T07:17:00.000-07:00

Today is the countdown of my trip to korea... 5 more day to fly... haha.. so excited... lolx.. hmm i never been to any other country beside malaysia and of course singapore la.. haha... hmm i dunno y...... i feel like my life will be changed after the trip... lolx.... haha.... maybe i will be changed to a more happier person??? Hee... BUT....... Nw i dunno y... i keep on missing someone... ARGHH.... Super EMO sia.... Stop it!!!!! So sian.... I feel that i am going down to a stupid EMO thing again... to a same person... AGAIN?????!!!!! I am like a fool who dunno hw to let go.... Anyone Help??!!!!

I wanna throw aside my EMO and go for holiday liao... Hope i can do it sia... Lolx... Thank God for His mercy and Grace... I wanna fly away... Hope never come back sia... Lolx.. I will update my blog once i come back.... May got changes bah.. Hee... C ya soon....

To Be Continued

Latest Things Happening....

2008-08-19T04:17:00.000-07:00

Wow... So soon i blog.. hahaha... Hmm recently i was damn angry with mei tian... She is so childish and cannot understand how other people is thinking... Unresonable and so.......... Haiz... Since she become supervisor she is very ya ya papaya... Like a super women... interrupt manager's things and everything else... i become more and more serious in my everything... That good.. However i feel that my power of supervisor is reducing and reducing day by day... So.... Lolx... But it is good la, so that i can be more relax and dun do so many things at a time.. But so many times i feel so irritated that so many new supervisor dunno info counter... always me at info to relieve for breaks and every now and then i feel like i m a dog sia.. lolx... But maybe is because i am ez going la... hmm i wish that i can save more money.. wow, today 19/8/08 i met regina at civil center... she is from manulife, a insurance or i can say a financial planner.. she is good as i feel that she is a very sweet gal.. i treat her a drink and she is happy.. haha.. perhaps she seldom met a customer who will treat her first time meeting her as a stranger ba... haha... i wanna be generous, and i wana learn to love all people as i have loved myself.. (if i dun love myself den i will not know how to love others) haha..

I wanna thank Jesus Christ as He is the one who Taught me how to love myself and others... Imaybe ez bullied but i can be as strong like a rock as i learn how to be more stronger as i am now.... however, i am not as firm as a tree.. Its so hard to learn new things, but i am willing to give my effort to learn more new things as i gotta be more knowledgeable to be successful in life... To be in good health to get Great Wealth... Hmmm No matter what i am now, i will be changed to be a better person, to be more and more like Christ... I will learn.... I will do... I am now emo balanced person.... No more liking of anyone and crush on anyone as i now wanna work to my goal in my life... The rest will be the later of my life...

All the setbacks i will rise up above and overcome it... I've overcomed some of it, and am trying and keep on doing of overcoming the "wars" of my life especially in my thinking and in emtional areas... U will c a brand new me, a more successful me in the very near future... Trust me... I can surely do it... Jesus is my Life Changing Point.. I am now sliding back to His love and slowly changed to be a brand new me... no one can stop me if i set my heart and will there... I will learn to be Firm and more stronger den now... Thanks to all people who give me guidance in my life.. Like Poh Wan, Dawn, Bazaar Ben (i dunno whats my feelings towards him now..), Shuyi, Sharo, My mother, and all my relatives and friends... Last of most important of all is Jesus Christ... His Words are my source of strength.. Thank you all... Muackz....

To Be Continued

Lolx.... Mc for 3days...

2008-07-30T00:24:00.000-07:00

Walau... I am sick for a total of 6 days sia... Didnt't really enjoy my off days... I fri off, sat MC sun off.. Mon off.. Tue and today, wed MCs.... total 6 days wor... lolxxx.... But shuyi is for better.. 12 days in total of MC.... Lolx.... I am still in "holiday mood".. But so sad.. tomorrow i need to go back to work liao.... I wana resign for sure... But dunno why i she bu de... Maybe its becuz i've use to it le ba.. lolxx... i wanna work somewhere else but not too sure where i acn get a better job sia... i think i wanna try to interview at 7-11.. lolx... cuz i dun like to work on days.. but i prefer night shift.... Lolx... Hmm but i also dunno what i want in my life now... I feel that i need God back.. But i dunno how to go back to God... Maybe i am too worldly le ba... Hmmm but in deepest of my heart, i know and i know that i need God... I need a someone who can bring mi back to God... My haert is willing but my dlesh is weak.... I feel that I am lonely... I feel that if i go back i am afriad that i will fail God again and backslide again... But in the Bible said it so ever clearly that God is forever forgiving until the Last Day when Jesus come back to judge the living and the dead... Haiz... I feel so bad and no mood sia... Very emo... lolx... Hmmm and also i dunno why i still got some "like" feeling towards the bazaar Ben... I dun wanna like him already and i believe that i am able to forget him... haha... its easier to be said than to be done ba... Lols... But i believe that "There's a will, There's a way"... Lolxxx.. So lao gu ban rite??? But i will never give up hope on God as Jesus had died for me so that i am worthy to deserve His mercy and Grace... I believe that ALL my sin and shame He will take it all away... Because Jesus is Lover of my soul... I want to turn back and run to God again and dun wanna to fall back but it takes a great courage to do that as it is very hard... I dunno where is my friends of support... I need to find that someone who love God and is willing to help mi to get back to the right track to run to God's love again... Please.. Someone out there... Come and help mi to get the passion back again to love God and finish the race of life... I can't do it alone....... thank you so much if u can help mi with it...

To Be Continued......

Changes taking place in my Life....

2008-07-27T06:41:00.001-07:00

hahaha... Long time i didn't blog already.... Seems like i've forgotten of how to blog....
I have decided not to like Ben already because i feel like i m only one sided liking him... So stupid sia.... Lolx.... Hmm now my life is a brand new starts already... I wanted to go back to church... But always that is a feel that "I don't feel like going" appears in my life... Hmmm no longer that passionate towards God is in me... Maybe i will go back maybe it will takes a while.... Hahaha....
I have found out who is that Durian Ben already... That Ben also is one of my "darling"... lols....
Recently i have conflict with Bazaar Ben over a $40 refund... So sad... And i am jealous as i feel that B Ben got someone in mind le... i always sms him but he always don't reply.... SAD SIA... I want to STOP LIKE BEN(S) in my life le.. LOLX....
Recently i went kbox with YJ..... He can really sing... WOW!!!! I think i should fall back to him... LOLx... Cuz I feel that he can help me to turn back to God and to follow God.. Also Dunno why lei.. Lolx.... To Dawn and ppl who like to know about my life: I have finaaly updated my blog le... Next time will not know when i will have the time for it already!!! hahaha...
I will resign Carrefour soon.... Once i get what i deserve for the food poison case, i will leave at once and dun wish to turn back... I want to learn to lean on God again.... I want to find a CellGroup that i will grow... More passion to God.... I want God Back and i am willing to sacrifise my time and life for Him.... I want to love Him again!!! Jesus Christ I want YOU!! heehee... I will fight back to the devil!! More stronger then ever.... Just wait and see bah!!! Hahaha....

To Be Continued....

Super Emo... Haiz..

2008-06-11T10:30:00.000-07:00

Lolx... I had found Govin Rag in friendster!! wow!! Cool... He is that very guy whom i like for 2 times... I like him when i was in primary 2 and also i like him when i was pri 6.. Hahaha... I've cried just now.. due to too emo liao.. Hahaha... Long time don't have this kind of feelings le... hahaha... Thankx to ben.. my sad feelings come out le... I don't want that man... i want to be happy go lucky as before... No worries... No fear.... Hahaha... Now seems that there is something stopped mi from being myself.. Hmm No way!!! I need to tell myself continuously that i must be strong... I NEED to be Strong!!! I got to be happy and to light up the world... Change the suroundings of me to become happy and joyful.. I got the gift of joy... I love it... Hmm i got to get back my Godly life like before and everything will be alright le.. hahaha... I will keep on doing the things that are right and try my best to go back to cell group and to God... The One who really loves me without failing... I want to get water baptism.. I want to get married soon.. hahaha.. Before 25yr old.. Lols... I don't want to be an old mother.... hahaha... But Not Now that i'm going to marry.. hahaha... I don't want to have baby before i get married...Hmm my life got to be up, not down!! I M NOT GOING TO LIKE THE ONE WHO I LIKE NOW... I don't want to love and contribute the most.. I wanna to be loved... I wanna the love of God back again... But i dun feel that i am worthy to be loved as i have sinned... God, I am sorry; i want Your love again, will You loved me as before?? I always know what God will say to me, but i still have the low of confidence to believe... How??? I'm sad....

To Be Continued...

Wow... So Long Ever since i blogged....

2008-06-11T06:59:00.001-07:00

Hmmm i have been losing weight.. wow.... Cool.... lolx.... Because Carrefour is a place whereby can lose weight sia.... lolx.... So good right??? Anyone wanna join in??? Got pay plus free slimming down session... Hahahaha... LolX.... Recently, i fall for a guy name Ben at carrefour... I dun wan to like him sia... In anyway i dunno y i like him so much... i was like crazy about him already... siao sia.... Lolx... i am so sad when he now starts to ignore mi... Will he becaome the next xavier??? well, i believe 95% will be so.. I think its because i don't have the confidence to win his heart bah... because i have being low in confidence of retaining ppl as my friends... i m good to be a friend, no a good girlfriend ba... cause i will jealous very easily.... i like ben so much.. i love him so deep... how i wish he will reply yes, i like u too to my cruel message( i think it is cruel) to him... how i wish i can be by his side now to listen to his heartfelt stories and more... I wanna to know him more... i don't care what he will treat me... But i am in love with him for now... Hmm even though in fact i don't think he is really that good or what.. Hahaha... I think i am blind to like him, but dunno y, the feeling comes in so strongly to my heart and i can't resist it anymore... I am crazy about him le... I am so in love with him... I can't help but to like him... I want my feeling to stop right away and so i can work as per normal again.. If not i want him to like mi back and to be together with me to the end of my life... My heart got no more Yoong Jian already, now all my feelings is towards Ben, the one who is normal at looks but i feel that he is kind at heart... He is very gentleman... I like him until i cannot take it anymore le... I'm crazy about him le... I dunno what can i do.. Hmm i think i need a period to cool down and so to calm my feelings and so to be back like before already.... I know i can do what already, and that is to find a boyfriend and forget him.. I believe i can do it man... Jia You To Me!!! hahaha...

To Be Continued...

Wow... So long never post a single stuffs of my life...

2008-04-17T04:41:00.000-07:00

Wow... Its has being a long time ever since i post... Thes few months i had done lots of lots of changes in my life.. I had quitted school and now a full timer in my currrent company, carrefour ps, and with a promotion chance... wow!! Incredible sia... Yesterday, 16 april 2008, i've been to mei tian's hse to stay for a night and due to so personnal things i've gtg back today... haiz... so sian sia... Lolz.. Mum's nagging coming up... hahaha... Hmm Recently i got into a very bad habit, and that habit i wanted to leave it forever... Hmm i wil train myself from now onwards.. Hmm and another thing is that I'm going to information 1 soon!!! SO FUN.. WAHAHAHA.... Everything to me is a new starts.... good sia... Hmm how i wsh to become an info girl to gain experience and also to go to supervisor sia.. wahahaha.... hmm sooner or later can go le... now will need to plan for my great future.. wooooooo.... Hmm i wanna to be a singer sia.. lolx... hmm got to plan nw le.. lolx... like yj, he is planning to join superstar this year.. but for me, i feel that i will not want to join competition sia.. lolx.. siao... wanna be a star but not joining competition, how can it be?? But as i believe, there can be miracle happening if i really want.. lolx.. thank God for all that... I wanna thank Jesus for all my changes but i wanna change to be a better daughter of Heavenly God... Hmm everything is starting to turn.. not too sure is for the better or the best.. surely everything happen for the good costs.. Hmm tml, 18april will be my day for the evg concert or my cg, but i nt sure which to choose, i specially choose that day off is plainly for that evg stuffs, but nw dunno wat to do le, maybe i should go the way i plan.... haha... to evg concert... hmm i've not been cgm for a very long time.. i hope that my friends will not forget about me... Haha.. But its alright cuz i know that i will not be forgotten by my God... Hmm I will be a better me next time i post... I promised and that time will not be forever as i believe that i can achieve my dreams... i will be slim soon and also that i will become sucess in everything i do.. Hee... changes will come as long i got the heart to change and also the mindset of becoming better me.. So tatke care everyone!!! c ya soon!! :)

To Be Continued.....

Jesus... Help!!!

2008-03-09T10:42:00.000-07:00

Dear Jesus, u know my sufferings right now... HELP!!!!!!!!

Do i love myself??? Yes and loving it too much until i listen to myself, and i lack of discipline and torture right now... That is not true love to myself.... That is giving myself to hate myself in the end... Now i don't like myself as i have a bad outlook... I always feels that being fat is not a sin, but it will turn negative to myself as fatness will cause alot of health problems... God.. I need ur love to love myself.... We will be tended to love money, but money is not everything as the money will get to no where after u die... So many thongs i've heard, but i'm in a confused right now.. Hm i think i got to live it right by reading the word of God... I got to change... Hahaha... How i wish to love Yj again, But i thionk he dun like me... Hahaha... I'm so sad right nw.. I dunno what to do right nw... therefore i need the help of Jesus... It os my choice of doing certain things but i really need to be more and more like Jesus... When there is a died, there will be a ressurection... By Ulf Ekman... Jesus is full of love, compassion and mercy.... The world love a LOVER...

Turn away from money, from the world, away from self and pleasure... we can go back to love God.... There is a satisfaction in love... Be Contented with God's Love...

God Kisses u back as u kisses Him... There will be a love in touch with u and God...

Jesus Loves U and i loves u too!!!

To Be Continued....

my Life....

2008-03-08T20:33:00.000-08:00

My Life is quite a mess now... I've quitted my school and nw in a job which is not really stable job... I wanna work first den study around in 2009... maybe finding a different course to study... I dunno y i have a sudden to study nursing course but i scared i will give up half way like nw... i got to pray for an answer to my life's calling... I know i'm called, but to what area m i called??? i wanna buy many nice clothes to present myself well... but first i got to do reponding.... hahahha.... what is the hell am i doing??? What am i here for?? I cannot find a thing that i can fully concentrate.... Jesus... Can help mi ???!!!! I'm lost.... Hahhaa... Alot of ppl asked, why quit?? But its because i wanna find sth more challenging to do... Hmm I wanna to go to Bible school... $1500.. I wanna save within 6 to 8 month... I MUST SAVE MONEY!!!!! I need to budget my own allowances... hahaha.... i wanna rest for a while before start to fight... I'm injured right nw.. got to rest... I'll need to pray more and more.. the more i'm lost the more i'll need to pray.... I feel that the life is more and more stress.... JESUS!!!! I wanna shout out in loud.. with all my strength... HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank God for all His blessings.... I wanna a exciting life with a extraordinary experiences.... Jesus is the way, the truth, the light...

To Be Continued...

I'm changed... quite bad... 06/02/2008

2008-02-06T07:07:00.000-08:00

I've changed to quite different person cuz in a lot of things i've become worst... i also dunno how to turn... Hmmm I believe i can change to a better person if i have more focus n aims... I hope God will forgive me for all the errors... I need more time!!! I need a person who can love me and be with me in this life asap... And i want to get marry at the age of 23... Hahaha... Quite impossible, but nothing is impossible with God.. I really need a friend who will really help mi to change... hmmm maybe i need to get bf soon... haha... dunno whether the time right or not also... hmm i really dunno how to love myself... i need ppl to guide me.. I am a stubborn person... I dunno what to say.... Hmm I m a person who wants to overcome or u can say overtake everyone but its not possible cuz i can be jack of everything but i cannot be master of all things... only focus can allow me to do it.. but i m person who is lack of focus and determination... I dunno why on this chinese new year eve night i wanna cry... I dunno why i feel so sad... I really wanna a great positive change in my life... Jesus ... can u help me??? I seldom pray to u is my wrong, but can You help??? I really wanna to cry.... i really dunno why... Help!!!!!!!!! Anyone there who is my angel can help??? Send me some light to let me c where am i and what move should i make now???? I need a physically person... I know bible can help but i dun like to read and i love to talk... i need ppl to talk to me and tell me in a soft way.... Jesus!! Help!!

To be Continued...

What a bad day!!!

2008-01-21T01:52:00.000-08:00

Today as i go to school as per normal... i did wat i was doing before and that is slp during lesson... Today got 2 idiots make my days so bad and i am angry........ My eyes is filled with evil feelings and i wish to kill them!!!! hahahaha... Chucky's character is on me.. So Scary!!!

Hmm i dun like Bala.... He is a KPO... Those who know him sure cannot stand his KPO... hahaha... Hmm how i hope i can faster finish the yr and graduate frm it sia.... I'M SO SIAN of doing homeworks and study... I wanna faster graduate and go work.... I want the cert thats y i still holding on to the studies... If not i'll go and find a full time job...

Hahaha... I wanna learn psychology.... But its quite hard as i cannot psycho myself how i can psycho others??? Lolz....

Got to train myself to more better person.... Lolz..... hahahaha....

I got to have more determination le... ON MY WAY UP!!!!! YAHOO!! :)

I got things to settle.. so will update my life soon... take care everyone!!

To Be Continued....

Wow... What a Cool day!!! 17/01/2008

2008-01-16T23:37:00.000-08:00

Today i was the same, go to scool as per normal.. a bit late.. hahaha... Hmm for mi i'm always sleep in class and always like to rush in the last few days la... Today got an interesting day... My form teacher is teaching us accounting and i always dun like to listen cuz she teach in a very boring manner.... Hahahaha.... but like still go on... Hmm Today she picking on me cuz she thought that i'm like a stupid if i dun listen in her class... BUT I AM ABLE TO ANSWER ALL HER QUESTIONS... So SONG AR!!!! Hahahaha.... I never being so happy in class before sia... LOLzzz.....

I have changed group of frens... From a group of 10 people to 2 persons, that is me and cherlyn... She is very forgiving and i like her alot... People keep asking mi to beware but i think she can be trusted in my name list... Anyway my life changes once i go up to another level of life... Wow.. yesterday i got work but i didn't go... hahaha... But i've gotten $50 from my aunt... So good!! No work also can get $$$... Hahaha.. But its only sometimes i'll get la... Hmmm However, i am trying to SAVE $1000 in 6 month.. But i dunno when will be the 1st month of my saving plans.... Haiz... Got to starts really soon man!! Time is rushing and speeding ahead of me... I got to chase them back lo... Wah... Tomorrow friday liao.. So fast man... hahaha... Flying time sia...

Hmmm i dun wanna waste my time le... Got to have an action plan and start fast... Hehehehe.... I hope God will forgive me cuz i long time no pray le... Hmm I will come back quick... Cuz now i've too much of distractions... I got to find a FOCUS to focus on and to achieve great success in it... hahaha.. Hmm got to go work for today le... Take care everyone... Those who reads my blog de ren.. hahaha... God bless and have a great day ahead!! :)

To Be Continued....

A brand new year, A brand new starts

2008-01-16T01:33:00.000-08:00

Wow.. 2007 just passed juat like that... whereby i haven't really enjoy my year 2007... Haiz.. I dun wanna spoil my own mood bcuz i got into BGR stuffs.. i broke off 2 times during the december and jan respectively... Hmm december that one i broke up bcuz he got alot of problems and is really not stable in the area of financial.. Hmm the 2nd one is the guy who broke up with mi.. Wow, a very sad experience man... Lucky i like him not that deeply.. But i really like him from my heart.... Haa.. I feeling so down for 3 to 4 days and recovered as life's still goes on without him.... Hmm i just now visit friendster and saw his pic and it reflects my days with him.. he is so handsome!! I LOVE HIM... I am sadden by his doings.. i wish to stay longer, but to him, he got no feelings towards mi already... hahaa.. now it is in the past le.. what i need to do is to forget and treat him as fren again...

hmm my life is still without a specific goal.. i hope i will plan out a goal so that i can achieve wat i really looking out for... Hmm wow, on 1 jan, i spend with my uncle auntie, cousins and also someone so special.. that person is YJ,, Cool.. He is the one whom i admired for 3 and 1/2 years... hahaha.. Hmm i can sense that he is changed in many ways... he become more talkative than before and he actually smses mi!! cool!! haha.. never had this smses before sia... haha..

Wow.. it's been long since the last update, but i will try to update once i'm free.. So takecare and have a blessed day!!:)

To Be Continued...

Bad Day

2007-11-05T04:59:00.000-08:00

Today is a very bad day due a bad ride to school.. I took a cab down from woodlands and the cost is 18.40... So ex!!!!!!!! I normally take cab to school only need $12+... Really kanasai... What the hell... hmm overall today is spoiled due to morning lor.. Bad day.. I hope tomorrow will be a good day sia.. lolX... :) Hmm my life is more lively as i go back to work at carrefour le.. haha... hmm got $$$$ le.. Arise and Build is here.. I believe I will fulfill it with Faith... I want invite my frens to church starting from now.. haha.... Cool right??? Hmm even though I'm now in adult cell group, but i like the cell group yvonne very much.. haha... Cool... Hmm i'm going to change myself in the way i look and think... haha..

Jia You for myself!!:)

To Be Continued....

Holidays' Time...

2007-09-12T07:27:00.000-07:00

Yoz... Its my time now.. holidaying... with a lot of free time to slack.. haha... Hmmm I am finding things to occupy my holiday beside a very good rest... Hmm i had been wanting holidays and a truely enjoyable ones cuz last time the holidays are ruin by alot of works.. now i plan for NO WORK and PLAYING throughout.. wahahaha... Cool sia like that... Holiday Holiday I LOVE YOU!!! wahaha...

Birthday is coming, so sian.. haha.. din get wat i really wish... hmm but its ok.. there will be a better tml!! WAHAHA... :) Positive is the key to open up the way to all things... so i muz be more positive and be of good courage...

To be Continued...

Extremely good testimony for me... Great encounter with God and know how great is His doings

2007-09-09T02:01:00.000-07:00

Today, i went to church for service, as usually, i take 858 bus to changi airport and transfer to city train to Expo... Hmm I was in quite a bad mood as my handphone gives me a lot of problems... Hmm during Praise, I was as per usual, a very hyper-active me, dancing and singing to praise God... During Worship, I din't close my eyes in the beginning, but as when i slow down and began to lift my arms and close my eyes, i felt the tangible touch of God towards me... I broke into tears and weep excessedingly in a sorrow spirit, as if that i am in a lost in somewhere and i found some helps for it.... Hmm i was hurt that moment which i dun really noe why... Hmm in the first song, i din't weep that much, but as it proceed to the 2nd song, i weep alot... Cuz that song is the song when i first come back from my first backslided song... Such a wonderful song that touch me again and again....

Today's preacher is very amazingly great, his name is nick and he is without limbs... His story changes my thinking in many many ways... He was borned without bith arms and legs, and his childhood is quite terror... Hmm Through God's grace, He survived and is sharing his stories with us as a brother of Christ... He taught how God's goodness can be so real and his courage really touches my life.... Through his time of sharing, at moments, i nearly drop my tears... A tear NOT with sympathy BUT OF TRUE GENUINE TOUCHES AND LOVE OF GOD...

I am quite in a mess and that message touches me and encourages me to be strong in faith of God as God is always good.... Hmm his teachings give me boldness reminds us that we as a human can't accomplish things without God's strength and Love... There is no true Love besides God's genuine LOVE..... I believe that Nick is really being loves by God as he can do all thing Thru Christ who strengthens him who is disabled.... Nick can Swim, play and do a lot things that he wants, even ride a horse!!! Wow.. It's amazing isn't it???

He is strong and determined to live without limbs, what about us?? He got a goal and always achieved it, what about us??? Shouldn't we, the ones who have what Nick dun have be of great couraged in the walk with God???? Nick is a great story and i believe that all of us that are in God can be great too!!! Dun u think so???

To Be Continued...

Haiz... Dunno why i still can't get over it???

2007-09-09T01:46:00.001-07:00

Hm.... I think I am too "devoted" to call some ppl already, until i can't get over it... Hmm Recently i know that he is very bz, but then he can reply sms de right?? Dun tell mi that even reply sms also no time?? Walau... Hmm actually if let say u dun wan a person to disturb u for a short period of time, pls tell them when to when la... dun let ppl guessing wat u are doing.... Hmm i am quite particulars that ppl dun reply a sms lo... Even though u r bz, juz a casual sayings that :" Hey, I'm bz and will bz for a short period of time, and after that indicate that time period;" so that i can dun waste sms to a person who will never reply....

I am also got my weakness that somethings i can't get over with..... Hmm I am a person who wants ur responds for all things that i've said or asked.... I dunno why, butu I am like that.. At the moment still can't change... Hmm I dun wan ppl to ignore mi and without telling a true reson why....

Pls lah... Anyone out there also wan a respond so that they can know that they are being taken care of right??? Hm I like to reapond in a weird manner sometimes BUT AT LEAST I GOT REASPOND LOH!!!!!!

Sometimes it makes me so angry until I am feeling that that particular person who din't responds hurts my feeling.... Haiz... Sian lah... Sometimes all i wan is ppl notice me in a well manner.... Haha.. AM I ASKING TOO MUCH??? I really dunno..Anyone out there could give me an answer???

To Be Continued....

Haiz... Dunno why i still can't get over it

2007-09-09T01:46:00.000-07:00

Haiz...Sick recently...

2007-09-07T02:37:00.000-07:00

Recantly i'm sick in the body... Hahaha... Hmm Its good that SH is bz with the work.. Hmm den i can control the outgoing calls of my house telephone.. I'm having flu and sore throat.. haha... maybe is because i din call ppl to talk so much recently... hahaha... when i m on phone, i felt that i m lesser to be sick.. haha.. dunno y... hmm anyone there can entertain mi by listening to my grandmother stories??? hahaa.... So Sad... Hmm if got many that particular person i mention above out there will be the best man den i can talk until the cows dun wanna go home sia.. LOLX........ Hmm I got runny nose, a bit cough and sore throat... wahahaaha.. lolx... Sometimes i thought that i m siao already..... But its cool.. Cuz like that i can help my mother to save house telephone bills...

Hmm it is good also because i can dun need to stuck to that particular person SH for so long... Wahahaha... i m feeling "normal" already... Hmm i m sick maybe because that day jog with SH and talk on the phone or wat... hahaha.... lolx... cuz laugh too much liao (maybe)....

I love to joke around and make ppl laugh cuz thats a source to release ppls' stress ma... I and my younger brother r simliar as we are a joker ard.. with us, there will be alot of jokes... Wahahaha....

Sian arh!!!!!!!!! Weekend ler, SH still so bz, dunnoe y he so bz whereby usually he is too loaded with time to slp and slack... wahahaa... Hmm i m like bored for a whole week... Without ppl talking to mi is a torture man!!!! Sian arh... Lolz...

Hmm i shall stop here, cuz its too sian already.. takcare everyone who passes by!!
Love ya all in the name of Jesus...

To Be Countinued....

Counting Down to HOLIDAYS!!!1

2007-09-04T19:17:00.000-07:00

Hipp Hipp Horray!! Holidys coming soon!!! Counting Down to 6 Days to Holiday!! i wanna play throughout man!!

Coool..... I'm wanna it to come ASAP man.... Wahaha.... Den i goin to enjoy my best!! hmm my plan is on 12 Sep I'm goin out with kimyen and fiona...

13 Sep MAYBE going out with carrefour cashiers...

And 14 Sep going out be4 go cell group... Cool!! Saturaday will go to church?? hmm going to to enjoy with the fullest.... Hm i will find one day to go church, maybe on Sat or Sun... I'm not too sure... But i'm goin to enjoy it man!!! Cool.... Cuz i can relax 4 the 1 full months of holiday!! lolx.... I'm goin to love it man!!! So wat r u goin to do during ur holiday?? lolx....

Yeah!!! Hm after that Holiday i'm goin to STUDY VERY HARD!!! :) Study hard for alot of things!! Cool!!!!! My life is going to have a cool adventure!!! Anyone there wanna join mi??? wahaha.. I doubt so... Cuz i jus wanna ENJOY MYSELF.... lolx....

Saddies stuffs...

2007-08-20T18:44:00.000-07:00

Haiz... Dunno why recently get emo again... Feeling that frens around mi taking mi for granted... haha... Maybe I'm too kind??? hahaha... Jus kidding... Haiz... Dun bother to read this msg ba.. cuz it's my emo... i can soon overcome... Cuz i've emo and up for so many times le.... I need to live for a better future...

Hmm i dun like to be in a group actually, but in the Bible says that i got to be UNITED as ONE BODY OF CHRIST... So eventually there is no Lone Ranger in the Body Of Christ... Haha.. that's means that i got to be changed so that i can unite as one too...

I dun like to trust people, cuz sometimes they broke it, that's why i may learn that bad manners... Wahahaha.... Hmm cuz i am right nw in somehow confuse that's y i'm always so EMO.... I will feel better soon... hahaha.. :)

To S---- H--:

you dunno me well enough, yes, i'm also sadden by u... But i dun blame u... Cuz i know that u won't be able to know mi so well until like i'm u like that la... Hmm pardon me if i'm cold... Anyway u also quite cold towards ur surrounding frens... Haha... Only those who u would like to know more den u will be passionate towards them ba... haha... i'm stupid that i'm still like u... So now i gonna change my mind... I'm training myself to be more determine to : NOT TO LIKE U LE.... haha... I dun think that matters to u as I am jus a fren to u and u won't easily get into heart of whether i like u or not right??? hahaha... I know it cuz ur character is very passive... I dunno y i've been sadden by u.. By right i should not.. u are jus a fren to mi anyway... hahaha.... But just take care and have a blessed day... Hmm maybe i'll be another me When u saw this blog.. BUT NOW I M SOME HOW SADDEN BY U... But i'll try to cover it, ever though i know i should not... However, i'll still call u due to i'm still stuck on you... Until the day i have overcome the stuck of u, i'll be still stuck on u... And i know u won't be bothered how i feel as u know that i've liked u long time ago.. So, i know u will still answer the calls.. If not just tell mi to stop talking to u... So before that i'll still call u.. Hmm and i'll not talk to u when i noe that u are playing ur games, Cuz u need to concentrate on the things that u do... Also be reminded, alot of people wnt tell things so direct to u even as for mi, i choose to write in my blog.. it's up to u whether u will read or not... Take care... 21/08/2007....

I can change myself and hide my life under somewhere u dunno where... And NOBODY likes to be HURT or being TAKEN FOR GRANTED... Dun u think so?????

To Be Continued.......

Cool Experience

2007-08-13T20:01:00.000-07:00

Yo... Everyone... How us ur day??? Hahaha... For me, I really on my way to a much more better and cool life.... Hmm I got alot of encounter of God's blessings and His very own presence... I remember once when i'm angry and scolding my friend of what's wrong with him,... After that moment, i am still chatting with Kimyen... Hmm she saw sth white and large like a bird, while immediate after that there was a strong light flash and it was so bright until there is a moment where i was blinded with darkness after that b4 it turns to the normal mode.... WOW... Cool mam... and it hit another time when i reached my house downstairs.... Hmm throu the months, i really am in the wonderful love of God as He is always blessing me with His wisdom... Actually i've learned that alot of things that we think eith it a postive or negative it really does matters.... Because if we can always see the positive side of one's kindness with harsh, we can really experience the love of that particular person is trying to show but in his/her very own ways....

Haha.... Once i had an interesting conversation with a Christian from another church, she is quite nice when approach me.. Here comes an interesting qn she asked... "If you were given a Question to ask God, What would that be??" I hesitate for a moment and really think deep.... Hmm Actually i thought of alot of possible questions, but one of the most interesting Question hits me and that is, " How old is God?" Haha.. An answer that most of the people won't asked as they might jus say God's age is Can't be measure... Hm yes that is quite true as God is the Alpha and the Omega, The First And The Last... Nobody can tell you except God Himself.... Haha...

Hmm actually i know that everyone can really think deeply as there are research shows that a person is actually only using 3% of their mind... I wonder: What about the 97%??? Even genius only used at most 5% of their brain... It's amazing, dun u think so???? Haha... But i dunno why i always think so much until i can't stop my brain from thinking jus one moment... People might says it's worrying, but i dun really think so as i need to think b4 my actions so that i can minimise the hurtings towards others... I wanna forget myself and serve others first with the Love of God... Cuz i really believe that i should not be selfish and also on top of that, i must treat myself nice and on top of that i really wanna train myself to treat other nice... Hmm as it is written on the Bible : " LOVE UR NEIGHBOUR AS URSELF".... I need to learn hw to sacrifise, but i also need to learn hw to treat myslf well be4 stepping into that level... Dun u think so??? haha... Alot of people treat others well but not everyone treat themselves as well, but Think about this: If u treat others well is jus for the sake of pleasing that particular person so that u cn gain something out of them, u can might as well FORGET it as others wants U treating them well WITH ur TRUE HEART...

Hmmm wow.. u see, i had written so much.... hahaha.... But i dun think alot people will have the patience to read it as so detail as EVERYONE IS HAVING LIMITED TIME FOR CERTAIN STUFFS... hahaha... Hmm for those who reallly take ur time to read, i really can say Thank u for ur precious time... As I'm not too sure who are u and u make ur efforts to read so much of me... I hope u can fimd something out of here and really wish that u will find ur way to GOD THE ALMIGHTY at ur OWN DESIRES...

To Be Contiuned.....

Right now I'm peace...

2007-05-22T02:13:00.000-07:00

Hallelujah.. Praise the Lord of hosts... I wanna thank God that i am in His peace... Yes!! hmm i do believe that God is the great peace of my life... I loved Him all... Hmm i can stop using phone for a few days... hahaha... Good sia, finaaly got another breakthrough.. I am more and more in love with God... Hmm i really get back the passion i have for God like in the past right now... I will continue to train myself to be more and more like Him as He is my First Love.... Before i know Him, I was not in love, not being filled with love, i am even more childish over a certain kind of things and be angry very easily... Right now, i've learned to be humble and not to be too proud... Cuz i i used to be proud... FINALLY, i can APPLY WHAT I HAVE LEARNED BEFORE.... Hallelujah..... I don't like to ask my surrounding friends to teach me in my homework because i got pride in my life den i dun accept any other teachings besides my teacher.. But right now, in accounting course, i had learned to be humbled and i can learned from my fellow classmates... Its a New And Good Start for me... And also above of that, i con communicate to people and friends that are much much more older den i am.... Cuz in the pass i will not talk to them besides my teachers and when i got no choice den i talk to them... hahaha.... Hmm i thank God for all this changes and i deeply believed that i can be changed even more in my life and also in my looks and appearance to be more and more like God.. A healthy, slimmer me... So, wait to see the changes in me again SOON!!!

To Be Continued.....

A new beginning in a brand new cell group, may be temporary or permanent... It's God's will...

2007-05-22T01:52:00.000-07:00

Right now i am in N139... It is an adult cell group... I felt even more encouraged there as there are more people that are mature... I think i am more suitable in that kind of environment as the people over there are really more in thinking and also in spiritually.. In the environment, i believe i can be more and more like God.... Not that in the previous cell group i can't grow, but without unity, there will be no grow... Yes, i need to wait upon God as i had learned that waiting actually is good sometimes as God will come in the right time to be my Rescue... He is the source of all... Thank God that i am in N139... Hmm in this way, while loving God, i can learn more in the cell group besides the blessings of God that are starting to run in, into my life again.... Hallelujah... God is good all the time and all the time God is good.... I am in the passion of loving God again... i will never forget His goodness and will always count my blessings....

To Be Continued..............

Start of school

2007-05-02T21:30:00.000-07:00

Its a brand new start of my life right now.... Its school time already... hmm everytime as i blog, i found out that i've put in alot of the emotionnal kinds of things that i dun really like that much... cuz for me, i really wish to live in a peaceful life... Who else doesn't?? Therefore i think its quite unfair of how i treat my surrounding people different... I love to be cheeful instead of complaining in my whole life... Everyday is a new start for me to learn new things or recap somethings' new and by doing so our life will have a good purpose of meaning of it ... Hmm sometimes what i wrote in the blog really helps me to reflect what i had done wrong while some of the updates can help others in their life too... So why not i changed myself and to be a encouraging person??? Its because i also got weakness in me and also alot of disencouraging people around me... Hmm i met some that are quite positive but due to my OWN negatives, its makes them like a fool also.... I really hope to be get rid of the bad in life and CHANGED..... Haha.. The scholl had started.. New bunch of people around me... Haha... Time to learn new things man.....

To Be Continued

Changing of mindset

2007-04-18T02:54:00.000-07:00

Its been long ever since i blog... i wish to cancel this blog so that no one can ever know my blog ever again... However, this blog had help mi to express alot of things that i wasn't dare to express in the real life... Haha... Recently, i told a aguy that i like him... And i want him to be my god brother... Some people might think, why i like him and yet i want him to be my god brother?? The reason is simple, cuz i want to stop myself from liking him... Hahahaha... So funny right?? But anyway, i can just stop contacting this person...HAhahaha.... I got a bit crazy sometimes.. Hmm anyway i believe i like him its jus a crush only la... Later i will start like someone else liao.... Hmm i also dunnno how he feel about mi also.... But i also dun wish to find out due to its too embarrass liao la.... Hmm i had gone back to church, but so how i dun feel comfortable... i think its the devil who stirr up the confused mind and heart.... hmmm but i love God of course, cuz He is always there for mi when i need Him... I love to be with God, however i dun feel like it as last time as its totally different already.. hmm i also dunno what to do right now and i in a mess... I hope someone can help mi... hahaha... I had forgiven all the past and will start a brand new life really soon.... So... Wait for my new life stories and great testimonies to be updated ba!!...:) Take care...

To Be Continued....

Stressful life....

2007-03-14T03:48:00.000-07:00

I find that living is so stressful.. I got to face so many struggles.... I really wish to DiE.... I dun like to live already... At home is family problem.. loads and loads of problem... Haiz.... I am so tired of living... I dun like to be Tan Geok Heok..... This character is suffering so much of family problems... If I can be another person that lives in heaven will be so much better for me... I really been trapped for so long and really wish to be get out of alot of things.... I really wantded to go back to church and to be set free!!! I've been suffocated... I wish to die... Haiz... No one can understand my feelings... Haiz....

Hmm i m going to church later on..

2007-03-02T21:19:00.000-08:00

haha.. long time de updates... cuz bz ma... hmm i'd like to go church later bcuz i very sian liao.... I've being so lazy to go out and everything... sian..... hmm dun wanna waste money ma... lol.... hmmm hope i will not c anyone i noe... haha... i feel i m so closed down.. later maybe crying out loud... hahaha.... haiz... God is a good God after all.. He respect my decision.... Hmm i did so much sins and He is great enough to forgive... i'll feel so touched again.. haha.... hmm i so tired... dunno later will tua ppl nt sia.. haha.. so sian.... haha.... i go alone so that i can go off early later.... hmm cuz i dun wanna c ppl... hmm i wanna be alone.... haha... so funny.... i did so many strange thingy sia... lol.... hmm i wanna be a loner... so i can noe myself more to express myself even clearer than b4... hahaha.... k la, i dun wanna bored u all who might get the chance to c my blog de ppl... take care all.. wish u all have a great day...

To Be Continued......

Haiz... Feeling my life is so sux nw!! my life is sux now....

2007-02-22T03:18:00.000-08:00

Haiz....Why my life is so boring now???? Isit bcuz i din go church??? I also dunno... haizz... I want to get back my life again!!!! Hmm recently like i very not in the mood of anything.... So sian in doing all things.... Hmm i got a bursary award... den i missed the time to hand in... I gotten the ang bao, but i got to pay up for stuffs... I am so stress... I started to smoke again and i now wanted to quit smoking... I wanted to go back to church, but i really duno where to go... Like the church got no more rooms for me already... I dun like team work but yet i need to face it somehow.... Haizz.... so sian sia..... hmm i wanna breakthrough again... to a realm that no one will come and bad inflenuce my life.... I wanna be with someone that is lively not boring, cuz life already is quite a bored to me.... I wanna find a bf to settled down realy soon... Cuz i really dun wanna be alone.... I sometimes find so many frens that are not really right, but juz bcuz i dun wanna feel neglected, i will do things with them... Bad influence good, but it is the matter of that particular person who wants or dun want to be influenced... I wanna CHANGE le... I wanna go bak to a lively me le... So please wait.. Now is the time for a short break... I'll Be Back!!!

To Be Continued.....

Working at Carrefour... So TIRED!!!

2007-02-07T02:13:00.000-08:00

Wah.. Time Flying so quickly... I had been working at carrefour for 2 to 3 weeks... Hmm there so crowded sia... Especially level 1.... hmm every day got to scan and scan.... very tired actually.. Today i off.. so got the time to blog.... Hmm life is like a day,, We must live without regrets.... Oh no!! i started smoking again... Haizz... i wanna quit again..... Hehe.. i Believe i can de.... Cuz i quit 2 times b4.... But sometimes it maybe stress or sth that make mi feel wanna smoke again.... Haizz..... Haha... In carrefour there are so many ppl i noe... Some quite friendly la.. other not really leh.... Different ppl different kind of feeling la... haha.... No all like mi and m=not all dislike mi.... So anyway i juz stop sharing now.... c ya another time... hehe.. :)

Janurary 8 - 10.... Genting time!!

2007-02-07T01:50:00.000-08:00

Wow , its been long ever since i blog.. Hmm this is already FEB le... Wah.. So fast man..
On Jan 8-10, my uncle SPONSER me to Genting... Wow... the trip is cool man!! The Coach we take is a 16-seater only, 2 level... So excited man... Hmm the coach got built in function of tv... and Massge chair.. Ohh.. i like massage very much... hahaha... Got food provided but i think it was YUCKZ!!

We went in and check in hotel and after tat we went shopping.. wow, the first day was such a nice whether sia... Hmmm my auntie came iut of the coach and vomitted... Eeeek... But no choice is the body cannot take it thats why lo...
My cousins and i didn't go and play cuz we thought that the second day would be a good day to play... But you know what is in the end?!! The second day is such a stupid day and followed by the third day... haiz.... Saddies... But it is damn good!!! I got to SHOP!! I bought alot of stuff!! over RM $400+..... My uncle PAID ALL... WOW!!! But the last day we manage to play INDOORs games.. Haiz.. so Damn SIAN!!! But overall its a wonderful trip i got... Hehe....

Yoz... New year liaoz....

2007-01-04T11:13:00.000-08:00

lol.... haha... Happy new year!! hmm i like myself most.. hahaha... i like to blog wor... lol... hmm i think i don't want to like anyone liao... Cuz liking a person is so stress and sia... so i rather like myself sia.. lol... At least like myself is lesser stress.... Lol... and i am adorable... Lol... hmm i going to genting soon .... Yes!!! hmm on the 8 january 2007... I AM GOING OUT OF SINGAPORE...
Walau... This year already 18 liaoz... haiz... So sian.. My 17 yrs old haven't pass wor.. lol.... oh yea.... cuz my bday is on sept ma... lol..... hahaha.... kkz.. hmm gtg... take care wor... bye...

Last day of 2006!!

2006-12-31T00:07:00.000-08:00

Oh no!! The time is like flying here and there... I have encounters a lot of stuffs... A new year ahead... I hope it will be fine.... Hmm i hope i can have the willing mind to go back to God's house again... haha.. But it seems so little chance to go back... Hm i hope that year 2007 is a new beginning of my another chapter of story... Hmm i really hope all will be well today... Hm... Quite sad... All have misunderstndings and not yet settled and year is almost ended just like that.. hahaha... hmm ok la... wishes everyone a happy new yr and God bless... Take care...

25 Dec 2006... Merry Christmas

2006-12-26T06:08:00.000-08:00

Hohoho!!Merry christmas to all man... Hm today really quite sux.. went orchard and kana squeeze... omg.. i'm squash.... hahaha.. lol.. but its a bad day for my fren angeline.. walau she damn suai lor.. Her hp lost during been squash by the bangalas... followed by her shoes kana broken... what a bad day for her wor.. haiz.. feel sad for her la.. hmm btw i today also quite funny.. not enough slp wor... like hell man... juz slp for 1 hr + for the whole 2 days.. hahaha.. lol..
hmm i am so sian man... we go to orchard and from there to dhoby ghaut and den rest fopr a while and we walk to bugis and sfter that to cityhall mrt station and to esplande.. walau.. damn sian arh... hahaha... lol..... Goosd day good day.. at the noon.. my uncle ask me to go out.. we went to send my fren off to guangzhou.. hahaha.. so admire her.. but no choice la, she is from china ma... hmm at night i go and play bowling.. wah.. cool man.. play until hand pain.. throw for 40 and More times leh.. hahaha... hmm i staying at my uncle house and play com until nobody business... hahaha.. nice hor,... Thank God for His blessings.. Gd nite!!

December 24.... 2006

2006-12-25T11:56:00.000-08:00

I went tpo fetch weeleong back at pasir ris mrt station... wah so tired cuz overall i just sleep for 1 hour that day... Haizz.. how i wish i can skip... i went with sin hwee and sianghao.... haha... so funny is that the bus we take is the exact same bus that i take with weeleong on the very day he went in to tekong... hahaha... Lol... hmm when we going back, we discuss what to eat and others... but i mostly is chatting on the phone with my frens of meeting the.. haha so fun... cuz it would be christmas soon!! hmm i take a lot of trips of buses and train.. OMG.. fare will change to adult fare on jan07.. sian ar.. hahaha.. cannot anyhow take ride liao lor.. hai... i went all the way back wdls and aft eating i went to orchard... On the way i am sleeping.. haha.. Nice sweet sleep man...

After reading some posts.....

2006-12-18T01:56:00.000-08:00

I felt damn funny abiut this particular person's blog... Stupid shit man... I don't know why that person so stupid... That person is someone i know for quite a handful of years... Hmmmm I think its so funny... That person is crazy... Listen to my voice and said that it is addictive to hear my voice... Comments that my voice is nice after saying its ok and that's me and how i sound... To that person, its like life only got so little things to do and nothing else... Walau.. That person got no feelings de... I think that person should faster get out of my life one days if possible... Hahaha.... So sian diaoz... Haiz.... Nothing better to say liao.. Just wish that person good luck all the way ba....

Merry Christmas... But don't know what to do during that very day...

2006-12-18T01:33:00.000-08:00

Hohoho!! merry merry Christmas to all.... Hahaha.. It's once again, Christmas season... Wow... One year passes so quickly and fast... I have not experience the May and June season and its now Dec?!!!!!!!!! Walau... So fast like what sia.... Hahaha... Haiz... Sian again sia... Don't know what to do during the weekend sia... Nobody invites me out and play... Maybe i will be calling my bunch of ite friends out and play ba... If not i will be going out with cousins or ex school mates... Hahaha... Remembered last year this season i was out with one of my cousin after chc service... Hahaha... Quite fun man... But this year, i am not sure whether i am going to chc or not or perhaps going alone to one of the service and after that going out to meet my friends... I don't wish to go service with concerning cell group people because it is such a horrible day i think for me... Hahaha.. I mean no harm... Just my thughts ba..... Everytime this seasons, many will be added to the kingdom of God... But however, if those who are saved and yet being neglected, their feeling can be like this: " what is christianity about? A religion only what... What so big deal?" Because they cannot sense the relationship with other christian friends or maybe they do not know how and what to do to build up the relationship... If they stepped into cell group that often neglecting one another like mine, they will feel even depress about Christians.... Oh please... There are more to explore in every religion in this world... No clue but to experience yourself... I love Jesus and i really found love that i need... But the people are not loving enough in my cell... What a pity... N122 is actually a very good cell group in the very beginning, but now.... it had become a tragedy to all that are in there... I will never think of returning to that group even though that is my comfort zone... I need to learn to step out of my comfort zone maybe or what... But i really hope people in there can do well... God Bless in this Christmas Season....

Roller Blade...

2006-12-09T01:44:00.000-08:00

Oh yes, i know how to roller blede already.. really been so fruitful for all the bruise... Long time never fall down le... Hahaaha... Time to change and to experience the fall... hohoho... Good man... I am so proud of myself of willing to take the first step of knowing how to experience fallin... If not there is no way that i can learn... Thank God for His miracle... Really fantastic wor... I'm loving it man.... Hope to experience more of life... I felt that its good to experience life through roller blade also... The determination of me to learn that skill is there... Wow.. It a good starts man... hahaha... overall its a good friday... 08/12/2006

wow.. a very good book indeed....

2006-10-13T02:39:00.000-07:00

Today, i have went to my secondary school, which is Evergreeen Sec to get a foot massage book from Mr. Sui... After just a flip of that particular book, i felt that the book is just right and fantastic for me... Wahahaha... The one i want to "torture" using this book is my mother... Hahaha... Because she always wanted me to help her to massage he feet all the time when i am sitting on the bed beside her legs... So fustrated man... Like what sia.... Wahahaha... Then I went to library to borrow some more books concerning massage also... wah!!! even more fantastic for me... So next time i can have a potential skills also... But indeed, it will takes me a lot of time to study and read all these, but yet i will try my best to master it ba... The book that Mr. Sui lent me is from his friend, wah... all in the traditional chinese words which are hard to understand sia... Wahahaha... but i will try though... Hehe... When i see that book, i imediately regret to lend from the person because it is such a hard book to read sia.... But after i filp it, i found a lot of interesting stuffs that i can learn, so i will try to learn for a period of time... If i think i can do it, i will start taking the next step to the next level of learning these massage... Wahahaha.. Then i can open a massage shop in the near future... That's very great idea indeed... Wahahaha...

Money issues in my family...

2006-10-09T00:54:00.000-07:00

No matter how others that money as a possesion outside the world or what, my family is always having quarrels over money issues more than others... My family went through the very hard times, we even nearly met bankruptcy in the early days of my childhood... ThanK God the people around me, my relatives, to stand out for us and helped us a lot... Money is not eveil i believe, but it has the very least and too powerful effects if we don't know how to handle it well.. The fiancial status in my house is quite bad and recent just get a bit better, Bad things happened again... My dad get into gamble habits and owe lots of lots of money.... When in pri 3, my family is in a debt environment...My dad get worst... No one can help him except himself is willing to change his habits.... As always, i wanted to save money, but my money will get stolen by my dad or brother... I am so hopeless in saving and i stopped to save up... I know that is wrong as we need to save some of the goods for the later years when we had emergency.... But i don't have the faith to save money... I wanted to change this habit and start to save... I want to get a permanent part time job and others, but i am too lazy.. i need to change in this bad habit... Money is the source that we have, but not that enough... haiz... Money in my family is quite eveil as we don't know how to save money... what is this as my mum said: "our house is lack of money, so we need to open our house for more gambles???" Haiz... Who can help me? I really need helps in a lot of areas.... Haiz... I rather love God then to love money.... I'd love to get wealthy, but, relationship must not worsen in my family... Haiz... Diasappointments in my family especially in the sense of monet issues... haiz.... haiz... haiz... Sian ar....

My brother

2006-10-09T00:24:00.000-07:00

My brother is some one i don't really like too.... He is very misbehaving ans often get himself into troubles... I really wish that he can be more understandable towards others... Everytime when he did something wrong, he will always keep quiet like my dad.... The whole family are in a mess right now... And still, my brother is not thinking well enough... Everything that come to pass, my brother is always seems so not bother... Maybe he is trying to express that he wants to care, but my family is no communication at all... What for it is call a family?
Family will communicates and cares for all... Maybe its because our caring system at home is not up to a standard whereby all will communicates... My brother seems so carefree in spite all the problems... how i wish to be like him.... Really... In the past, he often bullied me and make me like his slave... And always makes me feel so depressed... He is quite humours too... But he is very hot tempered and short tempered... I and him often get into quarrel and fights last time, but in the midst of our bad things, we "patched" up very quick too... He is quite violent... I am the one who always get hurts from him and everytime i will cry secretly due to the bad violent thing that he did to me like kick or punch me hardly with his fist and leg... However, time and time passed, all changed to better and better, i now seldom quarrel and fight with him... We are like good friends now... That is a great thing to be proud of... Thank God for His righteousness and doings that i can be in a better realtionship with my brother...

I Love my mother

2006-10-08T15:22:00.000-07:00

In the family... I love my mother the most as she really sacrifise the most.. she would really let me to have the very food when she is really more hungry then me... I love my mother because she is the only one who is supporting the family... Every morning at 6.25am, she will rush out for work till 5 to 6 pm... Her love to the family really a lot a lot... Even though i didn't say it out, but she is the one whom love the house even though it has been broken long long time ago.. Sometimes i really don't understand how she feels, but i really want to show care and concern to her in the smallest way in expressing my deep heart love for her... I really want my dad to stop the evil doings that hurt my mum, but i really don't know what is the right way of telling him.... All the while was my mothe who did the households, earning the very few dollars to eupport the family.. I love you mummy.. That is something i want to express out but i really don't have the courage to do so... Friends, Mothers have their difficulties too... Please try to understand as they sometimes don't know how to expressed themselves well enough for each and everyone of us who is a child to them... Nobaody knows how a mummy's feeling without the true communication... I admit that communication is the poorest that my family is with... Thats why we don't even express that we do love and care for one another so easily... Friends, Stop ur cold wars with ur family.. especially ur mothers... who give birth to you all with the 9 months of pregnancy.... Thank God that my mother was not others but, Qu Lan Yin, is my lovely mother who had showed unconditional love to my family... Thank you mummy, I will always love you..!!

I dislike my father the most... In my family of 4

2006-10-08T15:02:00.000-07:00

My mother has been syffering and strif hard to work in the American school.. But everything changes this time round... My dad is a gambler since i was primary 2 or 3... He has never quit gambling ever since even though we gave him many chances... He smokes too and got no cares about the house... my mother beared it so hard through and finally we got a much more better life than before... My mother fight the fight with all her strength and now, she is around 50 yr old... Oh no... I really wish tat i can hate ppl, but in God's will, i must never hate... And must honoured them... I felt like crying right now as the time passes by... i dislike my dad even more to the core even though i still own him as my dad.... nothing changes.. things became worst when i just heard that my dad had stolen my mum's golden jewellary!!!... My mum was crying really badly... How can a man did that to a female?? I promise myself not to marry such man in the future.... I want my mum to be a happy retiree... I really very sad right now about this... I feel like crying out loudly as i could.. my hearts is breaking when my mum is crying... She work so hard and all her efforts were gone... just because my dad's bad habits.... I really dislike my dad and really wish that my mum would divorced him real soon and forget him... Why because of shotgun and marry??? Its not true that single parent will make the child suffers... Marry a wrong person makes ALL suffers... I will want to know my future husband TOTALLY before i make that saying of "I DO".... I don't want a man who is like my dad's character... NO WAY MAN.. I can tell u straight away... That man will be kicked out of my world and story... I want to rebuild my mother's broken heart again.... I want to fight the fight with her.... Please send mi comments of what and how to do it... Thank u...

JEALOUS HEART!!

2006-10-01T02:43:00.000-07:00

I am so jealous of my brother... He got a brand new phone while I still using my super old phone!! I am jealous because my mother seldom buy so good quality phone to me... The first time she buy the nokia 6510 to me and after 3months, she took it back and tell me because i overspent my phone bills..... I am so sad lor... So unfair... Sometimes treally thinking whether if i am really my mother's real daughter or not.... Haizzz.... So whatever lor... How i wish to scolded all the vulgars out fron a~z now!! I am so disappointed about this... So sad over this... I want to buy a mp3 but my mother said that if i buy, i will not get any money for my allowances... So UNFAIR!!!!! I'm so stress and feeling so down..... Why my mother always like that one??? Buy to one and let the other jealous... And also put boys higher position as girls... I don't care.. I don't want to help her to do anything since i didn't get the benefits... and all the benefits are all my brother's.... Ask my mother to use my brother to do the housework la... Since she treasure him so much like all slave stuff to do is me and all the prince stuff and others good things belongs to my brother!!! I am so sad towards my mother... She once again and again hurt me and treat me like slave and my brother as her prince AND princesss... What is me then??? A bondage and a slave to her.... Haiz.... I am jealous... jealous... Jealous!!!!!

Hey.. Thanks for everything.. Feeling still down but much better right now...

2006-09-25T03:36:00.000-07:00

Really wanted to say thanks to Yan Yan and also to Siang hao who are wiling to listen to my grandmother story of all my unhappiness.... Really appreciate them to be my part of my life as my friends.... Hahaha..... Even though i am still down in my emotions, but really want to thank them for everything that they did in my life... I like to share a lot to them as i felt that they are trustworthy and really feeling comfortable when i talk to them.... Hehez.... Hope to be friends forever with them.... Oh ya... By the way, let me say this: I don't know what we will be in the future, but right now really want to say THANK YOU FOR BEING MY FRIENDS... To all my friends around me.... Hmm and to those friends whom i have ever been offended to you: I'M SORRY AND HOPE THAT YOU WILL FORGIVE ME ONCE AGAIN.... Hahaha.... For those who knows me well please note that when i am "closing down" you will be the first/last that i will be closed to.... : DEPENDS ON MY MOODS LAH.... So hope that everything in my friendship line will goes on... Even though some of my friends may be in the past tense, present tense or continuous tense which i really don't know, but right now i want to say is: LETS US BE HAPPY FRIENDS BEFORE ANYTHING HAPPENS THAT MIGHT MAKES US STRIVE APART OR CLOSER..... HAPPY FRIENDS FOREVER!!!!!!!!! GOD BLESS!!!!!!!!!!

Haiz.... Being scolded by mother again....

2006-09-25T03:00:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i really don't understand my mother... She is the one who give birth to me and yet the one who don't know me the best ever.... Even though i don't know myself yet, but i think those who are around me might at least observe me and know a little bit of myself... My mother is the one who always saying something to failed me and always by using very depressing words to hurt me while yet she is still complaining that she is the one get hurts most of the time... I know i cannot pass this comments as i am not a mother yet, but i think even i am a mother, i will at least try to understand how my kids feel before i want to condemn them.... I got no rights to condemn as in the Bible, God told us never to condemn with the still, imperfection in you.... So i will try to control my anger and to be slow to anger.... Recently, Pastor kong shared about the anger pyramid and that teaches me alot of things... !st in the pyramid is ANGER, the last of all the pyramid is the LOVE that i am seeking in my nature home.... Ever since i was young, i had so many hurts and fears and negative feelings... Thats why sometimes i felt that it is hard to love then to get love... I wish to get loved by others but i'm so afraid to love others as i scared that the person might not know my real intentions and use hurting words back to me... Haiz.... My life now is in the mess now... I can't see what will my future be right now.... i'm so confused and afraid to face the future of my life... What can i do????? Can anyone tell me???? Thanks....

I love God but I don't know how to love people

2006-09-24T05:43:00.000-07:00

I am closing down right now as I am being hurt for lots and lots of time... By family problem and how others critise me... I really don't know how to listen to others and keeping on wanting people to listen from me.... I am so sad as i realise that i don't know how to love people.... I don't know how to love myself too... The only One i know how to love is God.... Maybe because only He knows how i feel and do really care about me.... Although throughout this and last page are all negative pages, but i really don't know how to be self encouraged this moment.... I felt myself to be crashing down and going to burst off anytime... I don't a heart to care anymore as i, myself had been so hurt.... I don't know what is call real friendship even though sometimes i pretend that i know... Please forgive me if you are one of my friends as if i really ever been hurting you in my words.... I felt like God is setting a test for me to pass right now and i can say i really very stress and really thinking of giving up.... I don't think i can carry on with the same cell group anymore.... I don't know why and i feel like backslidding and not going for the cell group meetings and what so ever.... I really felt very negative.... I can't breathe.... I am going to sink.... I feeling of dying right now....

What am I going to do?

2006-09-10T22:55:00.000-07:00

I am in a confuse nowadays.... I don't know what am i suppose to do... I really want to be like a child, free of worries and had nothing much more to care.... I really want to forget the past and continue my future.... What am I doing??!!! Sometimes I felt that I am in such a wrong in doing certain kinds of thing.... I know that is bad, but why am I doing it???? i really don't want to go in deeper until there is no help... No... I want to go towards the godly side and never the ungodliness in my personal life... But what can i do??? Haiz... I am not a perfect person even though sometimes my words may be encouraging... I am not a good listener and i tried to be one... its hard sometimes for me to discover one's potential... As I don't even get to know myself better in the first... Oh no... what am i suppose to do?? can someone please help me.... Thank you....

Working experiences

2006-09-10T05:49:00.000-07:00

Hmmm... its been long ever since i visit this web... Well, all this while, i had been working for my attachment at NTUC clementi B branch.... Its kind of mini mart actually... I had learnt that working is indeed hard and easy... Hard as in the hours is long and I got to disciplined myself this 2 months to wake up early to start work... Everyday is such a routine that I am quite use to it already... Everyday, I got to wake up at 6am to get ready and by 630 to 640am I got to reach woodlands Mrt station and I must take the train between 645 to 652am if not i will be late for my work... And i learnt from my work that we cannot cry over the spilt milk as it was already spilt, what we must do over the spilt milk is to clear it up and get on moving and to get another better one... Over there, My "specialty skill" is to mop the floor and to make sure every part of the shop is clean... I will felt uneasy if the floor is very dirty... over there, i also learnt somthing that i had refuse to be and that is the 'teamwork' of life... Even though we got to learn ti be independent, but the teamwork also must be there as so we can work it out fast and accurate... The manager had told me about the business concept which i think that is a very important thing i must know as even for the later job i get i need to use it too... Normally i am super lazy to move, but over there even i am sick, i got to make a point that i still need to be there as there might be a "short of hand" if i was not there... However, I really want to highlight is that I have learnt that to trust on God strength and to do His will as everything was planned of how and what it meant to be.... Throughout the attachment, I really depended on God's strength as for me, i cannot do it with my own strength... However, due to the attachment, there is somehow my relationship with God affected... I have not been really been praying and do His true will... And i want to make a point to build that relationship with God again when my schedule is set... I want to make a point to plan my time and a time for God as I love God truely with all my heart.... Even sometimes i am sick during work, i thank God that He gave me the strength to carry on... I will love God forever and ever.... For its Him who love me first... Amen... :)

Success in life

2006-07-14T13:17:00.000-07:00

Successful person are those who willing to pay a price of hardwork in their life.... The determination to be success must be there and not to be fear of failures in life. Who does not want to be successful and live a great life? But due to sometimes of the fear of failures and so, finding excuses not to try those things that seems to be hard for them... Me for example, I am not that stable and able to balance myself, therefore I use that i am afraid as an excuse not to learn bicycle and also things that associating of balancing myself... That is quite ashamed of me and so yucks.... I want to be successful like others but my determination towards success is very low and is easily moved in many ways... I am so disappointed with myself and more.. What is this??!!! Truely, if you do not have the basic foundation of faith in urself, whatever you do will not sucess...
Because the first step to success begins with what you think you can be and not what others hope of what you can be... different people had different point of views, but yet you need to be firm sometimes and NOT to be proud to keep on of what you are doing also, you need to be humble and to listen to the positive comments others have in your life....
Friends, everyone can be successful as what they THINK themselves to become.... Nobdy is perfect in life and we must learn sometimes through hardship and more and also to learn of how to be more perseverances in life.... WE ARE WHO WE ARE... I believe that everyone need to change of what God told them to be as sometimes our (human) words might not in a correct manner of what we want to express... because we might hurt others by our words and they might become depressed by our hurtings words... We need to depend on God too for the success as God is always a SUCCESSFUL GOD... We must look beyond of our OWN point of view and try to step into what God wants us to see and so we might become more positive.... So friends, trust on God in eveything that we do and also believe that we can be sucessful and MORE successful in life.... May the peace of God be with you and be of good courage... Take care...

Experiences

2006-05-30T22:35:00.000-07:00

In life, there are so many experiences that we can learn. Goods and also bad experiences we will surely face. Friends, everyday that we live a life that is full of experiences that is either good and bad... As for me, whether it is good or bad, i will take it as a stepping stone or a strength to go on in my life... So many feelings appear in between when i experiencing them... Being happy, sad, angry, excited and many others... I do not really like some of them but however, they appear so that I can learn more and to become more mature... How is it feel like being love by people??
I really don't know this feeling even though I been through a boy girl relationship with a whatever person... what is the experience of a determined person? I have experenciced so many negative stuffs and throughout its so tough to carry on my life... Thank God for His strength to go on and making my life to the fullest... Sometimes I really wish that I can experience more on positive rather than negativeness of life... Friends, all things have their own experiences... its the matter of what we choose to be.... There are surely many negative experiences that we had to face... But overall it is most important of what we learn through these experiances the life that we must face.... my heart is so burden over so many things and whatrever it is.... my heart desire is to taste a love experience from someone i like or so.... Thank God for His true love for me.... Friends, Experiensce life to its fullest... When my grandmother passed away, that heart felt experence is so pain and hard to forget.... I learn to be strong by myself... Those negative experiences are the hardest to overcome as everytime as we think back our life, these negativeness may pull us down to our lowest point of life again... Experiences is part of life that we can learn from them.... Don't be dishearted friends, everything will come into an end... Nothing on this earth are everlasting except the pure love we have for one another and all good memories that we reflected back each time.... Sometimes we might not like the experiences, but thats life... So be of good courage and learn from all the experiences that we had faced..... May God be with you as you face every part of experiences in life!! :) Always look on the brught side!! Take care!!!

LOVE

2006-05-29T21:28:00.000-07:00

What is Love??? I always wanted to ask myself this question..... I don't know what is love... can anyone tell me???? But I did experience a very touching Love when I know God.... Love is such a sarcrifise... Wow... I really do not know how to love like Jesus who is so willing to do the will of God and to die on the Calvery 2000 years ago... I really wish to experenice a true and real love from someone i love and to have an exciting relationship with them.... hmmm.... sometimes i felt so negative and i do not really want to think whether is there a real love besides the love of Christ... I do believe there will be true love besides the love of Christ even though there are so many unloving people in this world.... hmm maybe i am naive about this but whatever it is i will hope to wait for the real and truth love that i really hoped for... Love is assuredly a sarcrifise and also pain in some of the things that your love ones did to you... i do not really feel the love of my worldly family as there is not really a true and genuine love as what i think... yes, i know that my parents had tried their best to show the love and concern for me and my brother, but the way they do it is not really sounds right... i really want a loving family.. i do love my family even though they are not that loving... anyway i believe in love because if there is no love, there will not be me living until now... Love from a weird family with not much of communication... LOve is indeed a lot a lot of cries and happiness... I love my grandmother... However she's gone.. Last year, when i was celebrating my friend's birthday, i was "celebrate" my sad grandmother's funeral... I love my grandmother very much... She is the one who look after my from young and i really really love her a lot a lot.... She will always be in my mind... I love my mother, but i do not know how to say that "I love you" to her... As i do not have the practice.... How can I love unconditionally to all that not loving me that much???? Haizzz....... Love is what i hope for.. I love God and hope for His love as He is loving even though sometimes i think that i am not that worthy enough for His great love...... Thank God that He let me found the 1st love.... He had touched my life with His unconditional love... Friends, if you need love, you have to learn to love others 1st... Love is not free but it is what you achieved for... Love is forever here as if there isn't love from God; we will not be here and enjoy the suroundings and others' love... There will have no care and kindness and mercy in this world.... Love others and love yourself.... If you want other's love, you need to love yourself 1st before others love you.. Because if you do not have the basic love for yourself, do you think that others will love you? A person without self confidence always have self pity of their own self and so even the whole universe says that "I love you" to him or her; they will not think so... They may think that all of the people is lying and evrything else besides knowing the facts that the people are being truthful and loving them with all their hearts... Friends, Jesus loves you and I love you too... Have a faith to believe it and you can really sense that you are being loved by someone.... Take care and may God bless you!!!!!!

Changes

2006-05-22T02:18:00.000-07:00

wow, its being so long ever since i came in here... right now i am in Bishan ITE and everything seems fine to mi.. although there are frens who left mi... i believe that new friends will still come to mi too... i have gain in my confidence ever since that day when i first stepped into the church.... i have understand that life is not always that smoothly and i got to learn of how to become more stronger in emotional ways. i have know so much things and have fallen into so much of troubles what is the uses of all these?? sometimes i wander... but however i found out that everything is a process for us to grow into more mature status... i have quite a lot of wisdom and i want to thank God for the wisdom of everything...

Jesus had died for my sins and I love Him forever... i want to grow more mature as it will benefit myself... i do not want to be like the past anymore... what i love is that to become slacker... but i want to be mature and to become a hardworker... i will change for the better as i must change... thank God for everything He did to my life...

To those who are discourage by their apperance

2005-08-24T19:08:00.000-07:00

Friends, outer beauty although is very important, but the inner beauty is the most important of all... Let say you know a person whose has outer beauty but the character of that person is very bad, whatsoever even their looks is so perfect? Friends, God looks into the hearts and way beyond what a person does.. The outer beauty is just an addition or just a "reward" God placed in us.. Yes, indeed the world is looking for someone who has the outer and not the inner beauty of a person; but what it takes to be pretty outside but inside is like a rotten apple?? It takes nothing.. Trust me, God creates in you what He think is the best for you... I do not have the outer beauty, but i need to keep the inner beauty that i have.. Prides that you have can cause you to make other people think that you are acting cool or as we say, "ACBC" in alot of ways.. But if you Don't have the basic faith in yourself, others will think of what you think about yourself also.. I have experienced a very low self-esteem before, just like you.. Perhaps you may think that is impossible, but it is a truth.. Actually there is no ugly people in the world, as even the most ugly person in the world will have his or her good beauty in the inner hearts of them.. The worst person in the world is that he or she do not have the outer NOR the inner beauty in themselves.. Trust in yourself that even you are in the lowest point of your life.. Trust in yourself but NOT pride.. Friends whenever i am down or feel that i have no outer beauty and people around me are teasing me, God is always be there for me.. God accept you even you think that you are the most ugliest in the world.. look around you, see that even though you think that you are the ugliest in the world, the world are still turning and changing day by day.. you can turn into a swan someday when you have confidence in yourself and change the way you think about yourself.. Friends, sometimes it is not that other people think that you are bad, but it is a result as you yourself think that you are very bad.. Frankly speaking, my mother often depise me about how i look, and that causes me to think and to attempt suicides and other stupid things.. Friends, each other will have their own weak points and strength.. just look at the bright side of life and don't be discorage by the words other commend bad about you.. If you trust in yourself, nobody can attack you by their words.. your friends around you give you comments and is a good one, just take note of the area to change and be a better person.. Change for the better not for the worst.. Anyway, God loves and accept you the way you are... Just look upon Him when you are down.. Take care and be yourself.. you are who you are.. May God bless you!! :)

Financial Blessings

2005-08-22T23:21:00.000-07:00

God is a good God... indeed God has and had blessed me alot and alot.. whenever i give my tithe and offering, His blessing will be always there for me.. i am so touch by God's givings.. everytime when i am in need of money, there will be a financial blessing for me from my uncles or my mother will pass me the amount that i need.. Trust God for everything as He is a Almighty God.. God can bless me, He can bless u too! May God bless u and have a nice day.. Don't serve money as it will lead you to corruptions that the devil is setting for you to be trapped.. we can live without bread but not without God... One's beliefs can change for the better or the worst.. and too the bad thinking mindset can cause you trapped in a financial difficulties.. Don't do crimes and sin causes you into a deep trouble.. Be humble and trust God for everything because God is a good God.. He will take care of your needs and grant you wish if you are willing to do His will.. You will reap of what you have sown earlier, not sow after you reap.. for harvest is only there after you have sow your seeds.. Do not be so afraid to sow as God is your Provider and He will provide you of what you need and even the seeds for your sowing.. God is the Creator of all the earth and the universe.. He Is Able to do all things.. Nothing is too hard for Him.. For He is the one who set the way and the path that you are walking now.. Do His will and walk in righteousness, whatever is right for you to have, He will give it to you.. Money cannot buy alot of things cosisting of love hope and joy.. Friends, do not be deceive by the devil as he is nothing compared to the Almighty God who is Everything.. Jesus loves you and I love you too, by the love of Christ...

Regrets

2005-08-22T22:07:00.000-07:00

There may be regrets in life but friends, i encourage u not to be discourage by them.. i do have regrets, the first regret is to be lazy and slack... hmm there was one thing i regret at my pri 5 yr time.. during that period, i was in the sch basketball team, i love the sports alot.. there was once i m tired and i didnt turn up for practice, that causes me to miss a chance to play in a school match.. that is a regret in my primary school life.. hmm another regret is that i do not have the boldness to tell the gospel and spread God's love to my grandmother.. this is greatest regret i ever had.. i always love the grandmother who passed away not long ago... its about 2 mths back she died.. As wad i believe, God is the real God and Jesus is my Saviour and my Lord.. Friends, treasure the people around you.. Do not let them go away before its too late.. Regrets is sth that no one ever want to meet.. but if you don grab or treasure the time well, you will have lots of lots of regrets.. regrets not as time wait for no man.. friends, treasure wad you have and are now.. do not let opprtunity to go away.. take care and God bless..

God is Love

2005-08-21T23:59:00.000-07:00

In the world, there is no love.. As there is too much hypocrites in this world.. The world is full of darkness and swords, that will kill the people who are unbelievers of God.. God has accepted the way and who we are.. God is a healing God.. He wants us to know of His love and to do the will of God.. God wants to show mercy to the people who are still in the darkness, and so He wants to send us out as for the harvest is full but the labourers are a few.. Friends, let us do the will of God and live a righteous life for God as God is the God of righteous.. Indeed i myself is an unbeliever before, thank God that i have found Him as my Saviour and my Lord.. Be thankful towards what God has placed in your life.. God will not leave you alone.. Whenever you are down or alone, close your eyes and enjoy the presence of God and He is always be there for you.. Jesus loves you and His heart is filled with love for the world as He died on the cross for our sins.. God is willing to forgive you and He is willing to accept you of who you are... Listen my friends, i am not trying to convince you to believe, but of what i had and have experienced, i know that God is always good and His mercy endures forever.. May God bless you and His grace be upon you.. Jesus love you and so do I!! Live to the fullest of your life and not to regret of what you have done as it is impossible to turn back the time and re-do everything.. Take care..

To those who are once in love with God

2005-08-18T23:14:00.000-07:00

friends, indeed God is a Merciful God.. In 1 Jn 4:19 says, "we love Him because He first loved us." Yes, God is lovely God indeed. Jesus Christ died on the cross for us and through His blood that was shed for us, we are found pure in God's eyes.. and in Jn 3:16 says "for God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believs in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. so whenever we are feeling down, we need to go back to the first love that we had for God.. in His Word of Life, there are many things that you can discover over your life.. i had learnt that no matter what may be our circumstances, God is always there to be with us.. the world is full of darkest, but God is the Truth, the Way and the Life.. because Jesus had suffers on the cross for us, hence forth we are able to communicate the the Heavenly Father who sent Him to died on the cross for our sins.. friends, i just want to encourage you by the love of God, to turn back to Him whenever you think yourself as lowly, unworthy, God will give you the love, peace and joy that you are longing for.. fao God created us in His own image, in the weakest time of our life, God will give us the strength to carry on.. trust in Him, and everything will be alright.. i hope that you will go back to Him who is first loving us and lay down His life on the cross for us.. for God is a good God.. He will never forsake nor leave us alone.. so take care... may the peace of God be with you.. Amen.

Jesus Christ is my Lord and Saviour

2005-08-18T22:28:00.000-07:00

It is a true story, b4 i know Christ, I was a very negative person... ever since i get know 0f His love, i started to change in my attitudes and the way i think.. Jesus is LOVE.. He sacrifise His life for mi... Through Him, I now know the Heavenly Father who is loving me all the time.. There are times when i was wrong and sinning against God in my behaviour, as He is Merciful and He grace is upon me and through Jesus's blood, i was saved and being forgiven by God.. As i grow day by day in the Lord, i realised how good is He who is willingly to forgive all those who are sinning against Him... Live with Christ is never a bed of roses, even the beautiful roses have thorns that make people painful.. God sheltered me with His mercy and grace and He is the Author and the Finisher.. He has the keys to the eternal life in heaven.. i see His good work and know Him as my Lord, God and my Savior... i lift up my pains to Him and He who is a healing God heals me of every sicknesses that i have. He endures forever.. He will never forsake us noe leave us alone.. Whenever i feelling down, He is there to encourage me and too, to comfort me.. Like Jabez, i will lift up my pain to Him.. Giving Him all the glory and unto Him all the praises.. i will never outgive Him as He is the Giver of all things, He is the Creator of the whole universe, the satan have no power but the ability to lie and he is trying to get us out of the love of God that is originally belongs to us.. i can overcome all things as God had overcome the world.. Everything is alright, as i got Jesus with me.. Friends, let us not be deceive by the devil and be lost in the world; for God is Love and WE ARE LOVED BY HIM.. i will treasure God forever and ever.. Amen.. i hope that those who reads this message will get to know Him one day.. As God touches us with His everlasting Love..

About my badness

2005-04-29T01:04:00.000-07:00

Actually i scare snake, fish and a lot of animals that are in the sea and cold-blooded animals. actually i scare balloons too! My weakness is that my determination is not strong enough to do something, i am some sort of double-minded. If you are one of my friends, you can see that i am really a lazy person and don't like people to force me to do something that i dislike and i don't have the mood of doing it. I used to be rebellious and now also. It is just like a normal proceedure for me when you force me into doing something i don't like and when i am angry. i am quite stubborn too. I can say myself that i am quite easily tempted by people to do wrong things. i tend to be quit emotional and i am very sensitive towards the words, attitude of others. I really can change my attitude as fast as a situation change. I am a smoker last time and i drink too. I mix with bad company in the past and often neglect my studies. Even though i now not with them, but i never get serious to what i am doing. I can't learn quickly and i am quite a self-centred person. I do not like to talk about my personal life to others except some super close friends that i trust a lot. i sometime tend to boast around about the good things that i have achieve and do not like others to do that. I never think of others sometimes and i just care about what i do and say. I do not take good care of myself as i do not love myself that much. I do not know how to love myself and i like to gossip about other prople bad points and never think of myself. I often think that i am useless and nobody cares about my and i always hurt myself.